20-Odd-Years - Lyrics - Candice Jarrett

I ask for an abundance of things But I always seem to get Skipped over. I didn't surround myself with Things that made me happy... They just didn't make me sad. I looked around to see the things In my life - I was in love with so many of them You see... but NONE of them were me.... It's been 20-odd years since I've seen the sunrise. It's been 20-odd years since I felt I was alive. And I've never spent one day outside my mind. It's been 20-odd years and I've never lived one day in my whole life. How could you ever think I could look up to you? For all those things that you said and you did... the things you were never man enough to do. And I look down to see the feet that crushed my dreams. Then I begin to see, those feet belong to me.... (Chorus) I have all these people in my life tellin me "You can't be" .. but every song seems to be about me in everything I think and everything I dream and everything that NEEDS to be. I look up to see my people who need me and I need them so bad... I'd say I just wanna live one day... (Chorus) I've spent 20-odd years of my life never living a day alive