Can't Be By Myself - Lyrics - Watershed

Slam the door and grab the phone like a pistol against my head. ask your machine where are you damn it never knows. did i just leave a message or a suicide note? try to suck the words back down my throat and i don't know how long i can hold out hold on, hold on when i see ya girl i wanna change, my clothes, my eyes, my hair, my face, gotta get away, so i can be myself myself now youre staring in the mirror trying to see what i see. till you don't even recongnize yourself darting empty bottles and broken glass all tangled up in you, you but everyone's got someone they can't have i got you when i see ya girl i wanna change my clothes, my eyes, my hair, my face i'll be anything, but i can't be myself, myself i dont know how long i can hold out i don't know how long i can hold out tonight this phone feels like a pistol, black and cold against my temple did i leave a message or a suicide note (i don't know how long i can hold out) suck the words back down my throat (i don't know how long i can hold out) gotta suck the words back down my throat when i see ya girl i wanna change, my clothes, my eyes, my hair, my face and every word that gets away is going off like a cherry bomb like a shmuck outta luck full of sand in the clover im bendin im breakin i'm shaking all over i'll be anything, but i cant be myself, myself, myself got me slipping and sliding and tossing and turning and coming and creaming and crashing and burning i'll be anything, but i can't be myself, myself myself