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Herb Dino, woah woah woah.
*calm classical music plays*
I have these really slumpy days sometimes where I just feel really tired or just kind
of unwell, just not very engaged with the day or not very happy with the day.
Today was one of those days. I had a hard shift at work last night and I'm going back
tonight and there's just these hours in-between where I just feel exhausted and not really
motivated to do anything and just... I kinda just wanna go and crawl into my bed and hide
there.
I almost feel like I'm sort of waiting around for my life to resume, you know, when I'm
at work again, when I start to feel better or different. I'm just kind of waiting for
something to change.
On these kinds of days I don't really feel like I can accomplish a lot. I don't really
feel like I can make a long to-do list and get everything, or even anything, on it done.
I don't really feel motivated or confident. I just *sigh* I sort of feel like a bit lost,
and like I have that waiting feeling.
I just don't feel like I'm up for much, but at the same time I feel bad and weird about
not doing anything. On these days, sometimes, I feel like it can just be helpful to get
up and do something small like clean up my room which has been getting increasingly messier
as time has gone on. And just put on some music and just move a little bit.
When you clean up your personal space, it's almost like you're cleaning some kind of mental
space for yourself as well. You're sort of giving yourself more room to be, cause it's
hard to be in a space that's really messy. And you're allowing yourself to feel like
at least you accomplished one little thing in a day where you felt like you weren't really
going to do anything.
Maybe you can't even clean up the entire room, maybe you'll just clean up a small part of
it, but there's something sort of satisfying about that. You know, I might not have control
over a lot of things in the world, but I can control how this small little box feels. I
can put art on the walls. I can fill it with colour. I can make it as messy as I want or
as tidy as I want. This space is my own, and there's something really comforting about
that.