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Who doesn't like to be flattered? You're beautiful! You're extremely charming! You smell good! You get it? That gets to me. DJ, Get rolling with the music because I'm ready! Look, I always had the idea to be an artist. I always wanted to be an artist. Get it? That´s it, my work started at Carnival, as a caricature, playing in the bands. And that is how I began, being a caricature, those things, you know, I continued improving, and today I'm a transformist. In fact, I worked in the midst of the GLS movement, and there I did a show for fun, and it ended up with people liking it. You know, in the end I lost my job, I was the manager of a club, and I said to myself: now I'm gonna start to do shows, do what I like. I always enjoyed art, it's in my blood, I always liked it. My father, I remember watching the "Silvio Santos Program" with him on TV, I don't remember which channel it was on, my dad put together at home for me, ( I was the youngest son), a show with microphones and all those things. As a child, I always liked art. I always worked with art. Well, in the beginning, my aunt was the one who taught me to perform, I didn't even know how to perform. I went on learning like that, little by little, and then I did it because I really liked it, today it´s my profession. It's not just the spotlight or the glamour, yeah? It's not just for fun, it's really a job. I take it really seriously because I survive with my shows. The best part of the show is when the opening music plays, and I step on to the stage. Every day is a different day, yeah? Each day is a different emotion, each day is a happening. When the opening music starts and I go backstage and then step out onto the stage, it's different each day. I love the audience reaction. Hum, I don't know, I feel great doing my work! When I'm making up, the atmosphere in the dressing-room, my colleagues, you know, it's really pleasant. A drag-queen is somebody who imitates singers such as Britney Spears, Madonna, Cher, this is a drag-queen but transformists, that's my case, I transform myself into a woman. I can do an Alcione, a Shirley Bassey, a Diana Ross, this is a transformist. Why a Transformist? because I'm a man that turns into a woman. I don't have any ***, I don't have big thighs, and I have nothing artificial, which means I'm not a transvestite. I am a transformist. The caricature is a funny person who plays an ugly character to make the audience laugh. He is a comedian, a caricature is a comedian. Pay attention! Quick! Think very quickly! Which TV presenter do I look like? Tell me, you can tell me! It's obvious! Xuxa!! I'm Xuxa! Okay, forget it! What do I give, what do I give to this woman, If I touch her she says "no", If I give her money she says "no" --- repeat --- Move over, dude! Move over, man, it's my turn to sing, Don't put your hands on my guitar! Take your hands off! So, I came from a theatre school, and then I was a clown, and that is the reason why they respect me for all these years! ***, it's twenty years! This thing, transformism, came afterwards, but before, I did theatre, I was a clown. No, I just graduated, I'm a biologist, and I'm trying exams for the Magé Council, I am trying the entrance test to be a teacher in the state of Rio de Janeiro, I'm still studying, but I have had experience as a teacher during my probation period, and as a researcher, I worked at the National Museum of Brazil, in Quinta da Boa Vista. I don't live only from this, you know, I work with tourism, I'm an international agent, I work in a big company in Rio de Janeiro, so showbiz is extra money, you know, I earn it to invest in other things. Before this my new job, I was the manager of a massage parlour, I was really enjoying life. Today, in my present job, I have three different activities. In addition to doing shows, I have three more activities, it doesn't matter, I manage to split the professional Marcio from the professional Tara Wells. I am able to separate and to administrate everything very well. Hey man, my family didn't know, because when Samara appeared, I wasn't living with my mother, but now I came back to her, and she accepted that easily. She is great, really great! It's really good this happened in my life. she adores Samara, my father also, the whole family accepted, everybody, because I'm gay and I chased after my ideas before, today my family depends a lot on me. Therefore, there is great respect, and in addition to doing shows, being gay, the first thing that counts is the son who is respected by everybody. My work, in truth, incredible as it may seem, is inspired by my family, by my mother, by my daughter, by my sisters. I think that is where I was able to find the foundation and the energy for me to be today who I am. Hey, for me, my family is everything. My mother is everything. They have given me energy. I remember one time, when I started a show, it was my first show, in Volta Redonda the town where my mother lives, and a poof who was doing the show with me, Kleber was assaulted, they stole everything from him. I remember the show was at midnight, and at seven o'clock at night my mother was running around the entire neighborhood trying to find out who had a wig, because there was no shop open in the city, chasing after a wig, tights, everything so that I could do my first show. So after that, I said: "Oh, ***!", sorry", "Fudge", my family is my base and my foundation. You can build a house, but one day it can fall down. My family were the ones who laid the concrete foundation, everything. So, it is because of this that my life is what it is and I am who I am today. I've got no problem whatsoever with my family. Today, my parents have passed away, but my mother knew, my sisters know and my nephews come here to watch me. They consider it an artistic job. I have no problems with my family, it is not necessary to hide from my family what I do. Now some people in my family know!!! of course since I was a child..... when you're gay you are born like that, you don't have this thing, nobody tells you, you're just born like that. Since I was a child I knew that I was, because I loved to play with my sisters, in spite of the fact that I had many balls given to me for my birthdays and they gave me boys things, I preferred to play with the kitchen toys with my sisters. I discovered my sexuality with my uncle, when I was still quite young. I think I was about six to seven years old, I had sex with him, but I know that I looked for that. Don't tell me about ***, that it was him that looked for it, because I know that it was me who looked for it. I know everything about the situation. I looked for it. So, you already know! So, the family... there was a rendez vous, complete confusion because the family discovered, caught. So they discovered my sexuality. So they started policing everything, trying to correct me, but it didn't work out. You are born gay. I'm something like... I'm from a family where my father used to do recitals, he received people at home. I like to have friends, my friends, I think that "friend" is a small but very strong word. Although, today, I think that humanity has really forgotten this. No, I sometimes don't like a certain discrimination by the hetero public against our work. We are only able to show our work in the ghettos. And you always have, when you start working in television, you always have to direct your work to very silly humor. I think the following: I think there is a lot of discrimination because we are gay but we have a lot of talent. You see humor TV shows that are horrible, and we have here Rose Bombom, Suzy Brasil and others who could be in the place of many people! What use is it showing a woman with a beautiful body saying "ahhhhh!" and she puts her finger in her mouth to appear humoristic! This pisses us off! Even when the TV artists come to the clubs and they see our work, they are impressed! But why? Why can't we work for TV Globo? Because we are gay? Because we admit to being gay? Because in TV Globo there are many people that don't accept gays! Only because we have ´come out´, we have our *** option defined, we cannot work like just anybody, we are much more talented than many straight people. I am sure that if you put five gay artists from the Rio de Janeiro nightlife in a TV program for sure they will produce a much bigger audience than many normal comedy programs. In this world where we live by shows, everything is difficult, nothing is easy for us. We don't have media, we don't have space, and wherever you go, if you say "I am a TV Globo artist" you have all the doors opened. When you go and you say "I'm a drag-queen and I work in the nightlife", they ask WHO? Nobody knows you! Gay people are very demanding, heteros are not. If I say "aahhhh!", the audience die laughing! I like hetero shows very much but there still exists a lot of prejudice you know? In my case, Desirée and I, we are always together, in the car from here to Niterói, I take her, I live there. So, we pass by various police blitzes, and the policemen are prejudiced, which should not be the case, because a policeman is our security, if they are taking the *** out of us, who else won't? I think it is a great lack of respect, there still a lot of hetero prejudice against gays. There was a time, I do a number in my show with a huge black *** (this big) from England, it was given to me by a friend. Hey, when you the do the number and you take out that black *** which looks real the people will laugh. The other day I was on the bus, with only enough money to pay my ticket one-way. I was on my way to a show and there was a police blitz on the bus, I had a large handbag, and a baseball cap on, I was calm, but dressed like that one has a look on the face rather like an outcast, yeah? You know, quiet and tense, because they started opening all the people's bags and asking them to show their ID's. I became tense, and I think that the policeman began to feel this, and asked me to open my bag. I opened it, and the *** was there wrapped up to avoid any problems!! he said: "What´s this?", and I said: "It's for my work, I'm a comedian, I'm gonna use it in my show." He said: "Can you open it please?", and then, you know, I showed him the *** inside the bag, he said: "Let me have a look!". I was already *** up, so I took the *** and showed him... The whole deal... I thought they would laugh,. Everybody in the bus was shocked. Thinking something like: "Oh, God, how could this thin boy handle all this??" Nobody imagined that it was something for a show. And that was a pain!!, I had to put up with it because I was out of money. And the jokes, the jeerings, you know? The concept of the night nowadays is that people go to nightclubs to not meet people and get to know their character, isn't it? The nightclub has changed into a kind of butchers shop, only muscle and body. We used to have great nightclubs in Rio de Janeiro, but today it is limited to Le Boy which dominates the scene, its manipulative there is no competition. Competition is a good thing it means you must must prove yourself. I am from the suburbs. It happens like this. You see many gays who go from Madureira (West Zone) to Le Boy(South Zone) and when they arrive there they assume a position as if they are actually from the South Zone.Their behavior is different at 1140 Club in the West Zone, or here, at Cabaret Casanova, where they feel at ease, at Le Boy they enter and `put on a kind of mask`, its to do with the neighborhood. The gay gets off the bus two stops before the one he wants and walks instead of getting off the bus in front of the club its very silly, like, the person buys one drink and spends the whole night with the same glass in his hands to give the impression that he has been drinking all night long, he is spending money, he has money. That's why we joke a lot about the question of neighborhood. The public here in Madureira, Jacarepaguá (West Zone) are people rich in personality, some are financially rich, but they are modest and great hosts, however, the people from the South Zone are also marvelous, but you must perform there even better than you would in Madureira, really much better. There are numbers that I do here that I would not do in Copacabana. A poof who lives in the suburbs is cute! they are lively, they are happy, when they leave their houses the people scream! the people revel and the poofs reciprocate! They get on the bus as if they are getting into a limousine! Yes, my darling, they buy a ticket and they feel as if they are the owners of the bus, they choose a place! The poof never reacts in the same way a normal human does. So you think a poof says "Bye!" like this? No, a poof says "Bye!" like this! Yeah, you know? A poof doesn't just speak, she dances Olodum, it´s different, you know? She doesn't gesticulate, she has an epileptic fit at each word, that's it! Poofs are expressive, you know? My day-to-day is, wake up, check my messages all the shows people ring to book, and then I go to the kitchen and make food on the run, I have a partner for 17 years, we live together for 17 years, and I do the food for us and sometimes he does the food . I throw clothes in the washing machine, I run to the phone, book my shows, I go to the seamstress, all on the run, and I get ready to go out. Look, I'm very inspired by the things from Broadway, the musicals, I think they're awesome, these things. Well, I think they're beautiful, the shows... yeah, they have their glamour. I like, I like, I love to show myself off. I adore it. Whenever I'm not working, I feel sad, I feel very bad. On the day when I don't receive applause, I leave the stage like really bad. I always have to receive ovations. I love the stage, I really love the stage, I love to be there performing, all that magic. Because it's a fantasy, you get made up, you get dressed. Normally I don't get made up nor do I dress as a woman, I use normal men's clothes, but when I get here, it's the magic of the dressing room, and the public who like you, who kiss you, give you presents. I've already been a labourer / As strong as an ox / Very very macho / a cruel angel / I was always so sexy / a promiscuous boy / extremely beautiful / more than Superman! / But something happened / The man in me died / I almost fainted / and then I came out! / Today I'm gay / Beautiful, light and free / Yeah, I used to be a hooligan / Today I just fake it! / I'm almost a woman / I even get PMT / I give a great *** / and my name is Elizabeth / And I'm going back / To be gay is to be apt / *** is so bad / And *** is good for me. Look, man, to be gay, in truth, is to have capacity to admit before the world to admit that you feel what you really are! ***, never again! ***, I'm here! So I didn't have the energy to fight for anything and then, I heard on the Xuxa Show the song "Lua de Cristal", for me, it became a hymn. After that, I fell in love with it. Yeah, it's something like that: "Crystal moon, makes me dream, this is my star, I know how to shine!" Because it's true, isn't it? �