I Literally Created My Cancer out of My Fear - Anita moorjani - With English subtitles

Today I am with Anita Moorjani , my friend. And if you don't know her yet she is the author of "Dying to be Me". And she had a very miraculous cancer remission in 2006, and according to several oncologists she should have died then. So if you want to learn more about her it's in her book and on her website. So today I want to talk to Anita about health, about healing. You and I know people who are always eating the right foods, and always eating organic, doing all the "right" things, detoxing twice a year and all that. But yet they don't seem well, they are still sick or they are not getting well so what do you have to say about that? I like that, I like that topic a lot, because that was me, that was me years ago. I am going back like more than 10 years ago. 10, 12, 15 years ago. I was doing all the "right things" as we say...But that was before you had cancer. Even before I had cancer.... I was detoxing, I was eating vegan food, I was growing my own wheatgrass before it became fashionable to do that, I was eating organic again before it was fashionable to do all these things and I was obsessive. I was getting all the supplements, the cancer prevention supplements. I was researching and reading cancer prevention books and guess what? I got cancer. And it's not not even in my family, I am not genetically predisposed to get cancer and yet I got cancer. But if you ask me today I know exactly why I got cancer. Which is? I lived a life of fear, every single thing I did including eating healthy I did out of fear. So I ate healthy, I was obsessive about it. The way... My focus on health, it was unhealthy. So that's the irony of it I was focused on health but in actuality I was factually focused on illness....on sickness. So the focus itself was really unhealthy. But that was my approach to everything in life...I lived a life of fear. Every choice I made, I made out of fear. So even though I was eating healthy food I was eating it to avoid illness. So, I mean in the same way that everything I did, I did because I feared... for example I fear failing. So I feared the consequences. I was driven by a fear of consequences s rather than by the drive to do positive things or to accomplish things....and that was my life. And very often I recognized myself in other people. I see people doing exactly that. You and I met in the coaching community, so as coaches we know that fear is a motivating force. So fear can motivate people to change. So for you, you were motivated by fear and you were even... ahead of many people and you were seeking out talks and books and ... In fact, I was very driven but I was driven by fear and that's not heath because it eats away. You know I mean, it's like being in a flight of flight situation all the time, rather than actually enjoy. Today, what I know is that what I learnt is that everything I do, I do because I want to do it because it brings me pleasure, it brings me joy. Because I value and love myself, I no longer live my life out of fear. And you know what interesting is, now after living through cancer, almost dying of cancer, getting a second chance of life. I value my life, I value myself, I value my health so much that I still gravitated towards healthy food, but the energy behind my choices is so different. I would choose health because I love my life and I value my life, not because I fear of illness is because I want to live longer, is because I want to be around for a long time to enjoy life and to relish every minute. And you are more motivated by being inspired about life, motivated by what you want and not what you don't want. Exactly. That's exactly what it is, I am much more motivated now by what I want. I even remember that's many years ago and this was before I got cancer. When I went to a "health talk" by a naturopath in Hong Kong and I remembered that he did a slide show where he showed all kinds of degenerative things that happened in people's body and to the animals and to the ocean and to the planet and so on. And ...by the end of the slide show, I felt very very fearful because it looked to me like everything cause cancer. Everything, you know whether sunshine, whether it's plastic, whether is eating chicken, our food has hormones, GMO mortify product and so on...Which is all true. But at the end of slide show, I was really filled with fear and I think that was the turning point for me. When I started to become really obsessive about my food. But I remember that day when he, the naturopath actually said to the audience," are you afraid?" and everybody said " Yes" and he said "well, you should be." because this is the of truth. And for me that was the turning point when I started to become fearful of everything to do with what was going into my body. So that was like right before you got diagnosed. It was before I become obsessive about my food. It was after that I really starting to become obsessive about supplements, about going organic, about being vegan, so on and so forth. I really mean obsessive. I become anti- social, my life become no fun. When I say anti-social because I couldn't eat outside because I didn't know what ingredients were in the food. I know exactly what you mean because I see I see clients like that a lot. When I give talks, sometimes I get asked by people. "so what should I eat? What should I do?" and I try to calm them, I try to put things in context and I even would try to lighten up. I mean...I presented the fact, the facts are there. But we are the one, who interpret the facts. Yea...I am sure your naturopath was not meaning to cause you to be so fearful that you would develop cancer. No healer wants to do that. But I give people a view that: okay, now you have to live, and you have to breathe Hong Kong air. You can't stop breathing. And I am very honest, I don't eat pristine clean all the time. I eat out. When I eat out, I get to eat MSG and chemicals but I don't get obsessed about it because I know that the most powerful healing mechanism is in our mind, and the limbic brain. When we stress, we actually create more and more...toxins. The stress of "oh should I eat that chicken skin or that egg yolk...."is probably more damaging than eating it. Exactly! And I believe that if you gotta eat that piece of chocolate or even drink that glass of champagne, enjoy it! Enjoy that company you are with, enjoy it, have fun because there is nothing more therapeutic and healing than laughers and love, the company of people who you enjoy. There really is nothing more therapeutic than that.Ya.Wow. So now you gravitate towards super Foods, towards organic food, but it's from a very different place.And you enjoy it more. Yes, absolutely and I enjoy. I enjoy because I can feel effects on my body. Because I am not *** myself, I love myself, I love my life, I love the things that are happening. So when I do gravitate towards healthy food, it's just to enhance my life. I don't do it because I fear cancer. Wow. Beautiful. You know what I see in my work is when people have self-love, it's very easy for them to commit to a health plan. So whether it's financial or time, they don't try to "negotiate" with me. I know. It's funny those same people who negotiate and who don't want to invest in themselves because maybe they say oh, it's too expensive, are the same people who would spend a fortune on a branded pair of shoes or on a handbag. And is like they don't value themselves enough to take care, and they don't love themselves enough to take care of what they put into their body. But yet they will spend money on something external, because they are looking for external validation. So now you take a more inside out approach. Much more inside out approach. And so do you think it's a done deal after your NDE, you are completely not afraid that you don't do this fear driven thing anymore? I don't do fear anymore. I am not saying that I can guarantee that I will never get cancer. Who knows maybe one day the way I exit the world will be through cancer. I have no idea because we are needed to exit in a way. We all do, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter if by cancer or another way. But I don't do fear anymore, I am done with that.