Glani - 2011

It is obvious and what to prove... Heart suffered when it was beating... Dig out the heart and drop into blood... Hence, the heart beats which was suffering. Something like that I heard it. Yes, I know that I am bit sick. But, I am telling you the story quite calmy, face to face and in a proper sense. Then, Why would anyone say that I am mad? I don't remember when did this feeling started. But, if this is a disease. Then its a beautiful disease! I can sense and feel things more than an ordinary person could do... ...which is good. Isn't it? Well, who will understand humanity more than human? Every human being is beautiful... when you see from human's view. I don't have any enviousness, antagonism or antipathy for him. I never harm him. Actually I have never harmed anyone. However, the trouble only comes to me. There are some people who mind their own bussiness. They don't even realized that it could trouble others... it could harm! Or are they doing this intentionally even though they have realized it. What do you think? Is he making scenery. Is he making tree-hill, river-sewer. No! He is slashing the map of my life. I don't know what he gets by darkening the paper with his pencil. I should know the things which belongs to me. Then why is he not showing it to me? His heartbeat is screamingly saying that something is going on his mind. His... his breathing is suggesting that something is wrong. I'm certain that there is something which is absolutely not right. I think so! I wanted to solve that 'absolutely not right'! That's why I made a plan. For 5 days, I watched him... ... and observed him. Do you think any mad can do this? To get up you need to wake up.He woke up exactly at 6 in the morning... ...but he didn't get up. He used to think something with his closed eyes. Then he was forced to get up by his alarm which rings exaclty at 6:30. Then he went to balcony and took deep breath ... ...like he wants to suck all the fresh air from earth and packs into his lungs. When he took bath he thinks that he could hide his breathing... ...and heartbeat with the frequency of water... He thought he was very smart! But may be he is unknown to the fact that the amplitude behind the water... ...can be heard and understood by me! Monday to Friday, he didn't even touch the pencil and paper. I was waiting when will he do that! A healthy person has 72 heartbeats per minute. Therefore, when he is outside for 9 hrs, his heart beats 38880 times. Out of that 38880 heartbeats... ...how many beats might have provoked him to shape the map of my life. May be... he is getting the clue of my calculation! Thats why when he returns, he used to go somewhere. And when he came back after dinner, he walks 18 rounds in balcony. Then he keeps a water bottle near his bed, swithes off the light and laid on the bed After 15 minutes,he was snoring but he wasn't in deep sleep... His conscious and unconscious mind was conflicting. Throughout the day whatever his conscious mind have seen, heard, understood... was snatched by his conscious mind and prove to me that... Even in his dream, he examine my life! That's why he woke up, pick up the water bottle beside his bed, drank up and went to sleep. From 2:30 to 3:30 he had a sound sleep. Then comes Saturday. Today, he gets up little late... 8 O'clock! Everything was as usual but there's something I was waiting... 5 O'clock in evening, he starts slashing paper by the pencil. But this time I don't try to look into it. Because something is going in my mind. After scratching 2615 time on paper, he gets up and open the right door of cupboard... by his left hand and puts the torturing equipments on upper shelf. He kept the keys below right side of the pillow. Finally, I was waiting for him to sleep. When will he sleep today? Whatever... he will have a sound sleep from 2:30 to 3:30. This is confirmed! I think so! And that night I realized there is nothing related to me on that paper. That was just a picture drawn on a page by an artist from his imagination. Whatever I was thinking... was just a thought. Do I think so? - Who is there? Mad knows nothing! But I knew it. In that situation I should act calm and steady. I have handled the situation very cleverly. We got the complaint that somebody was screaming here. Oh! that was me... I was having a nightmare. How many of you are staying here? Me and my roommate. Where is he? He is out of station for some days. We want to search inside. Yes...yes! please come in. Everything is alright. Hmm... Everything is OK here. Would you like to have tea-cofee anything? I was making tea. Yes... Yes ...I heard his heartbeat. HIDEOUS!... FURIOUS!! I know it... I know it... everyone is mocking on me! Yes...Yes... I did it! I killed him! Stop it!... Stop it!...Stop it!... Take this! This is the one! This is the one which was beating hideously! This is it! It is obvious and what to prove... Heart suffered when it was beating... Dig out the heart and drop into blood... Hence, the heart beats which was suffering.