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CHAPTER IX A BOAT
But first I was to prepare more land, for I had now seed enough to sow above an acre of
ground.
Before I did this, I had a week's work at least to make me a spade, which, when it
was done, was but a sorry one indeed, and very heavy, and required double labour to
work with it.
However, I got through that, and sowed my seed in two large flat pieces of ground, as
near my house as I could find them to my mind, and fenced them in with a good hedge,
the stakes of which were all cut off that
wood which I had set before, and knew it would grow; so that, in a year's time, I
knew I should have a quick or living hedge, that would want but little repair.
This work did not take me up less than three months, because a great part of that
time was the wet season, when I could not go abroad.
Within-doors, that is when it rained and I could not go out, I found employment in the
following occupations-always observing, that all the while I was at work I diverted
myself with talking to my parrot, and
teaching him to speak; and I quickly taught him to know his own name, and at last to
speak it out pretty loud, "Poll," which was the first word I ever heard spoken in the
island by any mouth but my own.
This, therefore, was not my work, but an assistance to my work; for now, as I said,
I had a great employment upon my hands, as follows: I had long studied to make, by
some means or other, some earthen vessels,
which, indeed, I wanted sorely, but knew not where to come at them.
However, considering the heat of the climate, I did not doubt but if I could
find out any clay, I might make some pots that might, being dried in the sun, be hard
enough and strong enough to bear handling,
and to hold anything that was dry, and required to be kept so; and as this was
necessary in the preparing corn, meal, &c., which was the thing I was doing, I resolved
to make some as large as I could, and fit
only to stand like jars, to hold what should be put into them.
It would make the reader pity me, or rather laugh at me, to tell how many awkward ways
I took to raise this paste; what odd, misshapen, ugly things I made; how many of
them fell in and how many fell out, the
clay not being stiff enough to bear its own weight; how many cracked by the over-
violent heat of the sun, being set out too hastily; and how many fell in pieces with
only removing, as well before as after they
were dried; and, in a word, how, after having laboured hard to find the clay-to
dig it, to temper it, to bring it home, and work it-I could not make above two large
earthen ugly things (I cannot call them jars) in about two months' labour.
However, as the sun baked these two very dry and hard, I lifted them very gently up,
and set them down again in two great wicker baskets, which I had made on purpose for
them, that they might not break; and as
between the pot and the basket there was a little room to spare, I stuffed it full of
the rice and barley straw; and these two pots being to stand always dry I thought
would hold my dry corn, and perhaps the meal, when the corn was bruised.
Though I miscarried so much in my design for large pots, yet I made several smaller
things with better success; such as little round pots, flat dishes, pitchers, and
pipkins, and any things my hand turned to;
and the heat of the sun baked them quite hard.
But all this would not answer my end, which was to get an earthen pot to hold what was
liquid, and bear the fire, which none of these could do.
It happened after some time, making a pretty large fire for cooking my meat, when
I went to put it out after I had done with it, I found a broken piece of one of my
earthenware vessels in the fire, burnt as hard as a stone, and red as a tile.
I was agreeably surprised to see it, and said to myself, that certainly they might
be made to burn whole, if they would burn broken.
This set me to study how to order my fire, so as to make it burn some pots.
I had no notion of a kiln, such as the potters burn in, or of glazing them with
lead, though I had some lead to do it with; but I placed three large pipkins and two or
three pots in a pile, one upon another, and
placed my firewood all round it, with a great heap of embers under them.
I plied the fire with fresh fuel round the outside and upon the top, till I saw the
pots in the inside red-hot quite through, and observed that they did not crack at
all.
When I saw them clear red, I let them stand in that heat about five or six hours, till
I found one of them, though it did not crack, did melt or run; for the sand which
was mixed with the clay melted by the
violence of the heat, and would have run into glass if I had gone on; so I slacked
my fire gradually till the pots began to abate of the red colour; and watching them
all night, that I might not let the fire
abate too fast, in the morning I had three very good (I will not say handsome)
pipkins, and two other earthen pots, as hard burnt as could be desired, and one of
them perfectly glazed with the running of the sand.
After this experiment, I need not say that I wanted no sort of earthenware for my use;
but I must needs say as to the shapes of them, they were very indifferent, as any
one may suppose, when I had no way of
making them but as the children make dirt pies, or as a woman would make pies that
never learned to raise paste.
No joy at a thing of so mean a nature was ever equal to mine, when I found I had made
an earthen pot that would bear the fire; and I had hardly patience to stay till they
were cold before I set one on the fire
again with some water in it to boil me some meat, which it did admirably well; and with
a piece of a kid I made some very good broth, though I wanted oatmeal, and several
other ingredients requisite to make it as good as I would have had it been.
My next concern was to get me a stone mortar to stamp or beat some corn in; for
as to the mill, there was no thought of arriving at that perfection of art with one
pair of hands.
To supply this want, I was at a great loss; for, of all the trades in the world, I was
as perfectly unqualified for a stone-cutter as for any whatever; neither had I any
tools to go about it with.
I spent many a day to find out a great stone big enough to cut hollow, and make
fit for a mortar, and could find none at all, except what was in the solid rock, and
which I had no way to dig or cut out; nor
indeed were the rocks in the island of hardness sufficient, but were all of a
sandy, crumbling stone, which neither would bear the weight of a heavy pestle, nor
would break the corn without filling it with sand.
So, after a great deal of time lost in searching for a stone, I gave it over, and
resolved to look out for a great block of hard wood, which I found, indeed, much
easier; and getting one as big as I had
strength to stir, I rounded it, and formed it on the outside with my axe and hatchet,
and then with the help of fire and infinite labour, made a hollow place in it, as the
Indians in Brazil make their canoes.
After this, I made a great heavy pestle or *** of the wood called the iron-wood;
and this I prepared and laid by against I had my next crop of corn, which I proposed
to myself to grind, or rather pound into meal to make bread.
My next difficulty was to make a sieve or searce, to dress my meal, and to part it
from the bran and the husk; without which I did not see it possible I could have any
bread.
This was a most difficult thing even to think on, for to be sure I had nothing like
the necessary thing to make it-I mean fine thin canvas or stuff to searce the meal
through.
And here I was at a full stop for many months; nor did I really know what to do.
Linen I had none left but what was mere rags; I had goat's hair, but neither knew
how to weave it or spin it; and had I known how, here were no tools to work it with.
All the remedy that I found for this was, that at last I did remember I had, among
the ***'s clothes which were saved out of the ship, some neckcloths of calico or
muslin; and with some pieces of these I
made three small sieves proper enough for the work; and thus I made shift for some
years: how I did afterwards, I shall show in its place.
The baking part was the next thing to be considered, and how I should make bread
when I came to have corn; for first, I had no yeast.
As to that part, there was no supplying the want, so I did not concern myself much
about it. But for an oven I was indeed in great pain.
At length I found out an experiment for that also, which was this: I made some
earthen-vessels very broad but not deep, that is to say, about two feet diameter,
and not above nine inches deep.
These I burned in the fire, as I had done the other, and laid them by; and when I
wanted to bake, I made a great fire upon my hearth, which I had paved with some square
tiles of my own baking and burning also; but I should not call them square.
When the firewood was burned pretty much into embers or live coals, I drew them
forward upon this hearth, so as to cover it all over, and there I let them lie till the
hearth was very hot.
Then sweeping away all the embers, I set down my loaf or loaves, and whelming down
the earthen pot upon them, drew the embers all round the outside of the pot, to keep
in and add to the heat; and thus as well as
in the best oven in the world, I baked my barley-loaves, and became in little time a
good pastrycook into the bargain; for I made myself several cakes and puddings of
the rice; but I made no pies, neither had I
anything to put into them supposing I had, except the flesh either of fowls or goats.
It need not be wondered at if all these things took me up most part of the third
year of my abode here; for it is to be observed that in the intervals of these
things I had my new harvest and husbandry
to manage; for I reaped my corn in its season, and carried it home as well as I
could, and laid it up in the ear, in my large baskets, till I had time to rub it
out, for I had no floor to thrash it on, or instrument to thrash it with.
And now, indeed, my stock of corn increasing, I really wanted to build my
barns bigger; I wanted a place to lay it up in, for the increase of the corn now
yielded me so much, that I had of the
barley about twenty bushels, and of the rice as much or more; insomuch that now I
resolved to begin to use it freely; for my bread had been quite gone a great while;
also I resolved to see what quantity would
be sufficient for me a whole year, and to sow but once a year.
Upon the whole, I found that the forty bushels of barley and rice were much more
than I could consume in a year; so I resolved to sow just the same quantity
every year that I sowed the last, in hopes
that such a quantity would fully provide me with bread, &c.
All the while these things were doing, you may be sure my thoughts ran many times upon
the prospect of land which I had seen from the other side of the island; and I was not
without secret wishes that I were on shore
there, fancying that, seeing the mainland, and an inhabited country, I might find some
way or other to convey myself further, and perhaps at last find some means of escape.
But all this while I made no allowance for the dangers of such an undertaking, and how
I might fall into the hands of savages, and perhaps such as I might have reason to
think far worse than the lions and tigers
of Africa: that if I once came in their power, I should run a hazard of more than a
thousand to one of being killed, and perhaps of being eaten; for I had heard
that the people of the Caribbean coast were
cannibals or man-eaters, and I knew by the latitude that I could not be far from that
shore.
Then, supposing they were not cannibals, yet they might kill me, as many Europeans
who had fallen into their hands had been served, even when they had been ten or
twenty together-much more I, that was but
one, and could make little or no defence; all these things, I say, which I ought to
have considered well; and did come into my thoughts afterwards, yet gave me no
apprehensions at first, and my head ran
mightily upon the thought of getting over to the shore.
Now I wished for my boy Xury, and the long- boat with shoulder-of-mutton sail, with
which I sailed above a thousand miles on the coast of Africa; but this was in vain:
then I thought I would go and look at our
ship's boat, which, as I have said, was blown up upon the shore a great way, in the
storm, when we were first cast away.
She lay almost where she did at first, but not quite; and was turned, by the force of
the waves and the winds, almost bottom upward, against a high ridge of beachy,
rough sand, but no water about her.
If I had had hands to have refitted her, and to have launched her into the water,
the boat would have done well enough, and I might have gone back into the Brazils with
her easily enough; but I might have
foreseen that I could no more turn her and set her upright upon her bottom than I
could remove the island; however, I went to the woods, and cut levers and rollers, and
brought them to the boat resolving to try
what I could do; suggesting to myself that if I could but turn her down, I might
repair the damage she had received, and she would be a very good boat, and I might go
to sea in her very easily.
I spared no pains, indeed, in this piece of fruitless toil, and spent, I think, three
or four weeks about it; at last finding it impossible to heave it up with my little
strength, I fell to digging away the sand,
to undermine it, and so to make it fall down, setting pieces of wood to thrust and
guide it right in the fall.
But when I had done this, I was unable to stir it up again, or to get under it, much
less to move it forward towards the water; so I was forced to give it over; and yet,
though I gave over the hopes of the boat,
my desire to venture over for the main increased, rather than decreased, as the
means for it seemed impossible.
This at length put me upon thinking whether it was not possible to make myself a canoe,
or periagua, such as the natives of those climates make, even without tools, or, as I
might say, without hands, of the trunk of a great tree.
This I not only thought possible, but easy, and pleased myself extremely with the
thoughts of making it, and with my having much more convenience for it than any of
the negroes or Indians; but not at all
considering the particular inconveniences which I lay under more than the Indians
did-viz. want of hands to move it, when it was made, into the water-a difficulty much
harder for me to surmount than all the
consequences of want of tools could be to them; for what was it to me, if when I had
chosen a vast tree in the woods, and with much trouble cut it down, if I had been
able with my tools to hew and dub the
outside into the proper shape of a boat, and burn or cut out the inside to make it
hollow, so as to make a boat of it-if, after all this, I must leave it just there
where I found it, and not be able to launch it into the water?
One would have thought I could not have had the least reflection upon my mind of my
circumstances while I was making this boat, but I should have immediately thought how I
should get it into the sea; but my thoughts
were so intent upon my voyage over the sea in it, that I never once considered how I
should get it off the land: and it was really, in its own nature, more easy for me
to guide it over forty-five miles of sea
than about forty-five fathoms of land, where it lay, to set it afloat in the
water.
I went to work upon this boat the most like a fool that ever man did who had any of his
senses awake.
I pleased myself with the design, without determining whether I was ever able to
undertake it; not but that the difficulty of launching my boat came often into my
head; but I put a stop to my inquiries into
it by this foolish answer which I gave myself-"Let me first make it; I warrant I
will find some way or other to get it along when it is done."
This was a most preposterous method; but the eagerness of my fancy prevailed, and to
work I went.
I felled a cedar-tree, and I question much whether Solomon ever had such a one for the
building of the Temple of Jerusalem; it was five feet ten inches diameter at the lower
part next the stump, and four feet eleven
inches diameter at the end of twenty-two feet; after which it lessened for a while,
and then parted into branches.
It was not without infinite labour that I felled this tree; I was twenty days hacking
and hewing at it at the bottom; I was fourteen more getting the branches and
limbs and the vast spreading head cut off,
which I hacked and hewed through with axe and hatchet, and inexpressible labour;
after this, it cost me a month to shape it and dub it to a proportion, and to
something like the bottom of a boat, that it might swim upright as it ought to do.
It cost me near three months more to clear the inside, and work it out so as to make
an exact boat of it; this I did, indeed, without fire, by mere mallet and chisel,
and by the dint of hard labour, till I had
brought it to be a very handsome periagua, and big enough to have carried six-and-
twenty men, and consequently big enough to have carried me and all my cargo.
When I had gone through this work I was extremely delighted with it.
The boat was really much bigger than ever I saw a canoe or periagua, that was made of
one tree, in my life.
Many a weary stroke it had cost, you may be sure; and had I gotten it into the water, I
make no question, but I should have begun the maddest voyage, and the most unlikely
to be performed, that ever was undertaken.
But all my devices to get it into the water failed me; though they cost me infinite
labour too.
It lay about one hundred yards from the water, and not more; but the first
inconvenience was, it was up hill towards the creek.
Well, to take away this discouragement, I resolved to dig into the surface of the
earth, and so make a declivity: this I began, and it cost me a prodigious deal of
pains (but who grudge pains who have their
deliverance in view?); but when this was worked through, and this difficulty
managed, it was still much the same, for I could no more stir the canoe than I could
the other boat.
Then I measured the distance of ground, and resolved to cut a dock or canal, to bring
the water up to the canoe, seeing I could not bring the canoe down to the water.
Well, I began this work; and when I began to enter upon it, and calculate how deep it
was to be dug, how broad, how the stuff was to be thrown out, I found that, by the
number of hands I had, being none but my
own, it must have been ten or twelve years before I could have gone through with it;
for the shore lay so high, that at the upper end it must have been at least twenty
feet deep; so at length, though with great reluctancy, I gave this attempt over also.
This grieved me heartily; and now I saw, though too late, the folly of beginning a
work before we count the cost, and before we judge rightly of our own strength to go
through with it.
In the middle of this work I finished my fourth year in this place, and kept my
anniversary with the same devotion, and with as much comfort as ever before; for,
by a constant study and serious application
to the Word of God, and by the assistance of His grace, I gained a different
knowledge from what I had before. I entertained different notions of things.
I looked now upon the world as a thing remote, which I had nothing to do with, no
expectations from, and, indeed, no desires about: in a word, I had nothing indeed to
do with it, nor was ever likely to have, so
I thought it looked, as we may perhaps look upon it hereafter-viz. as a place I had
lived in, but was come out of it; and well might I say, as Father Abraham to Dives,
"Between me and thee is a great gulf fixed."
In the first place, I was removed from all the wickedness of the world here; I had
neither the lusts of the flesh, the lusts of the eye, nor the pride of life.
I had nothing to covet, for I had all that I was now capable of enjoying; I was lord
of the whole manor; or, if I pleased, I might call myself king or emperor over the
whole country which I had possession of:
there were no rivals; I had no competitor, none to dispute sovereignty or command with
me: I might have raised ship-loadings of corn, but I had no use for it; so I let as
little grow as I thought enough for my occasion.
I had tortoise or turtle enough, but now and then one was as much as I could put to
any use: I had timber enough to have built a fleet of ships; and I had grapes enough
to have made wine, or to have cured into
raisins, to have loaded that fleet when it had been built.
But all I could make use of was all that was valuable: I had enough to eat and
supply my wants, and what was all the rest to me?
If I killed more flesh than I could eat, the dog must eat it, or vermin; if I sowed
more corn than I could eat, it must be spoiled; the trees that I cut down were
lying to rot on the ground; I could make no
more use of them but for fuel, and that I had no occasion for but to dress my food.
In a word, the nature and experience of things dictated to me, upon just
reflection, that all the good things of this world are no farther good to us than
they are for our use; and that, whatever we
may heap up to give others, we enjoy just as much as we can use, and no more.
The most covetous, griping miser in the world would have been cured of the vice of
covetousness if he had been in my case; for I possessed infinitely more than I knew
what to do with.
I had no room for desire, except it was of things which I had not, and they were but
trifles, though, indeed, of great use to me.
I had, as I hinted before, a parcel of money, as well gold as silver, about
thirty-six pounds sterling.
Alas! there the sorry, useless stuff lay; I had no more manner of business for it; and
often thought with myself that I would have given a handful of it for a gross of
tobacco-pipes; or for a hand-mill to grind
my corn; nay, I would have given it all for a sixpenny-worth of turnip and carrot seed
out of England, or for a handful of peas and beans, and a bottle of ink.
As it was, I had not the least advantage by it or benefit from it; but there it lay in
a drawer, and grew mouldy with the damp of the cave in the wet seasons; and if I had
had the drawer full of diamonds, it had
been the same case-they had been of no manner of value to me, because of no use.
I had now brought my state of life to be much easier in itself than it was at first,
and much easier to my mind, as well as to my body.
I frequently sat down to meat with thankfulness, and admired the hand of God's
providence, which had thus spread my table in the wilderness.
I learned to look more upon the bright side of my condition, and less upon the dark
side, and to consider what I enjoyed rather than what I wanted; and this gave me
sometimes such secret comforts, that I
cannot express them; and which I take notice of here, to put those discontented
people in mind of it, who cannot enjoy comfortably what God has given them,
because they see and covet something that He has not given them.
All our discontents about what we want appeared to me to spring from the want of
thankfulness for what we have.
Another reflection was of great use to me, and doubtless would be so to any one that
should fall into such distress as mine was; and this was, to compare my present
condition with what I at first expected it
would be; nay, with what it would certainly have been, if the good providence of God
had not wonderfully ordered the ship to be cast up nearer to the shore, where I not
only could come at her, but could bring
what I got out of her to the shore, for my relief and comfort; without which, I had
wanted for tools to work, weapons for defence, and gunpowder and shot for getting
my food.
I spent whole hours, I may say whole days, in representing to myself, in the most
lively colours, how I must have acted if I had got nothing out of the ship.
How I could not have so much as got any food, except fish and turtles; and that, as
it was long before I found any of them, I must have perished first; that I should
have lived, if I had not perished, like a
mere savage; that if I had killed a goat or a fowl, by any contrivance, I had no way to
flay or open it, or part the flesh from the skin and the bowels, or to cut it up; but
must gnaw it with my teeth, and pull it with my claws, like a beast.
These reflections made me very sensible of the goodness of Providence to me, and very
thankful for my present condition, with all its hardships and misfortunes; and this
part also I cannot but recommend to the
reflection of those who are apt, in their misery, to say, "Is any affliction like
mine?" Let them consider how much worse the cases of some people are, and their
case might have been, if Providence had thought fit.
I had another reflection, which assisted me also to comfort my mind with hopes; and
this was comparing my present situation with what I had deserved, and had therefore
reason to expect from the hand of Providence.
I had lived a dreadful life, perfectly destitute of the knowledge and fear of God.
I had been well instructed by father and mother; neither had they been wanting to me
in their early endeavours to infuse a religious awe of God into my mind, a sense
of my duty, and what the nature and end of my being required of me.
But, alas! falling early into the seafaring life, which of all lives is the most
destitute of the fear of God, though His terrors are always before them; I say,
falling early into the seafaring life, and
into seafaring company, all that little sense of religion which I had entertained
was laughed out of me by my messmates; by a hardened despising of dangers, and the
views of death, which grew habitual to me
by my long absence from all manner of opportunities to converse with anything but
what was like myself, or to hear anything that was good or tended towards it.
So void was I of everything that was good, or the least sense of what I was, or was to
be, that, in the greatest deliverances I enjoyed-such as my escape from Sallee; my
being taken up by the Portuguese master of
the ship; my being planted so well in the Brazils; my receiving the cargo from
England, and the like-I never had once the words "Thank God!" so much as on my mind,
or in my mouth; nor in the greatest
distress had I so much as a thought to pray to Him, or so much as to say, "Lord, have
mercy upon me!" no, nor to mention the name of God, unless it was to swear by, and
blaspheme it.
I had terrible reflections upon my mind for many months, as I have already observed, on
account of my wicked and hardened life past; and when I looked about me, and
considered what particular providences had
attended me since my coming into this place, and how God had dealt bountifully
with me-had not only punished me less than my iniquity had deserved, but had so
plentifully provided for me-this gave me
great hopes that my repentance was accepted, and that God had yet mercy in
store for me.
With these reflections I worked my mind up, not only to a resignation to the will of
God in the present disposition of my circumstances, but even to a sincere
thankfulness for my condition; and that I,
who was yet a living man, ought not to complain, seeing I had not the due
punishment of my sins; that I enjoyed so many mercies which I had no reason to have
expected in that place; that I ought never
more to repine at my condition, but to rejoice, and to give daily thanks for that
daily bread, which nothing but a crowd of wonders could have brought; that I ought to
consider I had been fed even by a miracle,
even as great as that of feeding Elijah by ravens, nay, by a long series of miracles;
and that I could hardly have named a place in the uninhabitable part of the world
where I could have been cast more to my
advantage; a place where, as I had no society, which was my affliction on one
hand, so I found no ravenous beasts, no furious wolves or tigers, to threaten my
life; no venomous creatures, or poisons,
which I might feed on to my hurt; no savages to *** and devour me.
In a word, as my life was a life of sorrow one way, so it was a life of mercy another;
and I wanted nothing to make it a life of comfort but to be able to make my sense of
God's goodness to me, and care over me in
this condition, be my daily consolation; and after I did make a just improvement on
these things, I went away, and was no more sad.
I had now been here so long that many things which I had brought on shore for my
help were either quite gone, or very much wasted and near spent.
My ink, as I observed, had been gone some time, all but a very little, which I eked
out with water, a little and a little, till it was so pale, it scarce left any
appearance of black upon the paper.
As long as it lasted I made use of it to minute down the days of the month on which
any remarkable thing happened to me; and first, by casting up times past, I
remembered that there was a strange
concurrence of days in the various providences which befell me, and which, if
I had been superstitiously inclined to observe days as fatal or fortunate, I might
have had reason to have looked upon with a great deal of curiosity.
First, I had observed that the same day that I broke away from my father and
friends and ran away to Hull, in order to go to sea, the same day afterwards I was
taken by the Sallee man-of-war, and made a
slave; the same day of the year that I escaped out of the wreck of that ship in
Yarmouth Roads, that same day-year afterwards I made my escape from Sallee in
a boat; the same day of the year I was born
on-viz. the 30th of September, that same day I had my life so miraculously saved
twenty-six years after, when I was cast on shore in this island; so that my wicked
life and my solitary life began both on a day.
The next thing to my ink being wasted was that of my bread-I mean the biscuit which I
brought out of the ship; this I had husbanded to the last degree, allowing
myself but one cake of bread a-day for
above a year; and yet I was quite without bread for near a year before I got any corn
of my own, and great reason I had to be thankful that I had any at all, the getting
it being, as has been already observed, next to miraculous.
My clothes, too, began to decay; as to linen, I had had none a good while, except
some chequered shirts which I found in the chests of the other ***, and which I
carefully preserved; because many times I
could bear no other clothes on but a shirt; and it was a very great help to me that I
had, among all the men's clothes of the ship, almost three dozen of shirts.
There were also, indeed, several thick watch-coats of the ***'s which were
left, but they were too hot to wear; and though it is true that the weather was so
violently hot that there was no need of
clothes, yet I could not go quite naked-no, though I had been inclined to it, which I
was not-nor could I abide the thought of it, though I was alone.
The reason why I could not go naked was, I could not bear the heat of the sun so well
when quite naked as with some clothes on; nay, the very heat frequently blistered my
skin: whereas, with a shirt on, the air
itself made some motion, and whistling under the shirt, was twofold cooler than
without it.
No more could I ever bring myself to go out in the heat of the sun without a cap or a
hat; the heat of the sun, beating with such violence as it does in that place, would
give me the headache presently, by darting
so directly on my head, without a cap or hat on, so that I could not bear it;
whereas, if I put on my hat it would presently go away.
Upon these views I began to consider about putting the few rags I had, which I called
clothes, into some order; I had worn out all the waistcoats I had, and my business
was now to try if I could not make jackets
out of the great watch-coats which I had by me, and with such other materials as I had;
so I set to work, tailoring, or rather, indeed, botching, for I made most piteous
work of it.
However, I made shift to make two or three new waistcoats, which I hoped would serve
me a great while: as for breeches or drawers, I made but a very sorry shift
indeed till afterwards.
I have mentioned that I saved the skins of all the creatures that I killed, I mean
four-footed ones, and I had them hung up, stretched out with sticks in the sun, by
which means some of them were so dry and
hard that they were fit for little, but others were very useful.
The first thing I made of these was a great cap for my head, with the hair on the
outside, to shoot off the rain; and this I performed so well, that after I made me a
suit of clothes wholly of these skins-that
is to say, a waistcoat, and breeches open at the knees, and both loose, for they were
rather wanting to keep me cool than to keep me warm.
I must not omit to acknowledge that they were wretchedly made; for if I was a bad
carpenter, I was a worse tailor.
However, they were such as I made very good shift with, and when I was out, if it
happened to rain, the hair of my waistcoat and cap being outermost, I was kept very
dry.
After this, I spent a great deal of time and pains to make an umbrella; I was,
indeed, in great want of one, and had a great mind to make one; I had seen them
made in the Brazils, where they are very
useful in the great heats there, and I felt the heats every jot as great here, and
greater too, being nearer the equinox; besides, as I was obliged to be much
abroad, it was a most useful thing to me, as well for the rains as the heats.
I took a world of pains with it, and was a great while before I could make anything
likely to hold: nay, after I had thought I had hit the way, I spoiled two or three
before I made one to my mind: but at last I
made one that answered indifferently well: the main difficulty I found was to make it
let down.
I could make it spread, but if it did not let down too, and draw in, it was not
portable for me any way but just over my head, which would not do.
However, at last, as I said, I made one to answer, and covered it with skins, the hair
upwards, so that it cast off the rain like a pent-house, and kept off the sun so
effectually, that I could walk out in the
hottest of the weather with greater advantage than I could before in the
coolest, and when I had no need of it could close it, and carry it under my arm.
Thus I lived mighty comfortably, my mind being entirely composed by resigning myself
to the will of God, and throwing myself wholly upon the disposal of His providence.
This made my life better than sociable, for when I began to regret the want of
conversation I would ask myself, whether thus conversing mutually with my own
thoughts, and (as I hope I may say) with
even God Himself, by ejaculations, was not better than the utmost enjoyment of human
society in the world?
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CHAPTER X TAMES GOATS
I cannot say that after this, for five years, any extraordinary thing happened to
me, but I lived on in the same course, in the same posture and place, as before; the
chief things I was employed in, besides my
yearly labour of planting my barley and rice, and curing my raisins, of both which
I always kept up just enough to have sufficient stock of one year's provisions
beforehand; I say, besides this yearly
labour, and my daily pursuit of going out with my gun, I had one labour, to make a
canoe, which at last I finished: so that, by digging a canal to it of six feet wide
and four feet deep, I brought it into the creek, almost half a mile.
As for the first, which was so vastly big, for I made it without considering
beforehand, as I ought to have done, how I should be able to launch it, so, never
being able to bring it into the water, or
bring the water to it, I was obliged to let it lie where it was as a memorandum to
teach me to be wiser the next time: indeed, the next time, though I could not get a
tree proper for it, and was in a place
where I could not get the water to it at any less distance than, as I have said,
near half a mile, yet, as I saw it was practicable at last, I never gave it over;
and though I was near two years about it,
yet I never grudged my labour, in hopes of having a boat to go off to sea at last.
However, though my little periagua was finished, yet the size of it was not at all
answerable to the design which I had in view when I made the first; I mean of
venturing over to the terra firma, where it
was above forty miles broad; accordingly, the smallness of my boat assisted to put an
end to that design, and now I thought no more of it.
As I had a boat, my next design was to make a cruise round the island; for as I had
been on the other side in one place, crossing, as I have already described it,
over the land, so the discoveries I made in
that little journey made me very eager to see other parts of the coast; and now I had
a boat, I thought of nothing but sailing round the island.
For this purpose, that I might do everything with discretion and
consideration, I fitted up a little mast in my boat, and made a sail too out of some of
the pieces of the ship's sails which lay in
store, and of which I had a great stock by me.
Having fitted my mast and sail, and tried the boat, I found she would sail very well;
then I made little lockers or boxes at each end of my boat, to put provisions,
necessaries, ammunition, &c., into, to be
kept dry, either from rain or the spray of the sea; and a little, long, hollow place I
cut in the inside of the boat, where I could lay my gun, making a flap to hang
down over it to keep it dry.
I fixed my umbrella also in the step at the stern, like a mast, to stand over my head,
and keep the heat of the sun off me, like an awning; and thus I every now and then
took a little voyage upon the sea, but
never went far out, nor far from the little creek.
At last, being eager to view the circumference of my little kingdom, I
resolved upon my cruise; and accordingly I victualled my ship for the voyage, putting
in two dozen of loaves (cakes I should call
them) of barley-bread, an earthen pot full of parched rice (a food I ate a good deal
of), a little bottle of rum, half a goat, and powder and shot for killing more, and
two large watch-coats, of those which, as I
mentioned before, I had saved out of the ***'s chests; these I took, one to lie
upon, and the other to cover me in the night.
It was the 6th of November, in the sixth year of my reign-or my captivity, which you
please-that I set out on this voyage, and I found it much longer than I expected; for
though the island itself was not very
large, yet when I came to the east side of it, I found a great ledge of rocks lie out
about two leagues into the sea, some above water, some under it; and beyond that a
shoal of sand, lying dry half a league
more, so that I was obliged to go a great way out to sea to double the point.
When I first discovered them, I was going to give over my enterprise, and come back
again, not knowing how far it might oblige me to go out to sea; and above all,
doubting how I should get back again: so I
came to an anchor; for I had made a kind of an anchor with a piece of a broken
grappling which I got out of the ship.
Having secured my boat, I took my gun and went on shore, climbing up a hill, which
seemed to overlook that point where I saw the full extent of it, and resolved to
venture.
In my viewing the sea from that hill where I stood, I perceived a strong, and indeed a
most furious current, which ran to the east, and even came close to the point; and
I took the more notice of it because I saw
there might be some danger that when I came into it I might be carried out to sea by
the strength of it, and not be able to make the island again; and indeed, had I not got
first upon this hill, I believe it would
have been so; for there was the same current on the other side the island, only
that it set off at a further distance, and I saw there was a strong eddy under the
shore; so I had nothing to do but to get
out of the first current, and I should presently be in an eddy.
I lay here, however, two days, because the wind blowing pretty fresh at ESE., and that
being just contrary to the current, made a great breach of the sea upon the point: so
that it was not safe for me to keep too
close to the shore for the breach, nor to go too far off, because of the stream.
The third day, in the morning, the wind having abated overnight, the sea was calm,
and I ventured: but I am a warning to all rash and ignorant pilots; for no sooner was
I come to the point, when I was not even my
boat's length from the shore, but I found myself in a great depth of water, and a
current like the sluice of a mill; it carried my boat along with it with such
violence that all I could do could not keep
her so much as on the edge of it; but I found it hurried me farther and farther out
from the eddy, which was on my left hand.
There was no wind stirring to help me, and all I could do with my paddles signified
nothing: and now I began to give myself over for lost; for as the current was on
both sides of the island, I knew in a few
leagues distance they must join again, and then I was irrecoverably gone; nor did I
see any possibility of avoiding it; so that I had no prospect before me but of
perishing, not by the sea, for that was calm enough, but of starving from hunger.
I had, indeed, found a tortoise on the shore, as big almost as I could lift, and
had tossed it into the boat; and I had a great jar of fresh water, that is to say,
one of my earthen pots; but what was all
this to being driven into the vast ocean, where, to be sure, there was no shore, no
mainland or island, for a thousand leagues at least?
And now I saw how easy it was for the providence of God to make even the most
miserable condition of mankind worse.
Now I looked back upon my desolate, solitary island as the most pleasant place
in the world and all the happiness my heart could wish for was to be but there again.
I stretched out my hands to it, with eager wishes-"O happy desert!" said I, "I shall
never see thee more.
O miserable creature! whither am going?" Then I reproached myself with my unthankful
temper, and that I had repined at my solitary condition; and now what would I
give to be on shore there again!
Thus, we never see the true state of our condition till it is illustrated to us by
its contraries, nor know how to value what we enjoy, but by the want of it.
It is scarcely possible to imagine the consternation I was now in, being driven
from my beloved island (for so it appeared to me now to be) into the wide ocean,
almost two leagues, and in the utmost despair of ever recovering it again.
However, I worked hard till, indeed, my strength was almost exhausted, and kept my
boat as much to the northward, that is, towards the side of the current which the
eddy lay on, as possibly I could; when
about noon, as the sun passed the meridian, I thought I felt a little breeze of wind in
my face, springing up from SSE.
This cheered my heart a little, and especially when, in about half-an-hour
more, it blew a pretty gentle gale.
By this time I had got at a frightful distance from the island, and had the least
cloudy or hazy weather intervened, I had been undone another way, too; for I had no
compass on board, and should never have
known how to have steered towards the island, if I had but once lost sight of it;
but the weather continuing clear, I applied myself to get up my mast again, and spread
my sail, standing away to the north as much as possible, to get out of the current.
Just as I had set my mast and sail, and the boat began to stretch away, I saw even by
the clearness of the water some alteration of the current was near; for where the
current was so strong the water was foul;
but perceiving the water clear, I found the current abate; and presently I found to the
east, at about half a mile, a breach of the sea upon some rocks: these rocks I found
caused the current to part again, and as
the main stress of it ran away more southerly, leaving the rocks to the north-
east, so the other returned by the repulse of the rocks, and made a strong eddy, which
ran back again to the north-west, with a very sharp stream.
They who know what it is to have a reprieve brought to them upon the ladder, or to be
rescued from thieves just going to *** them, or who have been in such extremities,
may guess what my present surprise of joy
was, and how gladly I put my boat into the stream of this eddy; and the wind also
freshening, how gladly I spread my sail to it, running cheerfully before the wind, and
with a strong tide or eddy underfoot.
This eddy carried me about a league on my way back again, directly towards the
island, but about two leagues more to the northward than the current which carried me
away at first; so that when I came near the
island, I found myself open to the northern shore of it, that is to say, the other end
of the island, opposite to that which I went out from.
When I had made something more than a league of way by the help of this current
or eddy, I found it was spent, and served me no further.
However, I found that being between two great currents-viz. that on the south side,
which had hurried me away, and that on the north, which lay about a league on the
other side; I say, between these two, in
the wake of the island, I found the water at least still, and running no way; and
having still a breeze of wind fair for me, I kept on steering directly for the island,
though not making such fresh way as I did before.
About four o'clock in the evening, being then within a league of the island, I found
the point of the rocks which occasioned this disaster stretching out, as is
described before, to the southward, and
casting off the current more southerly, had, of course, made another eddy to the
north; and this I found very strong, but not directly setting the way my course lay,
which was due west, but almost full north.
However, having a fresh gale, I stretched across this eddy, slanting north-west; and
in about an hour came within about a mile of the shore, where, it being smooth water,
I soon got to land.
When I was on shore, God I fell on my knees and gave God thanks for my deliverance,
resolving to lay aside all thoughts of my deliverance by my boat; and refreshing
myself with such things as I had, I brought
my boat close to the shore, in a little cove that I had spied under some trees, and
laid me down to sleep, being quite spent with the labour and fatigue of the voyage.
I was now at a great loss which way to get home with my boat!
I had run so much hazard, and knew too much of the case, to think of attempting it by
the way I went out; and what might be at the other side (I mean the west side) I
knew not, nor had I any mind to run any
more ventures; so I resolved on the next morning to make my way westward along the
shore, and to see if there was no creek where I might lay up my frigate in safety,
so as to have her again if I wanted her.
In about three miles or thereabouts, coasting the shore, I came to a very good
inlet or bay, about a mile over, which narrowed till it came to a very little
rivulet or brook, where I found a very
convenient harbour for my boat, and where she lay as if she had been in a little dock
made on purpose for her.
Here I put in, and having stowed my boat very safe, I went on shore to look about
me, and see where I was.
I soon found I had but a little passed by the place where I had been before, when I
travelled on foot to that shore; so taking nothing out of my boat but my gun and
umbrella, for it was exceedingly hot, I began my march.
The way was comfortable enough after such a voyage as I had been upon, and I reached my
old bower in the evening, where I found everything standing as I left it; for I
always kept it in good order, being, as I said before, my country house.
I got over the fence, and laid me down in the shade to rest my limbs, for I was very
weary, and fell asleep; but judge you, if you can, that read my story, what a
surprise I must be in when I was awaked out
of my sleep by a voice calling me by my name several times, "Robin, Robin, Robin
Crusoe: poor Robin Crusoe! Where are you, Robin Crusoe?
Where are you?
Where have you been?"
I was so dead asleep at first, being fatigued with rowing, or part of the day,
and with walking the latter part, that I did not wake thoroughly; but dozing thought
I dreamed that somebody spoke to me; but as
the voice continued to repeat, "Robin Crusoe, Robin Crusoe," at last I began to
wake more perfectly, and was at first dreadfully frightened, and started up in
the utmost consternation; but no sooner
were my eyes open, but I saw my Poll sitting on the top of the hedge; and
immediately knew that it was he that spoke to me; for just in such bemoaning language
I had used to talk to him and teach him;
and he had learned it so perfectly that he would sit upon my finger, and lay his bill
close to my face and cry, "Poor Robin Crusoe!
Where are you?
Where have you been? How came you here?" and such things as I
had taught him.
However, even though I knew it was the parrot, and that indeed it could be nobody
else, it was a good while before I could compose myself.
First, I was amazed how the creature got thither; and then, how he should just keep
about the place, and nowhere else; but as I was well satisfied it could be nobody but
honest Poll, I got over it; and holding out
my hand, and calling him by his name, "Poll," the sociable creature came to me,
and sat upon my thumb, as he used to do, and continued talking to me, "Poor Robin
Crusoe! and how did I come here? and where
had I been?" just as if he had been overjoyed to see me again; and so I carried
him home along with me.
I had now had enough of rambling to sea for some time, and had enough to do for many
days to sit still and reflect upon the danger I had been in.
I would have been very glad to have had my boat again on my side of the island; but I
knew not how it was practicable to get it about.
As to the east side of the island, which I had gone round, I knew well enough there
was no venturing that way; my very heart would shrink, and my very blood run chill,
but to think of it; and as to the other
side of the island, I did not know how it might be there; but supposing the current
ran with the same force against the shore at the east as it passed by it on the
other, I might run the same risk of being
driven down the stream, and carried by the island, as I had been before of being
carried away from it: so with these thoughts, I contented myself to be without
any boat, though it had been the product of
so many months' labour to make it, and of so many more to get it into the sea.
In this government of my temper I remained near a year; and lived a very sedate,
retired life, as you may well suppose; and my thoughts being very much composed as to
my condition, and fully comforted in
resigning myself to the dispositions of Providence, I thought I lived really very
happily in all things except that of society.
I improved myself in this time in all the mechanic exercises which my necessities put
me upon applying myself to; and I believe I should, upon occasion, have made a very
good carpenter, especially considering how few tools I had.
Besides this, I arrived at an unexpected perfection in my earthenware, and contrived
well enough to make them with a wheel, which I found infinitely easier and better;
because I made things round and shaped,
which before were filthy things indeed to look on.
But I think I was never more vain of my own performance, or more joyful for anything I
found out, than for my being able to make a tobacco-pipe; and though it was a very
ugly, clumsy thing when it was done, and
only burned red, like other earthenware, yet as it was hard and firm, and would draw
the smoke, I was exceedingly comforted with it, for I had been always used to smoke;
and there were pipes in the ship, but I
forgot them at first, not thinking there was tobacco in the island; and afterwards,
when I searched the ship again, I could not come at any pipes.
In my wicker-ware also I improved much, and made abundance of necessary baskets, as
well as my invention showed me; though not very handsome, yet they were such as were
very handy and convenient for laying things up in, or fetching things home.
For example, if I killed a goat abroad, I could hang it up in a tree, flay it, dress
it, and cut it in pieces, and bring it home in a basket; and the like by a turtle; I
could cut it up, take out the eggs and a
piece or two of the flesh, which was enough for me, and bring them home in a basket,
and leave the rest behind me.
Also, large deep baskets were the receivers of my corn, which I always rubbed out as
soon as it was dry and cured, and kept it in great baskets.
I began now to perceive my powder abated considerably; this was a want which it was
impossible for me to supply, and I began seriously to consider what I must do when I
should have no more powder; that is to say, how I should kill any goats.
I had, as is observed in the third year of my being here, kept a young kid, and bred
her up tame, and I was in hopes of getting a he-goat; but I could not by any means
bring it to pass, till my kid grew an old
goat; and as I could never find in my heart to kill her, she died at last of mere age.
But being now in the eleventh year of my residence, and, as I have said, my
ammunition growing low, I set myself to study some art to trap and snare the goats,
to see whether I could not catch some of
them alive; and particularly I wanted a she-goat great with young.
For this purpose I made snares to hamper them; and I do believe they were more than
once taken in them; but my tackle was not good, for I had no wire, and I always found
them broken and my bait devoured.
At length I resolved to try a pitfall; so I dug several large pits in the earth, in
places where I had observed the goats used to feed, and over those pits I placed
hurdles of my own making too, with a great
weight upon them; and several times I put ears of barley and dry rice without setting
the trap; and I could easily perceive that the goats had gone in and eaten up the
corn, for I could see the marks of their feet.
At length I set three traps in one night, and going the next morning I found them,
all standing, and yet the bait eaten and gone; this was very discouraging.
However, I altered my traps; and not to trouble you with particulars, going one
morning to see my traps, I found in one of them a large old he-goat; and in one of the
others three kids, a male and two females.
As to the old one, I knew not what to do with him; he was so fierce I durst not go
into the pit to him; that is to say, to bring him away alive, which was what I
wanted.
I could have killed him, but that was not my business, nor would it answer my end; so
I even let him out, and he ran away as if he had been frightened out of his wits.
But I did not then know what I afterwards learned, that hunger will tame a lion.
If I had let him stay three or four days without food, and then have carried him
some water to drink and then a little corn, he would have been as tame as one of the
kids; for they are mighty sagacious,
tractable creatures, where they are well used.
However, for the present I let him go, knowing no better at that time: then I went
to the three kids, and taking them one by one, I tied them with strings together, and
with some difficulty brought them all home.
It was a good while before they would feed; but throwing them some sweet corn, it
tempted them, and they began to be tame.
And now I found that if I expected to supply myself with goats' flesh, when I had
no powder or shot left, breeding some up tame was my only way, when, perhaps, I
might have them about my house like a flock of sheep.
But then it occurred to me that I must keep the tame from the wild, or else they would
always run wild when they grew up; and the only way for this was to have some enclosed
piece of ground, well fenced either with
hedge or pale, to keep them in so effectually, that those within might not
break out, or those without break in.
This was a great undertaking for one pair of hands yet, as I saw there was an
absolute necessity for doing it, my first work was to find out a proper piece of
ground, where there was likely to be
herbage for them to eat, water for them to drink, and cover to keep them from the sun.
Those who understand such enclosures will think I had very little contrivance when I
pitched upon a place very proper for all these (being a plain, open piece of meadow
land, or savannah, as our people call it in
the western colonies), which had two or three little drills of fresh water in it,
and at one end was very ***-I say, they will smile at my forecast, when I shall
tell them I began by enclosing this piece
of ground in such a manner that, my hedge or pale must have been at least two miles
about.
Nor was the madness of it so great as to the compass, for if it was ten miles about,
I was like to have time enough to do it in; but I did not consider that my goats would
be as wild in so much compass as if they
had had the whole island, and I should have so much room to chase them in that I should
never catch them.
My hedge was begun and carried on, I believe, about fifty yards when this
thought occurred to me; so I presently stopped short, and, for the beginning, I
resolved to enclose a piece of about one
hundred and fifty yards in length, and one hundred yards in breadth, which, as it
would maintain as many as I should have in any reasonable time, so, as my stock
increased, I could add more ground to my enclosure.
This was acting with some prudence, and I went to work with courage.
I was about three months hedging in the first piece; and, till I had done it, I
tethered the three kids in the best part of it, and used them to feed as near me as
possible, to make them familiar; and very
often I would go and carry them some ears of barley, or a handful of rice, and feed
them out of my hand; so that after my enclosure was finished and I let them
loose, they would follow me up and down, bleating after me for a handful of corn.
This answered my end, and in about a year and a half I had a flock of about twelve
goats, kids and all; and in two years more I had three-and-forty, besides several that
I took and killed for my food.
After that, I enclosed five several pieces of ground to feed them in, with little pens
to drive them to take them as I wanted, and gates out of one piece of ground into
another.
But this was not all; for now I not only had goat's flesh to feed on when I pleased,
but milk too-a thing which, indeed, in the beginning, I did not so much as think of,
and which, when it came into my thoughts,
was really an agreeable surprise, for now I set up my dairy, and had sometimes a gallon
or two of milk in a day.
And as Nature, who gives supplies of food to every creature, dictates even naturally
how to make use of it, so I, that had never milked a cow, much less a goat, or seen
butter or cheese made only when I was a
boy, after a great many essays and miscarriages, made both butter and cheese
at last, also salt (though I found it partly made to my hand by the heat of the
sun upon some of the rocks of the sea), and never wanted it afterwards.
How mercifully can our Creator treat His creatures, even in those conditions in
which they seemed to be overwhelmed in destruction!
How can He sweeten the bitterest providences, and give us cause to praise
Him for dungeons and prisons!
What a table was here spread for me in the wilderness, where I saw nothing at first
but to perish for hunger!
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CHAPTER XI FINDS PRINT OF MAN'S FOOT ON THE SAND
It would have made a Stoic smile to have seen me and my little family sit down to
dinner.
There was my majesty the prince and lord of the whole island; I had the lives of all my
subjects at my absolute command; I could hang, draw, give liberty, and take it away,
and no rebels among all my subjects.
Then, to see how like a king I dined, too, all alone, attended by my servants!
Poll, as if he had been my favourite, was the only person permitted to talk to me.
My dog, who was now grown old and crazy, and had found no species to multiply his
kind upon, sat always at my right hand; and two cats, one on one side of the table and
one on the other, expecting now and then a
bit from my hand, as a mark of especial favour.
But these were not the two cats which I brought on shore at first, for they were
both of them dead, and had been interred near my habitation by my own hand; but one
of them having multiplied by I know not
what kind of creature, these were two which I had preserved tame; whereas the rest ran
wild in the woods, and became indeed troublesome to me at last, for they would
often come into my house, and plunder me
too, till at last I was obliged to shoot them, and did kill a great many; at length
they left me.
With this attendance and in this plentiful manner I lived; neither could I be said to
want anything but society; and of that, some time after this, I was likely to have
too much.
I was something impatient, as I have observed, to have the use of my boat,
though very loath to run any more hazards; and therefore sometimes I sat contriving
ways to get her about the island, and at
other times I sat myself down contented enough without her.
But I had a strange uneasiness in my mind to go down to the point of the island
where, as I have said in my last ramble, I went up the hill to see how the shore lay,
and how the current set, that I might see
what I had to do: this inclination increased upon me every day, and at length
I resolved to travel thither by land, following the edge of the shore.
I did so; but had any one in England met such a man as I was, it must either have
frightened him, or raised a great deal of laughter; and as I frequently stood still
to look at myself, I could not but smile at
the notion of my travelling through Yorkshire with such an equipage, and in
such a dress. Be pleased to take a sketch of my figure,
as follows.
I had a great high shapeless cap, made of a goat's skin, with a flap hanging down
behind, as well to keep the sun from me as to shoot the rain off from running into my
neck, nothing being so hurtful in these
climates as the rain upon the flesh under the clothes.
I had a short jacket of goat's skin, the skirts coming down to about the middle of
the thighs, and a pair of open-kneed breeches of the same; the breeches were
made of the skin of an old he-goat, whose
hair hung down such a length on either side that, like pantaloons, it reached to the
middle of my legs; stockings and shoes I had none, but had made me a pair of
somethings, I scarce knew what to call
them, like buskins, to flap over my legs, and lace on either side like spatterdashes,
but of a most barbarous shape, as indeed were all the rest of my clothes.
I had on a broad belt of goat's skin dried, which I drew together with two thongs of
the same instead of buckles, and in a kind of a frog on either side of this, instead
of a sword and dagger, hung a little saw
and a hatchet, one on one side and one on the other.
I had another belt not so broad, and fastened in the same manner, which hung
over my shoulder, and at the end of it, under my left arm, hung two pouches, both
made of goat's skin too, in one of which hung my powder, in the other my shot.
At my back I carried my basket, and on my shoulder my gun, and over my head a great
clumsy, ugly, goat's-skin umbrella, but which, after all, was the most necessary
thing I had about me next to my gun.
As for my face, the colour of it was really not so mulatto-like as one might expect
from a man not at all careful of it, and living within nine or ten degrees of the
equinox.
My beard I had once suffered to grow till it was about a quarter of a yard long; but
as I had both scissors and razors sufficient, I had cut it pretty short,
except what grew on my upper lip, which I
had trimmed into a large pair of Mahometan whiskers, such as I had seen worn by some
Turks at Sallee, for the Moors did not wear such, though the Turks did; of these
moustachios, or whiskers, I will not say
they were long enough to hang my hat upon them, but they were of a length and shape
monstrous enough, and such as in England would have passed for frightful.
But all this is by-the-bye; for as to my figure, I had so few to observe me that it
was of no manner of consequence, so I say no more of that.
In this kind of dress I went my new journey, and was out five or six days.
I travelled first along the sea-shore, directly to the place where I first brought
my boat to an anchor to get upon the rocks; and having no boat now to take care of, I
went over the land a nearer way to the same
height that I was upon before, when, looking forward to the points of the rocks
which lay out, and which I was obliged to double with my boat, as is said above, I
was surprised to see the sea all smooth and
quiet-no rippling, no motion, no current, any more there than in other places.
I was at a strange loss to understand this, and resolved to spend some time in the
observing it, to see if nothing from the sets of the tide had occasioned it; but I
was presently convinced how it was-viz.
that the tide of ebb setting from the west, and joining with the current of waters from
some great river on the shore, must be the occasion of this current, and that,
according as the wind blew more forcibly
from the west or from the north, this current came nearer or went farther from
the shore; for, waiting thereabouts till evening, I went up to the rock again, and
then the tide of ebb being made, I plainly
saw the current again as before, only that it ran farther off, being near half a
league from the shore, whereas in my case it set close upon the shore, and hurried me
and my canoe along with it, which at another time it would not have done.
This observation convinced me that I had nothing to do but to observe the ebbing and
the flowing of the tide, and I might very easily bring my boat about the island
again; but when I began to think of putting
it in practice, I had such terror upon my spirits at the remembrance of the danger I
had been in, that I could not think of it again with any patience, but, on the
contrary, I took up another resolution,
which was more safe, though more laborious- and this was, that I would build, or rather
make, me another periagua or canoe, and so have one for one side of the island, and
one for the other.
You are to understand that now I had, as I may call it, two plantations in the island-
one my little fortification or tent, with the wall about it, under the rock, with the
cave behind me, which by this time I had
enlarged into several apartments or caves, one within another.
One of these, which was the driest and largest, and had a door out beyond my wall
or fortification-that is to say, beyond where my wall joined to the rock-was all
filled up with the large earthen pots of
which I have given an account, and with fourteen or fifteen great baskets, which
would hold five or six bushels each, where I laid up my stores of provisions,
especially my corn, some in the ear, cut
off short from the straw, and the other rubbed out with my hand.
As for my wall, made, as before, with long stakes or piles, those piles grew all like
trees, and were by this time grown so big, and spread so very much, that there was not
the least appearance, to any one's view, of any habitation behind them.
Near this dwelling of mine, but a little farther within the land, and upon lower
ground, lay my two pieces of corn land, which I kept duly cultivated and sowed, and
which duly yielded me their harvest in its
season; and whenever I had occasion for more corn, I had more land adjoining as fit
as that.
Besides this, I had my country seat, and I had now a tolerable plantation there also;
for, first, I had my little bower, as I called it, which I kept in repair-that is
to say, I kept the hedge which encircled it
in constantly fitted up to its usual height, the ladder standing always in the
inside.
I kept the trees, which at first were no more than stakes, but were now grown very
firm and tall, always cut, so that they might spread and grow thick and wild, and
make the more agreeable shade, which they did effectually to my mind.
In the middle of this I had my tent always standing, being a piece of a sail spread
over poles, set up for that purpose, and which never wanted any repair or renewing;
and under this I had made me a squab or
couch with the skins of the creatures I had killed, and with other soft things, and a
blanket laid on them, such as belonged to our sea-bedding, which I had saved; and a
great watch-coat to cover me.
And here, whenever I had occasion to be absent from my chief seat, I took up my
country habitation.
Adjoining to this I had my enclosures for my cattle, that is to say my goats, and I
had taken an inconceivable deal of pains to fence and enclose this ground.
I was so anxious to see it kept entire, lest the goats should break through, that I
never left off till, with infinite labour, I had stuck the outside of the hedge so
full of small stakes, and so near to one
another, that it was rather a pale than a hedge, and there was scarce room to put a
hand through between them; which afterwards, when those stakes grew, as they
all did in the next rainy season, made the
enclosure strong like a wall, indeed stronger than any wall.
This will testify for me that I was not idle, and that I spared no pains to bring
to pass whatever appeared necessary for my comfortable support, for I considered the
keeping up a breed of tame creatures thus
at my hand would be a living magazine of flesh, milk, butter, and cheese for me as
long as I lived in the place, if it were to be forty years; and that keeping them in my
reach depended entirely upon my perfecting
my enclosures to such a degree that I might be sure of keeping them together; which by
this method, indeed, I so effectually secured, that when these little stakes
began to grow, I had planted them so very
thick that I was forced to pull some of them up again.
In this place also I had my grapes growing, which I principally depended on for my
winter store of raisins, and which I never failed to preserve very carefully, as the
best and most agreeable dainty of my whole
diet; and indeed they were not only agreeable, but medicinal, wholesome,
nourishing, and refreshing to the last degree.
As this was also about half-way between my other habitation and the place where I had
laid up my boat, I generally stayed and lay here in my way thither, for I used
frequently to visit my boat; and I kept all
things about or belonging to her in very good order.
Sometimes I went out in her to divert myself, but no more hazardous voyages would
I go, scarcely ever above a stone's cast or two from the shore, I was so apprehensive
of being hurried out of my knowledge again
by the currents or winds, or any other accident.
But now I come to a new scene of my life.
It happened one day, about noon, going towards my boat, I was exceedingly
surprised with the print of a man's naked foot on the shore, which was very plain to
be seen on the sand.
I stood like one thunderstruck, or as if I had seen an apparition.
I listened, I looked round me, but I could hear nothing, nor see anything; I went up
to a rising ground to look farther; I went up the shore and down the shore, but it was
all one; I could see no other impression but that one.
I went to it again to see if there were any more, and to observe if it might not be my
fancy; but there was no room for that, for there was exactly the print of a foot-toes,
heel, and every part of a foot.
How it came thither I knew not, nor could I in the least imagine; but after innumerable
fluttering thoughts, like a man perfectly confused and out of myself, I came home to
my fortification, not feeling, as we say,
the ground I went on, but terrified to the last degree, looking behind me at every two
or three steps, mistaking every bush and tree, and fancying every stump at a
distance to be a man.
Nor is it possible to describe how many various shapes my affrighted imagination
represented things to me in, how many wild ideas were found every moment in my fancy,
and what strange, unaccountable whimsies came into my thoughts by the way.
When I came to my castle (for so I think I called it ever after this), I fled into it
like one pursued.
Whether I went over by the ladder, as first contrived, or went in at the hole in the
rock, which I had called a door, I cannot remember; no, nor could I remember the next
morning, for never frightened hare fled to
cover, or fox to earth, with more terror of mind than I to this retreat.
I slept none that night; the farther I was from the occasion of my fright, the greater
my apprehensions were, which is something contrary to the nature of such things, and
especially to the usual practice of all
creatures in fear; but I was so embarrassed with my own frightful ideas of the thing,
that I formed nothing but dismal imaginations to myself, even though I was
now a great way off.
Sometimes I fancied it must be the devil, and reason joined in with me in this
supposition, for how should any other thing in human shape come into the place?
Where was the vessel that brought them?
What marks were there of any other footstep?
And how was it possible a man should come there?
But then, to think that Satan should take human shape upon him in such a place, where
there could be no manner of occasion for it, but to leave the print of his foot
behind him, and that even for no purpose
too, for he could not be sure I should see it-this was an amusement the other way.
I considered that the devil might have found out abundance of other ways to have
terrified me than this of the single print of a foot; that as I lived quite on the
other side of the island, he would never
have been so simple as to leave a mark in a place where it was ten thousand to one
whether I should ever see it or not, and in the sand too, which the first surge of the
sea, upon a high wind, would have defaced entirely.
All this seemed inconsistent with the thing itself and with all the notions we usually
entertain of the subtlety of the devil.
Abundance of such things as these assisted to argue me out of all apprehensions of its
being the devil; and I presently concluded then that it must be some more dangerous
creature-viz. that it must be some of the
savages of the mainland opposite who had wandered out to sea in their canoes, and
either driven by the currents or by contrary winds, had made the island, and
had been on shore, but were gone away again
to sea; being as loath, perhaps, to have stayed in this desolate island as I would
have been to have had them.
While these reflections were rolling in my mind, I was very thankful in my thoughts
that I was so happy as not to be thereabouts at that time, or that they did
not see my boat, by which they would have
concluded that some inhabitants had been in the place, and perhaps have searched
farther for me.
Then terrible thoughts racked my imagination about their having found out my
boat, and that there were people here; and that, if so, I should certainly have them
come again in greater numbers and devour
me; that if it should happen that they should not find me, yet they would find my
enclosure, destroy all my corn, and carry away all my flock of tame goats, and I
should perish at last for mere want.
Thus my fear banished all my religious hope, all that former confidence in God,
which was founded upon such wonderful experience as I had had of His goodness; as
if He that had fed me by miracle hitherto
could not preserve, by His power, the provision which He had made for me by His
goodness.
I reproached myself with my laziness, that would not sow any more corn one year than
would just serve me till the next season, as if no accident could intervene to
prevent my enjoying the crop that was upon
the ground; and this I thought so just a reproof, that I resolved for the future to
have two or three years' corn beforehand; so that, whatever might come, I might not
perish for want of bread.
How strange a chequer-work of Providence is the life of man! and by what secret
different springs are the affections hurried about, as different circumstances
present!
To-day we love what to-morrow we hate; to- day we seek what to-morrow we shun; to-day
we desire what to-morrow we fear, nay, even tremble at the apprehensions of.
This was exemplified in me, at this time, in the most lively manner imaginable; for
I, whose only affliction was that I seemed banished from human society, that I was
alone, circumscribed by the boundless
ocean, cut off from mankind, and condemned to what I call silent life; that I was as
one whom Heaven thought not worthy to be numbered among the living, or to appear
among the rest of His creatures; that to
have seen one of my own species would have seemed to me a raising me from death to
life, and the greatest blessing that Heaven itself, next to the supreme blessing of
salvation, could bestow; I say, that I
should now tremble at the very apprehensions of seeing a man, and was
ready to sink into the ground at but the shadow or silent appearance of a man having
set his foot in the island.
Such is the uneven state of human life; and it afforded me a great many curious
speculations afterwards, when I had a little recovered my first surprise.
I considered that this was the station of life the infinitely wise and good
providence of God had determined for me; that as I could not foresee what the ends
of Divine wisdom might be in all this, so I
was not to dispute His sovereignty; who, as I was His creature, had an undoubted right,
by creation, to govern and dispose of me absolutely as He thought fit; and who, as I
was a creature that had offended Him, had
likewise a judicial right to condemn me to what punishment He thought fit; and that it
was my part to submit to bear His indignation, because I had sinned against
Him.
I then reflected, that as God, who was not only righteous but omnipotent, had thought
fit thus to punish and afflict me, so He was able to deliver me: that if He did not
think fit to do so, it was my unquestioned
duty to resign myself absolutely and entirely to His will; and, on the other
hand, it was my duty also to hope in Him, pray to Him, and quietly to attend to the
dictates and directions of His daily providence.
These thoughts took me up many hours, days, nay, I may say weeks and months: and one
particular effect of my cogitations on this occasion I cannot omit.
One morning early, lying in my bed, and filled with thoughts about my danger from
the appearances of savages, I found it discomposed me very much; upon which these
words of the Scripture came into my
thoughts, "Call upon Me in the day of trouble, and I will deliver thee, and thou
shalt glorify Me." Upon this, rising cheerfully out of my bed, my heart was not
only comforted, but I was guided and
encouraged to pray earnestly to God for deliverance: when I had done praying I took
up my Bible, and opening it to read, the first words that presented to me were,
"Wait on the Lord, and be of good cheer,
and He shall strengthen thy heart; wait, I say, on the Lord." It is impossible to
express the comfort this gave me.
In answer, I thankfully laid down the book, and was no more sad, at least on that
occasion.
In the middle of these cogitations, apprehensions, and reflections, it came
into my thoughts one day that all this might be a mere chimera of my own, and that
this foot might be the print of my own
foot, when I came on shore from my boat: this cheered me up a little, too, and I
began to persuade myself it was all a delusion; that it was nothing else but my
own foot; and why might I not come that way
from the boat, as well as I was going that way to the boat?
Again, I considered also that I could by no means tell for certain where I had trod,
and where I had not; and that if, at last, this was only the print of my own foot, I
had played the part of those fools who try
to make stories of spectres and apparitions, and then are frightened at
them more than anybody.
Now I began to take courage, and to peep abroad again, for I had not stirred out of
my castle for three days and nights, so that I began to starve for provisions; for
I had little or nothing within doors but
some barley-cakes and water; then I knew that my goats wanted to be milked too,
which usually was my evening diversion: and the poor creatures were in great pain and
inconvenience for want of it; and, indeed,
it almost spoiled some of them, and almost dried up their milk.
Encouraging myself, therefore, with the belief that this was nothing but the print
of one of my own feet, and that I might be truly said to start at my own shadow, I
began to go abroad again, and went to my
country house to milk my flock: but to see with what fear I went forward, how often I
looked behind me, how I was ready every now and then to lay down my basket and run for
my life, it would have made any one have
thought I was haunted with an evil conscience, or that I had been lately most
terribly frightened; and so, indeed, I had.
However, I went down thus two or three days, and having seen nothing, I began to
be a little bolder, and to think there was really nothing in it but my own
imagination; but I could not persuade
myself fully of this till I should go down to the shore again, and see this print of a
foot, and measure it by my own, and see if there was any similitude or fitness, that I
might be assured it was my own foot: but
when I came to the place, first, it appeared evidently to me, that when I laid
up my boat I could not possibly be on shore anywhere thereabouts; secondly, when I came
to measure the mark with my own foot, I found my foot not so large by a great deal.
Both these things filled my head with new imaginations, and gave me the vapours again
to the highest degree, so that I shook with cold like one in an ague; and I went home
again, filled with the belief that some man
or men had been on shore there; or, in short, that the island was inhabited, and I
might be surprised before I was aware; and what course to take for my security I knew
Oh, what ridiculous resolutions men take when possessed with fear!
It deprives them of the use of those means which reason offers for their relief.
The first thing I proposed to myself was, to throw down my enclosures, and turn all
my tame cattle wild into the woods, lest the enemy should find them, and then
frequent the island in prospect of the same
or the like ***: then the simple thing of digging up my two corn-fields, lest they
should find such a grain there, and still be prompted to frequent the island: then to
demolish my bower and tent, that they might
not see any vestiges of habitation, and be prompted to look farther, in order to find
out the persons inhabiting.
These were the subject of the first night's cogitations after I was come home again,
while the apprehensions which had so overrun my mind were fresh upon me, and my
head was full of vapours.
Thus, fear of danger is ten thousand times more terrifying than danger itself, when
apparent to the eyes; and we find the burden of anxiety greater, by much, than
the evil which we are anxious about: and
what was worse than all this, I had not that relief in this trouble that from the
resignation I used to practise I hoped to have.
I looked, I thought, like Saul, who complained not only that the Philistines
were upon him, but that God had forsaken him; for I did not now take due ways to
compose my mind, by crying to God in my
distress, and resting upon His providence, as I had done before, for my defence and
deliverance; which, if I had done, I had at least been more cheerfully supported under
this new surprise, and perhaps carried through it with more resolution.
This confusion of my thoughts kept me awake all night; but in the morning I fell
asleep; and having, by the amusement of my mind, been as it were tired, and my spirits
exhausted, I slept very soundly, and waked
much better composed than I had ever been before.
And now I began to think sedately; and, upon debate with myself, I concluded that
this island (which was so exceedingly pleasant, fruitful, and no farther from the
mainland than as I had seen) was not so
entirely abandoned as I might imagine; that although there were no stated inhabitants
who lived on the spot, yet that there might sometimes come boats off from the shore,
who, either with design, or perhaps never
but when they were driven by cross winds, might come to this place; that I had lived
there fifteen years now and had not met with the least shadow or figure of any
people yet; and that, if at any time they
should be driven here, it was probable they went away again as soon as ever they could,
seeing they had never thought fit to fix here upon any occasion; that the most I
could suggest any danger from was from any
casual accidental landing of straggling people from the main, who, as it was
likely, if they were driven hither, were here against their wills, so they made no
stay here, but went off again with all
possible speed; seldom staying one night on shore, lest they should not have the help
of the tides and daylight back again; and that, therefore, I had nothing to do but to
consider of some safe retreat, in case I should see any savages land upon the spot.
Now, I began sorely to repent that I had dug my cave so large as to bring a door
through again, which door, as I said, came out beyond where my fortification joined to
the rock: upon maturely considering this,
therefore, I resolved to draw me a second fortification, in the manner of a
semicircle, at a distance from my wall, just where I had planted a double row of
trees about twelve years before, of which I
made mention: these trees having been planted so thick before, they wanted but
few piles to be driven between them, that they might be thicker and stronger, and my
wall would be soon finished.
So that I had now a double wall; and my outer wall was thickened with pieces of
timber, old cables, and everything I could think of, to make it strong; having in it
seven little holes, about as big as I might put my arm out at.
In the inside of this I thickened my wall to about ten feet thick with continually
bringing earth out of my cave, and laying it at the foot of the wall, and walking
upon it; and through the seven holes I
contrived to plant the muskets, of which I took notice that I had got seven on shore
out of the ship; these I planted like my cannon, and fitted them into frames, that
held them like a carriage, so that I could
fire all the seven guns in two minutes' time; this wall I was many a weary month in
finishing, and yet never thought myself safe till it was done.
When this was done I stuck all the ground without my wall, for a great length every
way, as full with stakes or sticks of the osier-like wood, which I found so apt to
grow, as they could well stand; insomuch
that I believe I might set in near twenty thousand of them, leaving a pretty large
space between them and my wall, that I might have room to see an enemy, and they
might have no shelter from the young trees,
if they attempted to approach my outer wall.
Thus in two years' time I had a thick grove; and in five or six years' time I had
a wood before my dwelling, growing so monstrously thick and strong that it was
indeed perfectly impassable: and no men, of
what kind soever, could ever imagine that there was anything beyond it, much less a
habitation.
As for the way which I proposed to myself to go in and out (for I left no avenue), it
was by setting two ladders, one to a part of the rock which was low, and then broke
in, and left room to place another ladder
upon that; so when the two ladders were taken down no man living could come down to
me without doing himself mischief; and if they had come down, they were still on the
outside of my outer wall.
Thus I took all the measures human prudence could suggest for my own preservation; and
it will be seen at length that they were not altogether without just reason; though
I foresaw nothing at that time more than my mere fear suggested to me.
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CHAPTER XII A CAVE RETREAT
While this was doing, I was not altogether careless of my other affairs; for I had a
great concern upon me for my little herd of goats: they were not only a ready supply to
me on every occasion, and began to be
sufficient for me, without the expense of powder and shot, but also without the
fatigue of hunting after the wild ones; and I was loath to lose the advantage of them,
and to have them all to nurse up over again.
For this purpose, after long consideration, I could think of but two ways to preserve
them: one was, to find another convenient place to dig a cave underground, and to
drive them into it every night; and the
other was to enclose two or three little bits of land, remote from one another, and
as much concealed as I could, where I might keep about half-a-dozen young goats in each
place; so that if any disaster happened to
the flock in general, I might be able to raise them again with little trouble and
time: and this though it would require a good deal of time and labour, I thought was
the most rational design.
Accordingly, I spent some time to find out the most retired parts of the island; and I
pitched upon one, which was as private, indeed, as my heart could wish: it was a
little damp piece of ground in the middle
of the hollow and thick woods, where, as is observed, I almost lost myself once before,
endeavouring to come back that way from the eastern part of the island.
Here I found a clear piece of land, near three acres, so surrounded with woods that
it was almost an enclosure by nature; at least, it did not want near so much labour
to make it so as the other piece of ground I had worked so hard at.
I immediately went to work with this piece of ground; and in less than a month's time
I had so fenced it round that my flock, or herd, call it which you please, which were
not so wild now as at first they might be
supposed to be, were well enough secured in it: so, without any further delay, I
removed ten young she-goats and two he- goats to this piece, and when they were
there I continued to perfect the fence till
I had made it as secure as the other; which, however, I did at more leisure, and
it took me up more time by a great deal.
All this labour I was at the expense of, purely from my apprehensions on account of
the print of a man's foot; for as yet I had never seen any human creature come near the
island; and I had now lived two years under
this uneasiness, which, indeed, made my life much less comfortable than it was
before, as may be well imagined by any who know what it is to live in the constant
snare of the fear of man.
And this I must observe, with grief, too, that the discomposure of my mind had great
impression also upon the religious part of my thoughts; for the dread and terror of
falling into the hands of savages and
cannibals lay so upon my spirits, that I seldom found myself in a due temper for
application to my Maker; at least, not with the sedate calmness and resignation of soul
which I was wont to do: I rather prayed to
God as under great affliction and pressure of mind, surrounded with danger, and in
expectation every night of being murdered and devoured before morning; and I must
testify, from my experience, that a temper
of peace, thankfulness, love, and affection, is much the more proper frame
for prayer than that of terror and discomposure: and that under the dread of
mischief impending, a man is no more fit
for a comforting performance of the duty of praying to God than he is for a repentance
on a sick-bed; for these discomposures affect the mind, as the others do the body;
and the discomposure of the mind must
necessarily be as great a disability as that of the body, and much greater; praying
to God being properly an act of the mind, not of the body.
But to go on.
After I had thus secured one part of my little living stock, I went about the whole
island, searching for another private place to make such another deposit; when,
wandering more to the west point of the
island than I had ever done yet, and looking out to sea, I thought I saw a boat
upon the sea, at a great distance.
I had found a perspective glass or two in one of the ***'s chests, which I saved
out of our ship, but I had it not about me; and this was so remote that I could not
tell what to make of it, though I looked at
it till my eyes were not able to hold to look any longer; whether it was a boat or
not I do not know, but as I descended from the hill I could see no more of it, so I
gave it over; only I resolved to go no more
out without a perspective glass in my pocket.
When I was come down the hill to the end of the island, where, indeed, I had never been
before, I was presently convinced that the seeing the print of a man's foot was not
such a strange thing in the island as I
imagined: and but that it was a special providence that I was cast upon the side of
the island where the savages never came, I should easily have known that nothing was
more frequent than for the canoes from the
main, when they happened to be a little too far out at sea, to shoot over to that side
of the island for harbour: likewise, as they often met and fought in their canoes,
the victors, having taken any prisoners,
would bring them over to this shore, where, according to their dreadful customs, being
all cannibals, they would kill and eat them; of which hereafter.
When I was come down the hill to the shore, as I said above, being the SW. point of the
island, I was perfectly confounded and amazed; nor is it possible for me to
express the horror of my mind at seeing the
shore spread with skulls, hands, feet, and other bones of human bodies; and
particularly I observed a place where there had been a fire made, and a circle dug in
the earth, like a cockpit, where I supposed
the savage wretches had sat down to their human feastings upon the bodies of their
fellow-creatures.
I was so astonished with the sight of these things, that I entertained no notions of
any danger to myself from it for a long while: all my apprehensions were buried in
the thoughts of such a pitch of inhuman,
hellish brutality, and the horror of the degeneracy of human nature, which, though I
had heard of it often, yet I never had so near a view of before; in short, I turned
away my face from the horrid spectacle; my
stomach grew sick, and I was just at the point of fainting, when nature discharged
the disorder from my stomach; and having vomited with uncommon violence, I was a
little relieved, but could not bear to stay
in the place a moment; so I got up the hill again with all the speed I could, and
walked on towards my own habitation.
When I came a little out of that part of the island I stood still awhile, as amazed,
and then, recovering myself, I looked up with the utmost affection of my soul, and,
with a flood of tears in my eyes, gave God
thanks, that had cast my first lot in a part of the world where I was distinguished
from such dreadful creatures as these; and that, though I had esteemed my present
condition very miserable, had yet given me
so many comforts in it that I had still more to give thanks for than to complain
of: and this, above all, that I had, even in this miserable condition, been comforted
with the knowledge of Himself, and the hope
of His blessing: which was a felicity more than sufficiently equivalent to all the
misery which I had suffered, or could suffer.
In this frame of thankfulness I went home to my castle, and began to be much easier
now, as to the safety of my circumstances, than ever I was before: for I observed that
these wretches never came to this island in
search of what they could get; perhaps not seeking, not wanting, or not expecting
anything here; and having often, no doubt, been up the covered, *** part of it
without finding anything to their purpose.
I knew I had been here now almost eighteen years, and never saw the least footsteps of
human creature there before; and I might be eighteen years more as entirely concealed
as I was now, if I did not discover myself
to them, which I had no manner of occasion to do; it being my only business to keep
myself entirely concealed where I was, unless I found a better sort of creatures
than cannibals to make myself known to.
Yet I entertained such an abhorrence of the savage wretches that I have been speaking
of, and of the wretched, inhuman custom of their devouring and eating one another up,
that I continued pensive and sad, and kept
close within my own circle for almost two years after this: when I say my own circle,
I mean by it my three plantations-viz. my castle, my country seat (which I called my
bower), and my enclosure in the woods: nor
did I look after this for any other use than an enclosure for my goats; for the
aversion which nature gave me to these hellish wretches was such, that I was as
fearful of seeing them as of seeing the devil himself.
I did not so much as go to look after my boat all this time, but began rather to
think of making another; for I could not think of ever making any more attempts to
bring the other boat round the island to
me, lest I should meet with some of these creatures at sea; in which case, if I had
happened to have fallen into their hands, I knew what would have been my lot.
Time, however, and the satisfaction I had that I was in no danger of being discovered
by these people, began to wear off my uneasiness about them; and I began to live
just in the same composed manner as before,
only with this difference, that I used more caution, and kept my eyes more about me
than I did before, lest I should happen to be seen by any of them; and particularly, I
was more cautious of firing my gun, lest
any of them, being on the island, should happen to hear it.
It was, therefore, a very good providence to me that I had furnished myself with a
tame breed of goats, and that I had no need to hunt any more about the woods, or shoot
at them; and if I did catch any of them
after this, it was by traps and snares, as I had done before; so that for two years
after this I believe I never fired my gun once off, though I never went out without
it; and what was more, as I had saved three
pistols out of the ship, I always carried them out with me, or at least two of them,
sticking them in my goat-skin belt.
I also furbished up one of the great cutlasses that I had out of the ship, and
made me a belt to hang it on also; so that I was now a most formidable fellow to look
at when I went abroad, if you add to the
former description of myself the particular of two pistols, and a broadsword hanging at
my side in a belt, but without a scabbard.
Things going on thus, as I have said, for some time, I seemed, excepting these
cautions, to be reduced to my former calm, sedate way of living.
All these things tended to show me more and more how far my condition was from being
miserable, compared to some others; nay, to many other particulars of life which it
might have pleased God to have made my lot.
It put me upon reflecting how little repining there would be among mankind at
any condition of life if people would rather compare their condition with those
that were worse, in order to be thankful,
than be always comparing them with those which are better, to assist their
murmurings and complainings.
As in my present condition there were not really many things which I wanted, so
indeed I thought that the frights I had been in about these savage wretches, and
the concern I had been in for my own
preservation, had taken off the edge of my invention, for my own conveniences; and I
had dropped a good design, which I had once bent my thoughts upon, and that was to try
if I could not make some of my barley into
malt, and then try to brew myself some beer.
This was really a whimsical thought, and I reproved myself often for the simplicity of
it: for I presently saw there would be the want of several things necessary to the
making my beer that it would be impossible
for me to supply; as, first, casks to preserve it in, which was a thing that, as
I have observed already, I could never compass: no, though I spent not only many
days, but weeks, nay months, in attempting it, but to no purpose.
In the next place, I had no hops to make it keep, no yeast to make it work, no copper
or kettle to make it boil; and yet with all these things wanting, I verily believe, had
not the frights and terrors I was in about
the savages intervened, I had undertaken it, and perhaps brought it to pass too; for
I seldom gave anything over without accomplishing it, when once I had it in my
head to began it.
But my invention now ran quite another way; for night and day I could think of nothing
but how I might destroy some of the monsters in their cruel, bloody
entertainment, and if possible save the victim they should bring hither to destroy.
It would take up a larger volume than this whole work is intended to be to set down
all the contrivances I hatched, or rather brooded upon, in my thoughts, for the
destroying these creatures, or at least
frightening them so as to prevent their coming hither any more: but all this was
abortive; nothing could be possible to take effect, unless I was to be there to do it
myself: and what could one man do among
them, when perhaps there might be twenty or thirty of them together with their darts,
or their bows and arrows, with which they could shoot as true to a mark as I could
with my gun?
Sometimes I thought if digging a hole under the place where they made their fire, and
putting in five or six pounds of gunpowder, which, when they kindled their fire, would
consequently take fire, and blow up all
that was near it: but as, in the first place, I should be unwilling to waste so
much powder upon them, my store being now within the quantity of one barrel, so
neither could I be sure of its going off at
any certain time, when it might surprise them; and, at best, that it would do little
more than just blow the fire about their ears and fright them, but not sufficient to
make them forsake the place: so I laid it
aside; and then proposed that I would place myself in ambush in some convenient place,
with my three guns all double-loaded, and in the middle of their bloody ceremony let
fly at them, when I should be sure to kill
or wound perhaps two or three at every shot; and then falling in upon them with my
three pistols and my sword, I made no doubt but that, if there were twenty, I should
kill them all.
This fancy pleased my thoughts for some weeks, and I was so full of it that I often
dreamed of it, and, sometimes, that I was just going to let fly at them in my sleep.
I went so far with it in my imagination that I employed myself several days to find
out proper places to put myself in ambuscade, as I said, to watch for them,
and I went frequently to the place itself,
which was now grown more familiar to me; but while my mind was thus filled with
thoughts of revenge and a bloody putting twenty or thirty of them to the sword, as I
may call it, the horror I had at the place,
and at the signals of the barbarous wretches devouring one another, abetted my
malice.
Well, at length I found a place in the side of the hill where I was satisfied I might
securely wait till I saw any of their boats coming; and might then, even before they
would be ready to come on shore, convey
myself unseen into some thickets of trees, in one of which there was a hollow large
enough to conceal me entirely; and there I might sit and observe all their bloody
doings, and take my full aim at their
heads, when they were so close together as that it would be next to impossible that I
should miss my shot, or that I could fail wounding three or four of them at the first
shot.
In this place, then, I resolved to fulfil my design; and accordingly I prepared two
muskets and my ordinary fowling-piece.
The two muskets I loaded with a brace of slugs each, and four or five smaller
bullets, about the size of pistol bullets; and the fowling-piece I loaded with near a
handful of swan-shot of the largest size; I
also loaded my pistols with about four bullets each; and, in this posture, well
provided with ammunition for a second and third charge, I prepared myself for my
expedition.
After I had thus laid the scheme of my design, and in my imagination put it in
practice, I continually made my tour every morning to the top of the hill, which was
from my castle, as I called it, about three
miles or more, to see if I could observe any boats upon the sea, coming near the
island, or standing over towards it; but I began to tire of this hard duty, after I
had for two or three months constantly kept
my watch, but came always back without any discovery; there having not, in all that
time, been the least appearance, not only on or near the shore, but on the whole
ocean, so far as my eye or glass could reach every way.
As long as I kept my daily tour to the hill, to look out, so long also I kept up
the vigour of my design, and my spirits seemed to be all the while in a suitable
frame for so outrageous an execution as the
killing twenty or thirty naked savages, for an offence which I had not at all entered
into any discussion of in my thoughts, any farther than my passions were at first
fired by the horror I conceived at the
unnatural custom of the people of that country, who, it seems, had been suffered
by Providence, in His wise disposition of the world, to have no other guide than that
of their own abominable and vitiated
passions; and consequently were left, and perhaps had been so for some ages, to act
such horrid things, and receive such dreadful customs, as nothing but nature,
entirely abandoned by Heaven, and actuated
by some hellish degeneracy, could have run them into.
But now, when, as I have said, I began to be weary of the fruitless excursion which I
had made so long and so far every morning in vain, so my opinion of the action itself
began to alter; and I began, with cooler
and calmer thoughts, to consider what I was going to engage in; what authority or call
I had to pretend to be judge and executioner upon these men as criminals,
whom Heaven had thought fit for so many
ages to suffer unpunished to go on, and to be as it were the executioners of His
judgments one upon another; how far these people were offenders against me, and what
right I had to engage in the quarrel of
that blood which they shed promiscuously upon one another.
I debated this very often with myself thus: "How do I know what God Himself judges in
this particular case?
It is certain these people do not commit this as a crime; it is not against their
own consciences reproving, or their light reproaching them; they do not know it to be
an offence, and then commit it in defiance
of divine justice, as we do in almost all the sins we commit.
They think it no more a crime to kill a captive taken in war than we do to kill an
ox; or to eat human flesh than we do to eat mutton."
When I considered this a little, it followed necessarily that I was certainly
in the wrong; that these people were not murderers, in the sense that I had before
condemned them in my thoughts, any more
than those Christians were murderers who often put to death the prisoners taken in
battle; or more frequently, upon many occasions, put whole troops of men to the
sword, without giving quarter, though they threw down their arms and submitted.
In the next place, it occurred to me that although the usage they gave one another
was thus brutish and inhuman, yet it was really nothing to me: these people had done
me no injury: that if they attempted, or I
saw it necessary, for my immediate preservation, to fall upon them, something
might be said for it: but that I was yet out of their power, and they really had no
knowledge of me, and consequently no design
upon me; and therefore it could not be just for me to fall upon them; that this would
justify the conduct of the Spaniards in all their barbarities practised in America,
where they destroyed millions of these
people; who, however they were idolators and barbarians, and had several bloody and
barbarous rites in their customs, such as sacrificing human bodies to their idols,
were yet, as to the Spaniards, very
innocent people; and that the rooting them out of the country is spoken of with the
utmost abhorrence and detestation by even the Spaniards themselves at this time, and
by all other Christian nations of Europe,
as a mere butchery, a bloody and unnatural piece of cruelty, unjustifiable either to
God or man; and for which the very name of a Spaniard is reckoned to be frightful and
terrible, to all people of humanity or of
Christian compassion; as if the kingdom of Spain were particularly eminent for the
produce of a race of men who were without principles of tenderness, or the common
bowels of pity to the miserable, which is
reckoned to be a mark of generous temper in the mind.
These considerations really put me to a pause, and to a kind of a full stop; and I
began by little and little to be off my design, and to conclude I had taken wrong
measures in my resolution to attack the
savages; and that it was not my business to meddle with them, unless they first
attacked me; and this it was my business, if possible, to prevent: but that, if I
were discovered and attacked by them, I knew my duty.
On the other hand, I argued with myself that this really was the way not to deliver
myself, but entirely to ruin and destroy myself; for unless I was sure to kill every
one that not only should be on shore at
that time, but that should ever come on shore afterwards, if but one of them
escaped to tell their country-people what had happened, they would come over again by
thousands to revenge the death of their
fellows, and I should only bring upon myself a certain destruction, which, at
present, I had no manner of occasion for.
Upon the whole, I concluded that I ought, neither in principle nor in policy, one way
or other, to concern myself in this affair: that my business was, by all possible means
to conceal myself from them, and not to
leave the least sign for them to guess by that there were any living creatures upon
the island-I mean of human shape.
Religion joined in with this prudential resolution; and I was convinced now, many
ways, that I was perfectly out of my duty when I was laying all my bloody schemes for
the destruction of innocent creatures-I mean innocent as to me.
As to the crimes they were guilty of towards one another, I had nothing to do
with them; they were national, and I ought to leave them to the justice of God, who is
the Governor of nations, and knows how, by
national punishments, to make a just retribution for national offences, and to
bring public judgments upon those who offend in a public manner, by such ways as
best please Him.
This appeared so clear to me now, that nothing was a greater satisfaction to me
than that I had not been suffered to do a thing which I now saw so much reason to
believe would have been no less a sin than
that of wilful *** if I had committed it; and I gave most humble thanks on my
knees to God, that He had thus delivered me from blood-guiltiness; beseeching Him to
grant me the protection of His providence,
that I might not fall into the hands of the barbarians, or that I might not lay my
hands upon them, unless I had a more clear call from Heaven to do it, in defence of my
own life.
In this disposition I continued for near a year after this; and so far was I from
desiring an occasion for falling upon these wretches, that in all that time I never
once went up the hill to see whether there
were any of them in sight, or to know whether any of them had been on shore there
or not, that I might not be tempted to renew any of my contrivances against them,
or be provoked by any advantage that might
present itself to fall upon them; only this I did: I went and removed my boat, which I
had on the other side of the island, and carried it down to the east end of the
whole island, where I ran it into a little
cove, which I found under some high rocks, and where I knew, by reason of the
currents, the savages durst not, at least would not, come with their boats upon any
account whatever.
With my boat I carried away everything that I had left there belonging to her, though
not necessary for the bare going thither- viz. a mast and sail which I had made for
her, and a thing like an anchor, but which,
indeed, could not be called either anchor or grapnel; however, it was the best I
could make of its kind: all these I removed, that there might not be the least
shadow for discovery, or appearance of any
boat, or of any human habitation upon the island.
Besides this, I kept myself, as I said, more retired than ever, and seldom went
from my cell except upon my constant employment, to milk my she-goats, and
manage my little flock in the wood, which,
as it was quite on the other part of the island, was out of danger; for certain, it
is that these savage people, who sometimes haunted this island, never came with any
thoughts of finding anything here, and
consequently never wandered off from the coast, and I doubt not but they might have
been several times on shore after my apprehensions of them had made me cautious,
as well as before.
Indeed, I looked back with some horror upon the thoughts of what my condition would
have been if I had chopped upon them and been discovered before that; when, naked
and unarmed, except with one gun, and that
loaded often only with small shot, I walked everywhere, peeping and peering about the
island, to see what I could get; what a surprise should I have been in if, when I
discovered the print of a man's foot, I
had, instead of that, seen fifteen or twenty savages, and found them pursuing me,
and by the swiftness of their running no possibility of my escaping them!
The thoughts of this sometimes sank my very soul within me, and distressed my mind so
much that I could not soon recover it, to think what I should have done, and how I
should not only have been unable to resist
them, but even should not have had presence of mind enough to do what I might have
done; much less what now, after so much consideration and preparation, I might be
able to do.
Indeed, after serious thinking of these things, I would be melancholy, and
sometimes it would last a great while; but I resolved it all at last into thankfulness
to that Providence which had delivered me
from so many unseen dangers, and had kept me from those mischiefs which I could have
no way been the agent in delivering myself from, because I had not the least notion of
any such thing depending, or the least supposition of its being possible.
This renewed a contemplation which often had come into my thoughts in former times,
when first I began to see the merciful dispositions of Heaven, in the dangers we
run through in this life; how wonderfully
we are delivered when we know nothing of it; how, when we are in a quandary as we
call it, a doubt or hesitation whether to go this way or that way, a secret hint
shall direct us this way, when we intended
to go that way: nay, when sense, our own inclination, and perhaps business has
called us to go the other way, yet a strange impression upon the mind, from we
know not what springs, and by we know not
what power, shall overrule us to go this way; and it shall afterwards appear that
had we gone that way, which we should have gone, and even to our imagination ought to
have gone, we should have been ruined and lost.
Upon these and many like reflections I afterwards made it a certain rule with me,
that whenever I found those secret hints or pressings of mind to doing or not doing
anything that presented, or going this way
or that way, I never failed to obey the secret dictate; though I knew no other
reason for it than such a pressure or such a hint hung upon my mind.
I could give many examples of the success of this conduct in the course of my life,
but more especially in the latter part of my inhabiting this unhappy island; besides
many occasions which it is very likely I
might have taken notice of, if I had seen with the same eyes then that I see with
now.
But it is never too late to be wise; and I cannot but advise all considering men,
whose lives are attended with such extraordinary incidents as mine, or even
though not so extraordinary, not to slight
such secret intimations of Providence, let them come from what invisible intelligence
they will.
That I shall not discuss, and perhaps cannot account for; but certainly they are
a proof of the converse of spirits, and a secret communication between those embodied
and those unembodied, and such a proof as
can never be withstood; of which I shall have occasion to give some remarkable
instances in the remainder of my solitary residence in this dismal place.
I believe the reader of this will not think it strange if I confess that these
anxieties, these constant dangers I lived in, and the concern that was now upon me,
put an end to all invention, and to all the
contrivances that I had laid for my future accommodations and conveniences.
I had the care of my safety more now upon my hands than that of my food.
I cared not to drive a nail, or chop a stick of wood now, for fear the noise I
might make should be heard: much less would I fire a gun for the same reason: and above
all I was intolerably uneasy at making any
fire, lest the smoke, which is visible at a great distance in the day, should betray
me.
For this reason, I removed that part of my business which required fire, such as
burning of pots and pipes, &c., into my new apartment in the woods; where, after I had
been some time, I found, to my unspeakable
consolation, a mere natural cave in the earth, which went in a vast way, and where,
I daresay, no savage, had he been at the mouth of it, would be so hardy as to
venture in; nor, indeed, would any man
else, but one who, like me, wanted nothing so much as a safe retreat.
The mouth of this hollow was at the bottom of a great rock, where, by mere accident (I
would say, if I did not see abundant reason to ascribe all such things now to
Providence), I was cutting down some thick
branches of trees to make charcoal; and before I go on I must observe the reason of
my making this charcoal, which was this-I was afraid of making a smoke about my
habitation, as I said before; and yet I
could not live there without baking my bread, cooking my meat, &c.; so I contrived
to burn some wood here, as I had seen done in England, under turf, till it became
chark or dry coal: and then putting the
fire out, I preserved the coal to carry home, and perform the other services for
which fire was wanting, without danger of smoke.
But this is by-the-bye.
While I was cutting down some wood here, I perceived that, behind a very thick branch
of low brushwood or underwood, there was a kind of hollow place: I was curious to look
in it; and getting with difficulty into the
mouth of it, I found it was pretty large, that is to say, sufficient for me to stand
upright in it, and perhaps another with me: but I must confess to you that I made more
haste out than I did in, when looking
farther into the place, and which was perfectly dark, I saw two broad shining
eyes of some creature, whether devil or man I knew not, which twinkled like two stars;
the dim light from the cave's mouth shining directly in, and making the reflection.
However, after some pause I recovered myself, and began to call myself a thousand
fools, and to think that he that was afraid to see the devil was not fit to live twenty
years in an island all alone; and that I
might well think there was nothing in this cave that was more frightful than myself.
Upon this, plucking up my courage, I took up a firebrand, and in I rushed again, with
the stick flaming in my hand: I had not gone three steps in before I was almost as
frightened as before; for I heard a very
loud sigh, like that of a man in some pain, and it was followed by a broken noise, as
of words half expressed, and then a deep sigh again.
I stepped back, and was indeed struck with such a surprise that it put me into a cold
sweat, and if I had had a hat on my head, I will not answer for it that my hair might
not have lifted it off.
But still plucking up my spirits as well as I could, and encouraging myself a little
with considering that the power and presence of God was everywhere, and was
able to protect me, I stepped forward
again, and by the light of the firebrand, holding it up a little over my head, I saw
lying on the ground a monstrous, frightful old he-goat, just making his will, as we
say, and gasping for life, and, dying, indeed, of mere old age.
I stirred him a little to see if I could get him out, and he essayed to get up, but
was not able to raise himself; and I thought with myself he might even lie
there-for if he had frightened me, so he
would certainly fright any of the savages, if any of them should be so hardy as to
come in there while he had any life in him.
I was now recovered from my surprise, and began to look round me, when I found the
cave was but very small-that is to say, it might be about twelve feet over, but in no
manner of shape, neither round nor square,
no hands having ever been employed in making it but those of mere Nature.
I observed also that there was a place at the farther side of it that went in
further, but was so low that it required me to creep upon my hands and knees to go into
it, and whither it went I knew not; so,
having no candle, I gave it over for that time, but resolved to go again the next day
provided with candles and a tinder-box, which I had made of the lock of one of the
muskets, with some wildfire in the pan.
Accordingly, the next day I came provided with six large candles of my own making
(for I made very good candles now of goat's tallow, but was hard set for candle-wick,
using sometimes rags or rope-yarn, and
sometimes the dried rind of a weed like nettles); and going into this low place I
was obliged to creep upon all-fours as I have said, almost ten yards-which, by the
way, I thought was a venture bold enough,
considering that I knew not how far it might go, nor what was beyond it.
When I had got through the strait, I found the roof rose higher up, I believe near
twenty feet; but never was such a glorious sight seen in the island, I daresay, as it
was to look round the sides and roof of
this vault or cave-the wall reflected a hundred thousand lights to me from my two
candles.
What it was in the rock-whether diamonds or any other precious stones, or gold which I
rather supposed it to be-I knew not.
The place I was in was a most delightful cavity, or grotto, though perfectly dark;
the floor was dry and level, and had a sort of a small loose gravel upon it, so that
there was no nauseous or venomous creature
to be seen, neither was there any damp or wet on the sides or roof.
The only difficulty in it was the entrance- which, however, as it was a place of
security, and such a retreat as I wanted; I thought was a convenience; so that I was
really rejoiced at the discovery, and
resolved, without any delay, to bring some of those things which I was most anxious
about to this place: particularly, I resolved to bring hither my magazine of
powder, and all my spare arms-viz. two
fowling-pieces-for I had three in all-and three muskets-for of them I had eight in
all; so I kept in my castle only five, which stood ready mounted like pieces of
cannon on my outmost fence, and were ready also to take out upon any expedition.
Upon this occasion of removing my ammunition I happened to open the barrel of
powder which I took up out of the sea, and which had been wet, and I found that the
water had penetrated about three or four
inches into the powder on every side, which caking and growing hard, had preserved the
inside like a kernel in the shell, so that I had near sixty pounds of very good powder
in the centre of the cask.
This was a very agreeable discovery to me at that time; so I carried all away
thither, never keeping above two or three pounds of powder with me in my castle, for
fear of a surprise of any kind; I also
carried thither all the lead I had left for bullets.
I fancied myself now like one of the ancient giants who were said to live in
caves and holes in the rocks, where none could come at them; for I persuaded myself,
while I was here, that if five hundred
savages were to hunt me, they could never find me out-or if they did, they would not
venture to attack me here.
The old goat whom I found expiring died in the mouth of the cave the next day after I
made this discovery; and I found it much easier to dig a great hole there, and throw
him in and cover him with earth, than to
drag him out; so I interred him there, to prevent offence to my nose.
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