Smithaven Mall - Lyrics - R.a. The Rugged Man

This ugly *** in the mirror (this *** mirror) Punch a hole through this mirror (what am I supposed to do?) This *** in the mirror (can't deal with this breathin ***) I hate this breathin *** (life is *** up) Yo yo yo I can't believe the way I'm feelin I wake up still poor plus the pain that exists ain't never healin (Day by day) day by day goes by time is wasted My situation make me want to take a permanent vacation I'd die for my pride plus I'm tired I got no more respect left for the people in the past that I admired (I'm not ***) I'm not *** (I'm not ***) I won't be *** (I won't be ***) I eat ***; I cut my veins and then I bleed *** Plus kid, no man can be trusted I lusted for the spare custard I see the mirror close, fist got busted I get no *** cause I'm broke The last *** I had *** my crew and tried to play me like a joke It's gettin closer to my big hour I bought my first gun at six hour Y'all know it's the only way to get power But I ain't *** Even with this gat I ain't *** (I ain't ***) Ten years down the line the same *** (I ain't ***) I blame myself but at the same time blame society If yo *** don't know me then yo *** shouldn't be tryin me Put the stick in my pants and grabbed the switchblade that I got from my man the Harley Davidson rider Better known as One-Eyed-Jake the Suffolk County biker (I can't deal with this *** no more yo, oh man) I start to feel the *** I see this clique they think they ill as *** But they won't think they ill when I start killin *** Hey na na na now (x4) Now let's get back to business Witness the finish, *** is menace being broke make *** turn to sinners I go to Smithaven Mall to see if anybody wants some Anybody want some? But this is gonna cost em I walk in the sneaker store My *** is about to get raw Look at my watch it's a quarter past four My mind's blank, flippin, shittin This the dead zone I see this spanish kid listenin to reggae on his headphones I grabbed him, snatched him backwards Smacked him, he tried to react is when I was tempted to put a cap in him But I didn't, I figured it was best if he was livin Pulled the stick out everyone inside the store started shittin I made everybody in the spot get down on they fours I made a 300 pound woman strip down to her drawers It was sickenin, I couldn't believe what I was doin My life is ruined at the age of 22 And it's for real, tryin to find the spot the safe is Cannot escape this, I'm scared to be in jail with all the rapists I tried to rule the world but I blew it I gave the fat naked *** the gun to kill me, she wouldn't do it So I took the gun back and beat her down I gotta find a place to creep now (I gotta be out) Yo, yo This where my *** stops I turned around, surrounded by six cops Put the clip in my stick got six shots They made my skull almost cave in for misbehavin It's cause I chickened out and threw the gun down and gave in I had no respect on the outside But now I got less respect on the inside (inside) I tried to rule the world but I blew it Wishin I was dead but I still don't got the guts to do it Hey na na na now (x4)