The Flower of Harmony - Documentary,digest 2

Our first concert was held in... 16 November 1998, So it's very recent. Then we have had 2 concerts a week in average Sometimes more..or less. So we have hold 12 or 13 concerts. So we have had 12 or 13 concerts. But we need not so many because... it's better to prepare well. As all our members have no difficulty in performance of music, I want to work on every details. And here is a lot of works to do. I need polish many things. You deserve Lenin Komsomol Prize! All of them perform every day various music in concerts So they have far more practices than I. So it'll be *** to try dominating on them as a master. They are very... I like the ensemble because all of them are very talented and understand music very well. Of course there are conductors who think themselves the most smart but in fact it's not true. In fact musicians also feel that it's not true. They secretly laugh at such conductors and nothing good happens in such an orchestra. It's better to admit you aren't a great master yet and try to make music bit by bit. And you must cruel to yourself. Even if everyone says that your work is good but you see it's not so, you must work while your conscience as a composer isn't clear. Excuse me, Iit's my fault! What? Because it's our first performance. Let's get rid of him. Ok,we have 2 choices. First : throw me out at all, Second... - I will show you only... -The first choice! Get away from here! It seems to me that many artists,trying to find something new, don't understand it's impossible that all has been found a long time ago. So maybe it's better to become some sort of... a transfer link. According to the theory that music on earth is reflection of some kind of... other World's origin, which... which looks different and more complite,then... a composer is a person who only reflect the other reality and that's all. He's a transfer link. All that belongs to your rewards on earth must be such as enough for your normal life. So that you can write music without fearing to starve or lack of food for children. I'm writing now a vocal sycle by motives of W.Brake... and reading his biography I was surprised. He was not only unknown in his time. They actively abused him in his life. And his life was very unhappy. It seems to me that this unhappiness,maybe, made his poems so strong. But it's early for me to compare myself with such people. The music which's near to me personally, is not such... that accounts on human beings, his passions and anxieties,as Romantic music of 18-19 centuries. Nearer to me is such music,which ... speaks not so much and can be performed with any instrument,but nevertheless... will express something. It tells not of people, but of some kind of World's harmony. Such pieces are made by many composers. Of course I love classics. Morzart, Bach... I love Parcel very much and estimate no less than these composers.