[tvd - Ew] caroline & ephram - Suicide

Yeah but everybody messes up Reid. Man, this was bigger then just me. I didn't even know who I was anymore. So it didn't seem that a big deal to stop being anything. It's sick, isn't it? I don't even know what I'm suppose to do now. What you wanna do? I wanna make her feel like just a half what I'm feeling. It's like I hate her. I hate her. I never thought I could have that much hate in my body. But now it's like the only thing I'll ever feel. Don't hate her Ephram. How could she do this to me? How could she do this to anybody expecially to someone she supposely love. She did love you. No. They doing anything they can. No, she couldn't have. She did not love me. If she love she would not have been able to do it. You don't understand how frighten she was. She didn't know what to do or where to go. What are you talking about? I wish I've known you're going through all of this. Yeah, you wouldn't know because I never would have told you. Why? Don't be stupid man. Normally, you ask someone how they're doing, and they tell you. Except I never told anyone the truth. I never meant to mess things up this bad. I'm okay. What can I do? I can handle myself. I didn't want people to worry. So I got used to people thinking that I was fine. Then I got used to people leaving me alone. And then I was. Woke up one morning, I was completely alone. How you holding up? Good. You know I'm a little freaked out. But other then that all I really feel is guilty. Guilty why? Because if anybody should have seen this coming it should have been me. The point is: I think it makes a big difference knowing that there's at least one person in the world that has your back.... no matter what. I mean, it doesn't have to be the same person for your entire life but everybody deserves at least one someone. I should have been there. Why? Because it's up to you to save everybody? No, because we were friends. Did I miss something? Is that what you are saying? Ephram listen, you can't put all this on yourself. I should have recognize it. It's not your fault, Ephram. That's my fault Ephram. I put myself there. Out of pride, stupidy, probably both. But I did it to myself. I bet you've got a picture in your mind about everything is going to turn ot for you. what you're gonna do, who you're gonna be with. But there are windows that don't stay open forever. Missed opportunities that never come back. Because she came to me first and she asked for my help. I asked her to leave and she left. She did love you, Ephram. You have to know. And waiting for them doesn't mean you're strong or even right. You've been through so much pain I didn't want you to go through any more. Leave me alone. Sometimes it means you're just afraid to change the picture. What happen? Is she okay? Like you care. She's drunk? As a stunk. It happens to anyone. You know what I've learn? Life is too short. I love you. Is it my turn now? Cause I love you too. I know it then. I know it know. I'll know it always... you're it. My one. You always have been.