A Beautiful Revert Story - Islam had basically proven to me that jesus was a prophet

Salam Alaikum so I wish to share my revert story. And it's obviously complicated. Well not necessarily some people have very simple stories mine is quite complicated I think. I don't want to make it too long. So I am going to keep it as short as I can. So I grew up in South Africa the rainbow nation. And I grew up in an area where we were surrounded by a lot of Muslims and they were mosques in the area as well. So I used to hear the call to prayer and probably that is my first interaction I would say probably with Muslims is the call to prayer and living in an area where they were Muslims. So I used to see how you know how they dressed and I grew up as a Catholic in a very Catholic family we were brought up with all the different articles of faith in Catholicism. So I used to go to church every Sunday. I did my Holy Communion I used to go to Sunday School class. And I used to see mother Mary she used to you know they they have statues in the church the mother Mary and photos of course of mother Mary and she always used to wear scarf on a head and I noticed that about the Muslims the Muslim woman they used to wear scarves. So I used to think that they are more pious than we are because they are observing a part of the religion that has been so-called updated within the Catholic Church but I I did there the Muslims as more pious than the Christians. So I admire them for that and I remember one thing specifically that really stood out in my mind was one day when we went to the beach I saw a Muslim girl going for a swim and she was dressed in a and she had a scarf on. And she went in the water and she was so happy but she she kept on wearing her clothes and she was very pious dressed and I was very impressed with that and I thought wow they are really committed to their religion in every sphere of their lives no matter what they do they are always with Allah. Well I never said Allah because I I never called him Allah at that stage. There was God you're always thinking about God in everything that they do. And I really had admiration for the Muslims. So one time as well I had this doll I was given a doll as a gift. I don't remember how old I was but maybe like eight years old I guess nine years old and I actually made a hijab for her. I dressed her in the hijab because I thought she looks so beautiful. And yeah I mean these were signs you know that that that I was going to be a Muslim but only looking back did I do I realize that they were signs at the time when it was happening I didn't realize that. So these were the very earliest you know signs that I was going to become inshallah a Muslim and then I grew up and I didn't like school when I was growing up I thought of it rather as a prison and so I decided when I get older I want to be free that was my thinking and I had thought about maybe becoming a nun but I thought that's too restrictive and I think I was thinking maybe one day I would like to get married and have a family and I thought you know the Muslims have a better deal than we do as Christians. Because they get to wear the hijab and be pious but they can also be married and have children I thought you know that sounds like a much better idea to me then choosing to be a nun and then you have a very restrictive life you can't get married you can't have children. So I thought yes but anyway I put that thought to the backburner of my mind because now was my time I decided when I finished school I want to be free I want to go see the world I want to experience life. I want to live a little bit so I got a job I saved up money and then I went overseas and I was very happy going to different countries and exploring the world and being free and having this free lifestyle and I God was there in my mind but I had put the religion into on the backburner and I knew that I didn't want to focus on being pious at this time in my life I had kind of said I had my time when I was in school and that was like a prison now it's my time to be free. So I really did whatever I wanted and I went wherever I wanted and I have had a very loose kind of a lifestyle you could say I didn't love a very moral lifestyle and I got into all sorts of unsavory things but I was quite happy you know being free and I have to say that in hindsight I am glad that I was able to have the opportunity to be the way I wanted to be. Because I wouldn't be who I am today if I hadn't have had had that. So in hindsight I can say that but my life was progressing and I was feeling I'm getting further and further away from what I had originally wanted to be and hope to be and plan to me in the future and I was starting to worry a bit about that and I was finding it difficult to find my way back to being what I was hoping to be which is us eventually I knew I wanted to be a good person and I wanted to live a good life and I wanted to be pious. So I didn't know how to bridge the gap between where I was and where I wanted to be. But anyway this this lifestyle went on for until I was 35 years old so I had lived South Africa when I was 23 and a half and I had gone to explore and travel the world so this lifestyle Footloose and fancy-free exploring enjoying the world sometimes not so much but you know finding out who I am and where I want to be and what I wanted to do and that continued until I was 35 years old then I found myself in London. And I met my future husband there the man who was going to be my future husband he was a Muslim Moroccan Muslim and I learned about Islam through him. And I was ready for changes that I knew I would need to make in my life to get do you know to build that bridge to be that woman that I wanted to be but I wasn't an was unable to do it so he gave me the tools basically through Islam to make me realize that that's what I needed to do so that I could become this good person that I knew I had always wanted to be but I had never you know it had never been the right time and it had never happened that way for me so I was very happy to have been brought to to him. And he had been given me this guidance and information about Islam and I was learning about Islam and you know when I grown up as a Catholic I had been very happy with the religion I didn't question the Trinity because we were told that you have to have faith and I certainly did have faith so that wasn't a problem for me but Islam we learned I learned about the scientific proofs and I felt satisfied that Islam had basically proven to me that Jesus was a prophet and he wasn't the son of God. And that for me was the most difficult point for me to accept because I felt in the beginning that if I had to become a Muslim I would be betraying Jesus and when it was proven to me that Jesus was not in fact the Son of God but he was the prophet of God that was like the sealing factor for me. And I was then ready to accept Islam and I was at peace with the knowledge that I had and I accepted Islam on the 6th of June 2003 and a week later the 13th of June 2003 in London the UK my future husband proposed and we got married. So I was very very at peace and happy and of course I wore the hijab immediately and I've had ups and downs and challenges of course as time has gone on but I have been very happy to that Allah led me to Islam and showed me the right path and gave me the courage to you know walk in the the path of Islam. And he really gave me everything that I I had asked for and that I had desired and I had wanted which was the full package and the full deal which was to have a husband and inshallah to have a family which is what I have now I have two wonderful sons. So I'm very grateful to Allah for for giving me what I had truly needed and truly wanted so that I could become the person that I'd always wanted to be which was a pious woman like those women and Muslims I had grown up around and seen so I I felt really very happy that Allah had given me a way to come into Islam. And I know that they are and of course I love to hear everybody's story about the conversion story that's why I decided to you to do this and I have shared my story before. But there's so many different platforms to share your story so yeah I'm happy to share my story again and again and yeah so that's my story and I just wish everybody all the best. And if there's anybody out there who's listening to this and they're thinking of becoming a Muslim then may Allah bless you and open the doors for you and open your heart so that you will be able to come in to Islam. And you will facilitate that for you and make it easy for you. And may Allah bless us all. Thank you.