Onward - Intensive arts 2013

R: All my friends say I haven't moved on since Harry left me, and they're right. So I say, "I don't need him," and, "I'm better off without him." Nevermind if I still cry into my pillow every night – I'm moving on! I've paid the price. If we can just forget that one time I drunk-called him twice. You move onward or die. So rather than say I'm okay, I'll say... Goodbye to the life I have known. Goodbye to wondering why I'm alone. Wherever I'm going, I'm better for knowing I'm more than enough on my own. I'm on the right track. I'm done looking back. Goodbye. N: Goodbye to another wasted year. Goodbye, if you need me, I'm drowning my weekend in beer. And if you should find me, try not to remind me of the fact that I'm still here waiting to die, Waiting to say goodbye. S: Do you even see me? K: Could you ever want me? L: Will you ever grow a pair? E: Give me a word. S: Give me a chance. K: Show me a sign. L: Show me a little lovin'. E: Don’t let this be goodbye. S/L/K: You're holding my heart. S/L/K: Don't let the moment go by. E: How do you say goodbye when the heart isn't ready? B: Here I go. N: Does no one know I'm already dead? E: How do you just stand by? B: Just hold it steady. L/K: Can you hold it steady? E/S: You've got to hold it steady. ALL: Just hold it steady. B: And say - B: Goodbye to the way things have been. S/K/L: Give me a day, Give me a life. Give me a single moment. N: Goodbye to holding it in. E: Yeah! Oh! B: Goodbye! This time I’m going to win. K/L: Maybe we'll work. Maybe we'll fail. Maybe I'd like to find out. N: Goodbye. Goodbye, something’s got to begin. E/S: Yeah! Oh! What I wouldn’t give for a life that's worth living for, taken day by day. B: So, goodbye. ENS: So goodbye to what's past B: So, goodbye. ENS: Make a choice. Make it last. B: I'm on my way! ENS: Goodbye! S: I know you don't care I exist. That's okay, I came to terms with it last night while sitting alone in my room listening to country music for five hours. But, that aside, I insist it's gonna be alright, and starting next week I'm gonna stop sending those anonymous flowers. I'm not very proud. I know what I lack and the few things I've got going for me. And looking at you now from across the room, it's clear from the way you ignore me... Well, the way you would usually ignore me. Bad example. Why are you looking this way? There's nobody here except me and the wall, and I have to admit, it's a very nice wall. But it isn't the wall! No, that's not it at all! The corners of your lips begin to raise, and it's sending my mind into a daze. And I think- What the hell does that mean? Just when I've got you all figured out you turn me upside down with a smile. I don't know how to take this, how easily you spin me about. You're making me your clown. And meanwhile, here I am. How could you do this to me? I was happily depressed. I'm afraid you can see right through me. Can it be that you've guessed? I mean, that could be good. Maybe you would... Maybe I should... I want to believe. Is it too much to hope? If I'm reading you wrong, then I just couldn't cope. And all I can think is- What the hell does that mean? I thought I had you all figured out, but you turned me upside down with that stupid, beautiful smile. I think this is a meltdown, but I love the way you spin me about. Let me be your clown! And meanwhile, here I am waiting for you to pick up the phone. I'm waiting 'til I can get you alone. I'm waiting for you, waiting for you. Oh, I wait for you- to ask me the weather, to borrow a pen. Could we walk home together? You just tell me when. I'll wait for you forever. I'll wait for a sign. And the answer may be never, and if that’s the case, that's fine. I'll be waiting for some indication you don't give a damn! Until then, Here I am! You know me, and I know you, so why am I still so unsure what to do? I am a child who has fallen so hard for the one whose gaze can shatter my guard. Would you accept if I offered my heart? You're a mystery to me, and it is tearing me apart. So I say, "I love you," every time I simply speak your name. And I say, "I love you," every time I look at you and smile. I'm telling you I love you every moment you and I are near, And all my hopes and fears, my very self will seem to disappear into your eyes. And there in the silence, I'm telling you, "I love you," all the while. I want to say, "I love you," oh so much, but I know that I won't. If I never say, "I love you," I'll never hear you tell me that you don't. L:You know me, and I know you, so why does it seem like you haven't a clue? I want to spend every day by your side, but still there's a part of you trying to hide. If you want me then tell me, don’t wait another day. Or are you content to leave things this way? L: Come on, tell me. Use your words and tell me. I can't read your mind. K: So I say, "I love you," every time I simply speak your name. L: Won't you tell me? I'm not getting younger. Do I have to wave a banner- K: And I say, "I love you," every time I look at you and smile. I'm- BOTH: telling you I love you every moment you and I are near. K: And all my hopes and fears, my very self L: Don't be afraid. K: will seem to disappear into your eyes. L: Look into my eyes. K: And there in the silence. L: Right here, this is your opening. BOTH: Here I am, and there you are. So near- K: I... L: Yes? K: Nothing. BOTH: So far. Mother always loved the summer wind, and we'd go out to meet it on the hill. We danced and laughed and oh, how mother grinned when she was young and we had time to kill. We stayed until nightfall, amazed at the brilliant array overhead. And mother could see in the mind of her child that the world was still new and so wondrous and wild. She lay down beside me and quietly said: What do you see with your starry eyes? What do you see? A world you've never known, held in the summer skies. Won't you please share it with me? Mother left us far before her time, as so many people often do. She ought to have been living in her prime and dancing in the summer wind that blew. I was there 'til the end, kneeling down at the side of her white feather bed. I never shall forget the look of peace upon her face. Of the sadness that I felt, in her there was no trace. I gently took her hand, and I said: What do you see with your starry eyes? What do you see? A world calling you home through the open skies. Won't you please share it with me? Share it with me! What do you see with your starry eyes? What do you see? Please tell me now, before we say our goodbyes. Tell me where to find you. Tell me I will see you again. Please leave that with me. I can't be alone, 'cause it feels like I'm dying. I can't be with people, 'cause then I'd be lying with every second I haven't been screaming or cursing or bleeding from all of these scars deep inside, so where do I hide? To whom can I turn, in whom can I confide? The man in my mirror has so many faces, and there behind each of them I can feel traces of someone I want to be, someone I ought to be, someone I somehow believed I'd become if I fought, but now I'm just caught between who I am and the man I am not. I play my part so no one else can see, as a matter of pride, as a matter of course. Nothing's the matter with me! I keep it inside, cut it off at the source, but I want to be free. E: What do you see? N: What do I see? K/L: So near. N: It's so near to me. S: Here I am. N: I'm standing at the door. R: Goodbye. N: There is something more. Something better, something better, Something better calls me away. Something better, something better, Something better now underway. And if I feel nothing prepares me, that's 'cause it's living that scares me. But if I'm all that stands in my way, I'll take the leap N: and say ENS: I say that I want something- N: better, something better, something better ENS: Something better, something better, something better ALL: coming my way. Something better (better), something better (better) something better (better) starting today! And my cost of living is I'll go on giving it everything that I have. N: I'll leave the past behind R/E: Goodbye! N: I'll make my stars align. S: Here I am! N: I'll turn around to find K/L: Take this moment! ALL: Something better is mine!