Body Positive Monologue

When did I start not to like my dark skin? May be when she said, "Honey, your skin got terribly dark!" Or when she remembered that tomatoes whiten and offered to wear a face mask with tomato skin. Or when bought me a Skin Whitening Cream as a git? And when did I start not to like my belly, my nose, my body hair, my head with short hair? When did I start not to like, how did I start not to like, why did I start not to like... What kind of a cruel power made me criticize what nature was giving me. Now I know who is guilty personally. She smiles to me from the cover of every magazine, billboard, poster, screen... showing off her long hair, white hairless legs, flat belly ... and imprinting these standards in my head. and I did not even know that I was poisoned with these standards even as an unborn child through my mother's blood. And every day she keeps silently encouraging me from the magazine cover never to be content with my body, look around, always see myself in comparison, think about what others think of me and makes me thirsty for being accepted. And to satisfy this thirst suggests starving myself with unhealthy diets, then offers from my nose down to go broke getting rid of my body hair waxing and using needle epilation, and from my nose up to grow hair as long and lashy as possible. And then of course hairdressing, makeup, tattooed brows and lips, pedicure, manicure ... but she is pushing me even further: she teaches me to criticize appearance of others, make comments, give unsolicited advice, evaluate, And I end up in this misogynistic and poisonous vicious circle of evaluating each other. But now that I already know the way she works and tools she uses, I have decided to liberate myself from that authority and do not let her use my own body to push her agenda. I will learn to love my body its each and every wrinkle, each and every hair, each and every color and shade... And when someone gives me some advice or express my opinion, which I never asked for, I will respond. "Thank you so much for your concern, but it's me who defines my own beauty.