Loud And Proud

PREVIOUSLY ON THE L WORD... YOU LOOK... BEAUTIFUL. LET'S START WITH MOM AND DAD. DO YOU WRITE THEM, DO YOU SEE THEM, DO YOU LOVE THEM? I MEAN, ANYTHING. WHAT'S WRONG? UNTIL YOU CAN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT MY RELATIONSHIP OF EIGHT YEARS WAS AS MEANINGFUL AS YOUR MARRIAGE TO MY MOTHER, UNTIL YOU CAN SEE THAT MY HEART IS BROKEN BECAUSE I FAILED THE WOMAN I LOVE, PERHAPS IN THE SAME WAY THAT YOU FAILED MY MOTHER, THEN I REALLY HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY. DADDY! I'D LIKE TO SEE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF WE STARTED TO SPEND SOME MORE TIME TOGETHER. WHAT ABOUT HELENA? WE'RE NOT EXCLUSIVE. YOU HAVE CROSSED EVERY LINE OF TRUST, AND DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME THIS WAS FOR THE SAKE OF ART. I JUST FINISHED TAKING DOWN THE LAST OF THE CAMERAS. I PRETTY MUCH HAD THEM ALL OVER THE HOUSE. UM, JENNY SAW A TAPE I HAD MADE OF THE TWO OF YOU. BEG ME. [WHIMPERS] SPEAK MORE CLEARLY. I CAN'T UNDERSTAND YOU. [MOANS LOUDLY] *** ME. PLEASE *** ME. I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU A MINUTE TO THINK ABOUT... HOW BADLY YOU WANT ME TO *** YOU. ♪ GIRLS IN TIGHT DRESSES WHO DRAG WITH MUSTACHES ♪ ♪ CHICKS DRIVING FAST INGENUES WITH LONG LASHES ♪ ♪ WOMEN WHO LONG, LOVE, *** WOMEN WHO GIVE ♪ ♪ THIS IS THE WAY IT'S THE WAY THAT WE LIVE ♪ ♪ TALKING, LAUGHING LOVING, BREATHING ♪ ♪ FIGHTING, *** CRYING, DRINKING ♪ ♪ WRITING, WINNING LOSING, CHEATING ♪ ♪ KISSING, THINKING, DREAMING ♪ ♪ THIS IS THE WAY... ♪ ♪ THIS IS THE WAY THAT WE LIVE ♪ ♪ IT'S THE WAY THAT WE LIVE ♪ ♪ AND LOVE ♪♪ I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO TELL YOU. COULDN'T YOU TRY TO CONVINCE HIM? I'VE SPOKEN TO YOUR FATHER'S PHYSICIAN IN PHILADELPHIA. HE TELLS ME YOUR FATHER IS ADAMANT. I THINK THAT HE'S VERY AWARE THAT IT WOULD BE AN UPHILL BATTLE WITH LITTLE HOPE OF RECOVERY. I'M SORRY. HEY. HOW IS HE? HE HAS ADVANCED PROSTATE CANCER, AND HE'S REFUSING ANY TREATMENT. OH, MY GOD. I'M SO SORRY. I'M SO SORRY. LOOK, IT'S GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT, OKAY? IT'S OKAY. WE'RE GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. WHERE'S KIT? SHE'S IN THE ROOM, BUT SHE HAS TO LEAVE TO GO TO THE PLANET TO GET READY FOR TOMORROW. OH, I FORGOT TOMORROW'S THE PARADE. SHE THINKS HE'S RIGHT TO REFUSE TREATMENT. WELL, MAYBE SHE'S JUST TRYING TO SUPPORT HIS DECISION. THAT'S IT-- HE CANNOT MAKE A DECISION RIGHT NOW. I MEAN, YOU SHOULD SEE HIM. HE'S NOT HIMSELF. HE'S SO SICK. COME ON. THERE YOU GO. HEY. EASY, EASY. EASY, EASY. LET ME HELP WITH THE FEET. HELLO, MELVIN. TAKE THOSE HOME. YOU CAN PUT FLOWERS ON MY GRAVE. AREN'T YOU GOING TO SAY HELLO TO TINA, DADDY? HELLO, MS. KENNARD. HOW ARE YOU FEELING? HOW DO YOU THINK I'M FEELING? DADDY, DID YOU SEE HOW PREGNANT TINA IS? WOULD YOU LIKE TO FEEL THE BABY? THAT WOULD BE HIGHLY INAPPROPRIATE. [CARMEN]: HI. ME RIGHT HERE. I... WOULD MAKE OUT WITH... ...CAN SOMETIMES BE A LITTLE SEXY. [SHANE]: THAT'S SCARY, OR STUPID. THAT'S RIGHT, AND STUPID, SHANE... [MARK]: LET ME ASK YOU THIS QUESTION. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR IN A WOMAN? [SHANE]: WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR? [WHISPERING IN HEBREW] [FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING] [SHANE]: JEN? HI. WHAT ARE YOU DOING? UM... I JUST KEEP ON HAVING... THESE NIGHTMARES, AND I'M JUST TRYING TO WORK IT ALL OUT. WELL, UM... CAN WE TALK FOR A SECOND? YEAH. THIS IS MY HOME, JENNY... AND... I DON'T KNOW. IT'S... FOR THE FIRST TIME, I ACTUALLY HAVE A ROOM OF MY OWN. THAT'S A HUGE THING FOR ME, AND I'M SORRY... I AM. I'M SORRY ABOUT WHAT YOU SAW ON THAT TAPE, BUT... I LIKE LIVING WITH YOU. I LOVE IT. I THINK WE HAVE A GREAT TIME. RIGHT? IT'S JUST, I DON'T... I JUST DON'T WANT TO LOSE IT. YEAH. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT CARMEN? NOTHING. I THINK THE TWO OF YOU SHOULD BE TOGETHER. WHAT ABOUT YOU? I THINK, UH... I THINK THAT IT WAS A VERY IMPORTANT STEP FOR ME, AND NOW... I'M ON TO OTHER THINGS. IS THAT WHY YOU'RE PUSHING ME AND CARMEN TOGETHER? NO. BECAUSE YOU'RE GREAT TOGETHER. I WANT TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING. I'M LOOKING FOR A GOOD TIME. [MARK]: COME ON. REALLY? YEAH. WHY DO YOU ASK AS IF I'M NOT? BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO BE TRUTHFUL. I AM. [SHANE]: WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR? MARK HERE, ANSWERING THE QUESTION, "WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR IN A WOMAN?" A LITTLE LOVE. HAPPINESS. AND A LITTLE AL GREEN. MOST DEFINITELY A LITTLE AL GREEN. NO, REALLY. WHAT? WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR? [TAPE EJECTS] YOU'RE NOT SCARY... AND CARMEN IS NOT GOING TO GET HERSELF INVOLVED WITH SOMETHING THAT SHE CAN'T HANDLE, OKAY? [♪♪♪] [SOFT MOANING, KISSING] I LOVE YOU. CAMILLE, I TOLD YOU NOT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH ME. NO. THIS IS ME TALKING. I LOVE YOU, DANA. [DOORBELL RINGING] WHO IS THAT? I DON'T KNOW. IT'S HOWIE. WHAT? WHAT'S HE DOING HERE? HEY. HEY, IS THAT YOU GUYS? I CAN HEAR YOU. HEY. HOWIE! BIG SIS! GOOD TO SEE YOU. YEAH. OH, ALICE... NICE OUTFIT. YEAH, I'M CLEANING. HOW DID YOU FIND ME? ARE YOU KIDDING? MOM AND DAD LOVE TO TALK ABOUT HOW YOU, UH... GAVE UP YOUR BRIGHT FUTURE WITH TONYA FOR A DEAD-END RELATIONSHIP WITH HER. SORRY. YOU SEEM FAR AWAY. I'M NOT. I'M JUST THINKING ABOUT MELVIN. I THOUGHT THAT MIGHT BE THE CASE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT BETTE'S GOING TO DO WITHOUT HIM. TINA... I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND HARSH, BUT THAT'S NOT REALLY ANY OF YOUR CONCERN ANYMORE, IS IT? BETTE'S STILL MY FAMILY. YES. I'M REMINDED OF THAT OFTEN ENOUGH. CAN I TAKE YOUR PLATES? MM. SURE. AND CAN WE SEE THE DESSERT MENU, PLEASE? I'LL BRING IT RIGHT OVER. I WANT TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE. YOU MEAN YOU WANT TO SEE BETTE. TINA, IT'S FINE. IT'S NOT AS IF WE'RE EXCLUSIVE. YOU HAVEN'T DROPPED A BOMBSHELL. I MEAN... I JUST FEEL BAD THAT YOU WERE UNDER THE IMPRESSION THINGS WERE OTHERWISE. HERE YOU GO. THANK YOU. DID YOU RUN AWAY? NO, NO, MOM AND DAD WERE JUST WAY UP IN MY GRILL, SO... I NEEDED SOME SPACE. SO YOU CAME HERE? WELL, YEAH, I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUN TO SURPRISE YOU GUYS. CALLING'S FUN TOO. OR AN EMAIL'S FUN. WHAT, ARE YOU GUYS NOT HAPPY TO SEE ME? NO, IT'S NOT THAT AT ALL. IT'S JUST, YOU KNOW... HOW LONG ARE YOU STAYING, HOWIE? WELL-- BECAUSE IT'S GAY PRIDE WEEKEND, AND WE'RE KIND OF ALL UP IN THAT "OUT AND PROUD" THING. OKAY, WELL, UH... WELL, MAYBE I'LL GO WITH YOU, THEN. HOWIE... HOW DO I PUT THIS? UM... GAY PRIDE, HOWIE, IS FOR GAY PEOPLE. YES. YEAH. OKAY, SEE... COME HERE. GAY. YEAH. NOT GAY. RIGHT. RIGHT. YOU WANT TO COME TO PRIDE WITH ME TOMORROW? YEAH. THERE'S A PARTY AT THE PLANET AFTERWARDS. MAY I COME IN? SORRY. I WAS JUST WONDERING IF IT WOULD BE ALL RIGHT IF I JUST STAYED HERE TONIGHT AND LEFT FIRST THING IN THE MORNING. I'VE ALMOST GOT ALL THE STUFF IN MY CAR, BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO LEAVE... MY CAR FULL OF *** WHILE I UNPACK AT NIGHT. YEAH, SOMEONE MIGHT STEAL YOUR CAMERAS. I KNOW THAT YOU HATE ME... AND... WHILE I WOULD LOVE TO ASK FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS, I PROBABLY WOULDN'T FORGIVE MYSELF, SO... I DON'T KNOW IF YOU CAN... RELATE TO THIS, BUT... IT'S LIKE THIS TERRIBLE THING THAT I WAS DOING SUDDENLY BECAME THE BEST, TRUEST THING THAT I HAD EVER DONE. WHAT? I'LL GET THE REST OF MY BOXES. SORRY. HEY. YOU CAN STAY TONIGHT. THANK YOU. "WELL, I WAS GETTING TO FEEL THAT WAY MYSELF, "THOUGH I'VE ALWAYS RECKONED THAT LOOKING AT THE NEW MOON "OVER YOUR LEFT SHOULDER "IS ONE OF THE CARELESSEST AND FOOLISHEST THINGS "A BODY COULD DO. OLD HANK BUNKER--" [KNOCKING] HI. HELLO, MELVIN. HELLO. HEY. HEY. I BROUGHT YOU SOME FOOD AND A CHANGE OF CLOTHES. THANK YOU SO MUCH. AS NICE AS IT IS, I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I COULD'VE WORN THIS DRESS. WELL, YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL IN IT. YOU LOOKED BEAUTIFUL. RADIANT. [TINA]: I WAS SO MAD AT YOU FOR LEAVING THE CEREMONY. I THOUGHT YOU DID IT TO SPITE ME. NO. I WAS SO PROUD OF YOU. YOU LOOK SO CONFIDENT. WOULD YOU PLEASE CLOSE THAT CURTAIN? OF COURSE. WELL, I SHOULD GO HOME. WELL, THANK YOU FOR THE FOOD AND THE CLOTHES. WILL I SEE YOU TOMORROW? UM, I'M GOING TO GO TO THE PARADE WITH HELENA. OH. LOOK, I'M NOT GOING TO STOP SEEING HER. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE ME UNDER THOSE CIRCUMSTANCES, I UNDERSTAND. ONE STEP AT A TIME, OKAY? OKAY. SHE'S GONE NOW. YOU DON'T HAVE TO HIDE ANYMORE. WHAT HAVE I DONE? WHAT ARE TALKING ABOUT? I'VE LOVED YOU. I HAVE SUPPORTED EVERY ENDEAVOR YOU'VE EVER UNDERTAKEN. I'VE GIVEN YOU EVERY OPPORTUNITY TO FOLLOW YOUR EVERY DREAM. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WANT TO PUNISH ME. I'M NOT PUNISHING YOU. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND, AND YOU'RE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN. DADDY. DON'T YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THE DAY YOU'RE GOING TO STAND UNDER JUDGMENT BEFORE GOD? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO SAY TO HIM WHEN HE OPENS THE BOOK OF LIFE AND READS YOUR SINS? I WILL SAY, "I AM YOUR CREATION, AND I AM PROUD." NOW, I KNOW HOW HARD YOU WORK TO DISTANCE YOURSELF FROM EVERYONE ELSE ON THIS PLANET, AND I AM SURE THAT DEEP DOWN, YOU'VE GOT SOME GREAT REASONS WHY, BUT IT'S NOT WORKING FOR YOU ANYMORE. IT'S WORKING FINE. NO, IT'S NOT. IT'S NOT, BECAUSE OF THIS. OKAY? BECAUSE OF THIS RIGHT HERE. DO YOU FEEL THIS? MOST PEOPLE DON'T HAVE THIS, SHANE. THIS IS RARE. THIS KIND OF THING JUST DOESN'T HAPPEN, AND I FEEL THIS BECAUSE I SEE IT AND I KNOW IT. UH, HERE'S SOME SHEETS, AND... WOW, THANK YOU. PILLOWS AND THINGS. UH, YOU NEED PJs? UH, NO, I'M GOOD. YEAH. OKAY. I'M HAPPY YOU'RE HERE. IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU TOO, DANE. ALL RIGHT. GOOD NIGHT. GOOD NIGHT. HE'S GOING TO RUIN OUR PRIDE. MAYBE HE CAN HANG OUT WITH YOU. WHAT? WHAT-- WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO BE? I SORT OF GOT ASKED TO BE ON THE GAY AND LESBIAN CENTER FLOAT. OH. WERE YOU GOING TO TELL ME THAT? WELL, YES. YES? GREAT. AL... BE WITH ME. NO, SERIOUSLY... BE WITH ME ON THE FLOAT. I MEAN, YOU'RE A CELEBRITY, AND YOU'RE ALICE PIESZECKI OF THE CHART, PIESZECKI. REALLY? BE ON THE FLOAT? WELL, DO YOU THINK... WOULD THEY WANT THAT, OR... YEAH. COME BE WITH ME ON THE FLOAT. COME ON, LET'S BE KNOWN AND GAY TOGETHER. THAT SOUNDS KIND OF FUN. YEAH? WELL, ALL RIGHT. WELL, WHAT ABOUT HOWIE? UM, WE'LL LEAVE BEFORE HE GETS UP. OH, MY GOD, I LOVE THE WAY YOU THINK. I LOVE YOU. I'M GOING TO SET THE ALARM, OKAY? YEAH. OKAY. MORNING. YOU WANT ONE? SURE. HE'S NOT THERE. DID HE LEAVE? I DON'T KNOW. [VEHICLE APPROACHING] THANK YOU. [CAR DOOR OPENS, SHUTS] WE SHOULD GET TO THE PARADE EARLY. YEAH? IS IT GOING TO BE REALLY BIG? [KNOCKING] PROBABLY. HEY. HEY. I BROUGHT COFFEE, AND, UH... THOSE LITTLE ORGANIC SCONE THINGS YOU GUYS LIKE. I'M *** LOST, MAN. CAN YOU JUST TAKE THIS, PLEASE? [WHISPERING]: CAN I TALK TO JENNY? YOU'VE GOT TO ASK HER, NOT ME. NOW? COULD I TALK TO YOU? YEAH. I WISH SO MUCH THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING I COULD DO. NO, I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANYTHING THAT YOU CAN DO. I THINK YOU DID IT. WHEN I MOVED IN HERE, I WAS THE TYPE OF GUY WHO WAS CAPABLE OF DOING *** LIKE THIS, BUT I AM NOT THAT GUY ANYMORE. I KNOW THAT I'VE SAID IT BEFORE, BUT YOU AND SHANE HAVE MADE ME A BETTER MAN. OH, *** OFF, MARK. IT'S NOT MY JOB TO MAKE YOU A BETTER MAN, AND I DON'T GIVE A *** IF I'VE MADE YOU A BETTER MAN. IT'S NOT A *** WOMAN'S JOB TO BE CONSUMED AND INVADED AND SPAT OUT SO THAT SOME *** MAN CAN EVOLVE. THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT. WHAT THE *** ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT, THEN, MARK? YOU GIVE ME ONE REASON WHY YOU THINK THAT I SHOULD FORGIVE YOU. BECAUSE, JENNY, I MADE A BIG, BIG MISTAKE, BUT FROM THAT, I HAVE LEARNED HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO BE A WOMAN. PLEASE. WAIT, JENNY! HEY. HEY. LOOK AT THIS. WHAT ARE YOU DOING? IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT? NO. WHAT I WANT IS FOR YOU TO WRITE "*** ME" ON YOUR CHEST. WRITE IT. DO IT, AND THEN I WANT YOU TO WALK OUT THAT DOOR, AND I WANT YOU TO WALK DOWN THE STREET, AND ANYBODY THAT WANTS TO *** YOU, SAY, "SURE, SURE, NO PROBLEM," AND WHEN THEY DO, YOU HAVE TO SAY, "THANK YOU VERY, VERY MUCH," AND MAKE THAT YOU HAVE A SMILE ON YOUR FACE, AND THEN, YOU STUPID *** COWARD, YOU'RE GOING TO KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE A WOMAN. SHANE, I'M JUST... [♪♪♪] I DON'T KNOW. HE MUST HAVE HEARD OUR ALARM THIS MORNING. THERE'S NO REASON WHY HE'D BE UP SO EARLY. DANA FAIRBANKS? HEY, GUYS, IT'S DANA FAIRBANKS. SHE'S HERE. HI! OH, I'M SORRY, CAN I GET YOUR NAMES? UM, YEAH, ALICE PIESZECKI. COULD YOU SPELL THAT, PLEASE? UH, P-I-E-- I'M NOT ON THE LIST. THIS IS MY GIRLFRIEND. YEAH, WE'RE TOGETHER. YEAH, ALICE PIESZECKI OF THE CHART, KCRW. OKAY, ANYWAY, THIS IS MY BROTHER, AND I THOUGHT THEY COULD BE ON THE FLOAT WITH ME. OH, I'M REALLY SORRY, DANA. ONLY THE PEOPLE WHOSE NAMES ARE ON THIS LIST GET TO GO ON THE FLOAT. THEY CAN WATCH YOU FROM THE CROWD. THAT'LL BE FUN FOR THEM. WELL, IT'S NOT LIKE IT'S THE HRC OR THE GLAAD FLOAT OR ANYTHING, ANYWAY. WHAT? YOU HEARD ME. ALICE. DANA, IF YOU'D LIKE TO RIDE ON THE FLOAT, WE'D BE HAPPY TO HAVE YOU... ALONE. SORRY, YOU GUYS. I'LL SEE YOU AFTER. YEAH. SORRY. SWEET OF HER. PEOPLE REALLY LOVE HER, HUH? YEAH... ALL RIGHT, KEEP THEM MOVING. HE'S STRAIGHT. COME ON. I'M SORRY. IT'S A LITTLE BIT OF A MEAT MARKET. ARE YOU OKAY? I'M GOOD, YEAH. AL, COME WITH ME. WHAT? SHE WON'T COME WITH ME, SO YOU HAVE TO DO IT. BECAUSE SHANE WANTS ME TO RIDE WITH HER WITH THE MOTORCYCLE LESBIANS. THE *** ON BIKES, AND YOU'RE NOT GOING? NO, I WANT TO BE AN OBSERVER. OH, I SO WANT TO GO, YEAH, UM... HOWIE. WHAT ABOUT HOWIE? YEAH, I'LL BE FINE. I'LL LOOK AFTER HIM. YOU'RE GOOD? YOU'RE GOOD? I'M GOOD. HEY, I'M HOWIE. OU. WANT TO WALK AROUND? YEAH, SURE. I'M GOING TO GO WITH THE *** ON BIKES, SO, UH, YOU CAN WRITE THAT ON YOUR CLIPBOARD. SEE YOU. UM, SHANE... WHAT? UM, I TOLD DANA I LOVED HER, TWICE. THAT'S GOOD. YEAH, BUT SHE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING BACK, AND, UM, THAT'S BAD, RIGHT? OKAY, WHY AM I EVEN TALKING TO YOU ABOUT LOVE? SERIOUS. LOOK, AT LEAST I CAN SEE SHE LOVES YOU. YOU CAN? YEAH. YOU CAN'T? COME ON. OH, MY GOD. SHANE! HI, DANA. HI, DANA. I HAVE A SECRET. WHAT? I'VE NEVER ACTUALLY ATTENDED A PRIDE PARADE BEFORE. I MEAN, I'VE HAD PARTIES AROUND IT, I'VE RENTED ROOFTOPS WITH AMAZING VIEWS OF IT, BUT I'VE NEVER ACTUALLY BEEN IN IT. WELL, WELCOME. WE'RE HAPPY TO HAVE YOU. THANK YOU... AND HOW ABOUT YOU? OH, THIS IS MY SEVENTH. SUCH A POLITICAL BEING YOU ARE, FIGHTING FOR GAY RIGHTS. NOT REALLY. BETTE AND I USED TO COME EVERY YEAR. IT WAS JUST AN EXCUSE TO HAVE A MARGARITA BEFORE 3:00. DO YOU MISS THAT? I LIKE BEING HERE WITH YOU, SEEING IT THROUGH YOUR EYES. OH, SHE NEEDS TO GET SPANKED. COME ON, EVERYBODY, LET'S JUMP ON BOARD. JENNY... HEY. HI. HAVE YOU SEEN HOWIE? UM, HE SAID THAT HE'D MEET UP WITH YOU LATER. WAS HE FREAKING? NO. DID HE SAY WHERE HE WAS GOING? MAYBE HE WENT TO A SPORTS BAR OR SOMETHING. YEAH, PROBABLY. OH, MY GOD. CAN YOU IMAGINE? WHAT? HOWIE-- THANKS. THANK YOU. MAYBE THERE'S A GOOD GAME ON. WILL I SEE YOU THERE? MAYBE. WELL... I LOVE TO PUNISH A TEASE. [QUIETLY]: I WISH YOU WERE HERE, MOM. [DOOR OPENS] HEY... I BROUGHT YOU SOMETHING TO EAT. HOW IS HE? THE SAME. WHY DON'T YOU GO HOME? IF I GO HOME, ALL I'M GOING TO DO IS THINK ABOUT BEING HERE. WELL, YOU CAN'T JUST STAY HERE-- I CAN. IT'S MY DECISION. IS THAT MY KATIE? YEAH, DADDY. COME HERE. I BROUGHT YOUR PAJAMAS. OH, KATIE, I'M SO SORRY. ALL THESE YEARS... SUCH FOOLISHNESS. OH, KATIE... IT'S OKAY. IT'S OKAY. IS MY BABY HERE? YEAH, SHE'S HERE. I... I LOVE YOU BOTH. WE LOVE YOU TOO, DADDY. I DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS. OH, GOD, SURE YOU CAN. COME ON. OKAY, MAYBE IT'S NOT A GREAT IDEA. ALL RIGHT, LET'S JUST LOOK AT THE PROS AND CONS. OKAY, UM... OKAY, OKAY. "GENTLE WITH NOVICES." THIS IS GOOD. OKAY, GREAT, SO WE CAN JUST TELL THEM IT'S OUR FIRST TIME. I THINK THEY MIGHT KNOW THAT, DANA. OKAY. ALL RIGHT, THERE'S SEVEN STATIONS OF THE CROSS. OKAY. UH, LET'S SEE, WHIPPING, TEMPORARY PIERCING... PUBLIC HUMILIATION, *** PENETRATION, TORCHING? TORCHING? OY. OKAY, SPANKING, AND SPECIALTY ARTS. THAT'S NICE. MM-HMM. OH, THERE'S A FREE BUFFET TILL 6:00. CHICKEN WINGS AND TOFU. WHAT DO YOU THINK? I DON'T KNOW. WE'LL SNEAK A PEEK, AND... YEAH. GREAT. YEAH, LET'S DO IT. OKAY. HEY. HI. OH, SO POLITE. OOH, WHAT DO YOU WANT YOUR SAFE WORD TO BE? I DON'T KNOW. "TUNAFISH?" THANK YOU. OKAY, ALL RIGHT. GREAT. PLANET? UH, GREAT. YEAH. FANTASTIC. OKAY. BYE. THANK YOU. THANKS. [♪♪♪] HEY, HEY, HEY. HAPPY PRIDE. OH, MY GOD, YOU ARE HUGE. OH, MY GOD. YOU ARE SO PREGNANT. WOW. HI. HOW ARE YOU? GOOD TO SEE YOU. HEY, WHAT'S GOING ON? HI. HI. WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? I'M CELEBRATING GAY PRIDE, I GUESS. I DON'T KNOW. YOU MEAN GAY SHAME. THAT'S WHAT IT REALLY IS. WHY? BECAUSE... MOST OF US HAVE MORE SHAME THAN PRIDE. I THINK THAT YOU MIGHT BE RIGHT. DO YOU WANT TO DANCE? NO. WHAT'S THE MATTER? AM I TOO OLD OR TOO SUBURBAN OR SOMETHING? NO. YOU'RE PERFECT. DO YOU WANT TO KISS ME? HAPPY PRIDE. WHY DON'T, UM... WHY DON'T YOU TAKE... LEIGH? HEY. HOW ARE YOU? GOOD TO SEE YOU. SO YOU MADE IT. YEAH, IT'S A GREAT PARTY. DID YOU ENJOY THE PARADE? OH, YEAH, I HAD A GREAT TIME. TINA, THIS IS LEIGH. LEIGH, THIS IS MY FRIEND TINA. HI. VERY PREGNANT FRIEND. SHE AND HER EX ARE HAVING A BABY. OH, I'M SORRY. UH, NOT ABOUT THE BABY, ABOUT THE EX. I'M JUST GOING THROUGH A BREAKUP MYSELF. OH, YOU KNOW, I HEARD, BUT I WASN'T SURE ABOUT THAT. WELL, THE RUMORS ARE TRUE. VALERIE MOVED BACK TO NEW YORK, AND WE JUST WEREN'T READY FOR A LONG-DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP, SO... OH, YOU KNOW, MAYBE IT'S WISE. SO... DO YOU WANT TO DANCE? UM... OH, DANCE. PLEASE DO. I NEED TO SIT DOWN. OKAY. GREAT. OKAY, OKAY. WE'LL SEE YOU IN A BIT. HEY! WHERE ARE YOU GOING? WE JUST GOT HERE. IT'S HOT IN HERE. I NEED TO STEP OUT. OKAY. HURRY BACK, THOUGH, OKAY? OKAY. OW! OOH. GOT ME. I'M WORRIED ABOUT HOWIE. WELL, HE'S GOT THE KEYS. HE KNOWS THE ADDRESS. HE'S FINE. YEAH, BUT HE'S MY LITTLE BROTHER. I SHOULD HAVE SPENT MORE TIME WITH HIM. HOLY ***. WHAT? EXCUSE ME. JUST ONE SECOND. I'LL BE RIGHT BACK. I'LL BE WAITING. OKAY... [SNIFFS] A COSMO, HOWIE? YEAH. THAT'S ALCOHOLIC. THAT'S GAY. WHAT'S GOING ON? I'M CELEBRATING PRIDE. BUT, HOWIE, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO BE PROUD OF? EXCUSE US FOR JUST ONE SECOND. HOWIE, THAT MAN IS GAY. I KNOW, DANA. ARE YOU--ARE YOU IMITATING ME? 'CAUSE IT'S NOT FUNNY, IF THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE DOING. NO, I'M NOT. SO YOU JUST... JUST DECIDE THAT YOU'RE GAY. YOU KNOW, YOU'RE TOO YOUNG. I MEAN, IT TAKES TIME. DANE, I'VE KNOWN SINCE I WAS FOUR. AND YOU MADE THAT MUCH FUN OF ME? WELL, IT WAS BECAUSE YOU WERE SCARED. I MEAN, BE GAY! BE PROUD, EVERYBODY! STOP, STOP. STOP. ALL OF YOU, STOP! DANA, UM... COULD TELL MOM AND DAD FOR ME? OH, THANK YOU. [MOURNFUL KLEZMER MUSIC PLAYING] [DOOR HINGE CREAKING] [DOOR SHUTS] MARK. OH, ***. I'M SORRY. I WAS JUST RETURNING THE KEYS. YOU'VE OPENED UP... WELL, YOU'VE OPENED UP THIS PANDORA'S BOX, AND NOW YOU'RE JUST RUNNING AWAY. SO... I DARE YOU TO STAY HERE AND DEAL WITH THIS. [DOOR CLOSES] WE'RE NOT FRIENDS. DADDY... REMEMBER WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL? AND ON SUNDAYS, WE'D GO TO CHURCH... AND YOU WOULD WEAR YOUR THREE-PIECE SUIT AND POINTY-TOED SHOES. I LOOKED OVER AT YOU AND I WOULD SAY, "THAT'S MY DAD." YOU WERE THE HANDSOMEST MAN IN THE WORLD. YOU WERE EVERYTHING... EVERYTHING I THOUGHT A MAN SHOULD BE. IS THAT RIGHT? DADDY, I'M SORRY. I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE LISTENING. I'M NOT DEAD YET. I'M SORRY I WOKE YOU UP. WHERE'S BENJAMIN? HE'S WITH HIS WIFE AND KIDS. YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE LET HIM GO. IF HE'S THE MAN YOU WANT TO BE WITH, THEN YOU SHOULD BE WITH HIM, WHATEVER THE COST. LIKE YOU DID WITH MOM? I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO TO ENSURE MY HAPPINESS. SOMETIMES IT COMES AT A PRICE. YEAH. YEAH, IT DOES. [♪♪♪] WHAT? I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU TOO. [SOMBER STRINGS PLAYING] [LEATHER CRACKING ON SKIN, VOICES GASPING] [SCREAMS ECHOING] DON'T TOUCH ME. [JENNY SPEAKING IN HEBREW] [REVELLERS SINGING] ***... I NEVER HAD A HAMSTER... BUT I HAD A DOG, AND HER NAME WAS REMY. I HAVE A BROTHER, BUT I NEVER MET HIM, BECAUSE WE NEVER GREW UP TOGETHER. AND MY MOM PUT ME IN FOSTER CARE WHEN I WAS NINE... BUT I STILL LOVE HER VERY MUCH. [♪♪♪] CAPTIONING PERFORMED BY: LINE 21 MEDIA SERVICES LTD. VANCOUVER, B.C. 2005