► Castiel - Who are you?

You know, I've... ...been here for a very long time. Some angels think of Castiel as a hero. I'm nothing. I never wanted this, you know To be hated by my own kind. I'm asking you, father. One last time. Am I doing the right thing? But you, Castiel... Cas, are you God? I liked the old you better. You know, old me... I would have just kept going. Who I was, what i did, that's not who I am. I'm not a hero. But sometimes doing the right thing requires sacrifices. You know, there are some in Heaven who... still believe, despite his mistakes, Castiel's heart was always in the right place The part of you that cares so much? That's what makes you special. Then who are you? So is he a hero? I'm not a murderer. You help. But Sam and Dean Winchester are the real heroes. What if you were to find out that no one is listening? You have to tell me, you have to give me... ...a sign. That God pretty much left. It's not possible. Because I have my faith. You know, being human... it changed my view of you. I think you might feel better if you try it my way. After he left us he had his own flight to command. When I fell I thought I had no choice but yesterday you showed me that there is a choice... ...and I choose you. I'm sorry. I'm no leader. Yes, you are! You don't have to be ruled by a fate. You can choose freedom. Watching humanity... Obviously you've changed. ...never get's old, does it? Someone is listening. I still believe that's something worth fighting for. Thank you... - The only person... - Shut up. ...who has screwed thing up more consistently than you is me. It's occurred to me that one day I'm gonna die. I think... ...too much heart was always Castiel's problem. I don't see an angel staring back at me. You are broken, Castiel. I'm not an angel anymore. I would rather die than owe my life to you, Castiel. You say you want to live. By choosing a human life, you've already given up. You... chose... death. So if you leave here and you find that you can't forgive me I'll be waiting Thank you. I failed at being an angel. Angels can change, so maybe Winchesters can too. You're the ones who taught me that you can make your own destiny. And now I know what that guilt feels like and I know what it means to feel sorry. I used to admire you. You failed more often than you succeeded. I am sorry. Everything I ever attempted came out wrong... I want to live. But as what, Castiel? As an angel? You know when I knew Castiel... he was a... soldier. He was a warrior. Or a man? You will have me, Castiel. I will follow you. And I am not the only one. The angels need a leader. Give me a sign! The other angels... they hate you. It wasn't that long ago when all I'd need to do to ease your pain was... just touch you. What is so worth saving? I see nothing, but pain in here! Don't touch her. What are you? What do you care about dying? You're already dead. We're done. I'm an angel of the lord... When you have to choose between Heaven and the Winchesters. Look at you! You're just sad and pathetically weak! You choose them. You can't win, Uriel. I still serve God. I serve Heaven, I don't serve men. Every time. I gave you everything you asked me to give, I gave you MORE! This is the thanks I get? This is what you do? Thank you... Knowing you... It's been the best part of my life. You promised, Cas! I love you. You're my family... I love all of you. He was an angel's angel. Now look how far he's fallen. You think I'm afraid to die? I know you are. I killed two angels this week. So my brothers, I'm hunted I rebelled, I did it all of it for you. And you failed. You and your brother destroyed the world. And I lost everything... For nothing.