Wasn't Alive

Couldn't cause I wasn't alive inside you turned my life upside down and shook it at the seams I'm so angry chasing dreams running from a dope feign writing to cope see walk in three thirty Mom homework no worry hurry gotta scurry to the street be quick on your feet sell drugs to eat thoughts rushing wondering why there's no sleep I'm dying slowly each word that I speak get beat so bad gotta stand hurts to take a seat scared of what will be mixed in my food Halloween trick or treat one true friend knows the pain I'm feeling shivering worlds to heavy to be lifting I'm done benching I'm no different than what I always envisioned steady dishing lyrics so people will hear em understand it life goes on don't fear *** stand the *** up be strong gotta live long legacy pass it on stack cash pass it on to love it'll always last on but I was white trash I refuse to finish last kiss my *** as I skip past the *** that made me that thinking back I like to crack the Jack sip on that start to rap hoping someone shatters glass so you'll slip on that so sick to my stomach I can't stand you make me wanna vomit watching yelling stop it twisting my arm trying to pop it outta socket I'm grown now blown off like a mother *** rocket told you *** I got this all became so clear looking in the mirror weird no reflection my protection from your sick obsession messing with my mind testing this blessing I'm gonna shine soon your chest I'll be pressing with your stress and better yours than mine you can have it back I've got my rhymes thanks for that but I did your crimes so many times for dimes now you pay the time I'm ready to climb out from behind what I hide along time ago I died inside so hey Ashes to ashes dust to dust in the wind you can hear us Infantry Soldiers we are coming running gunning no one can hold of fold either one of us waking colder than cold I've done told ya one day I'd lift this bolder up off my shoulder pull my paper from the holster tear up the east coast then head out west not to boast I'm so high in the sky bloody nose heart beating outta my chest no one knows yet let it hit them then I bet they regret their disrespect standing next to the greatest I'll invest and laugh at the haters I'm darker than Vader.......... hotter than the equator Faze and I passing it back and forth like hot potato it's our choice to force our way through the door of the game to invade it can you say we made it get paid the payment the light starts fading rising I'm evading coming from my sleep I'm realizing this is no longer just a dream man