Paultalks to Himself - Mar 2016 - #withcaptions by @paulidin

[music] And now it is time for March 2016, Paul Talks to Himself. This is my project where I try to do self-affirmations every day to the video camera. Do I succeed? No, I don't! But it is in the trying that makes this project. I also have a couple of days where there's just photos or some video clips of other things, besides my self-affirmations. I hope you like it! Here we go! "Apple pie is 100% American!" Crowd: Yay! "Except for the ones made in China." Crowd: Boo! Something that Connor Manning said in a recent video was that he liked how much he cared about things. And I agree. It is good that you care about things, Paul. That's a good thing about you. I care about accessibility. I care about making things available to everyone. So... That's why I closed caption all my videos. I like that about myself, I like that about you, Paul. It is pretty. I think that I am pretty easy to talk to. I think that people feel like they can open up to me and that is a thing that I really like about myself. I like the fact that people think they can talk to me about pretty much anything. Milo Stewart said that I am the US "Dad" of Small YouTubers. Haha! I, I think I know what he meant and, um, it is very true that I care about and try to support all the small YouTubers that I can. They are all important to me. And that is a great and positive affirming thing that I can say about myself, that I care about all of these, um, these youtubers with lesser reach than some of the bigger ones. Uh, today, you left a supportive comment on someone's video, where they were talking about their self-esteem issues. Their mental health issues having to do with their self image. You commiserated with them in an attempt to try to support them and lift their spirits, make them feel like they're not alone in this. Those are all things that I like about you, Paul. Those are all things that I like about me. It's funny, when you were a kid, in school mostly, you were so enamored of your own memory, Paul. You thought you had the best memory. Of course, now Trump says that he has the best memory in the world, so that sounds like a horrible thing to say! Still! It's pretty cool that you have a good memory, particularly for people and for people's names and faces. I like that about you. The idea I had, to make a February video full of all of my self-affirmations has gotten some good feedback, so Paul, you have good ideas. Uh, you have good ideas, specifically to de-stigmatize mental health issues, but in general, you have good ideas! I had this idea for how i wanted my Less Than Famous audition video to look for VidCon. And it took a few days, but I put it together. The end result is pretty good! I am proud of myself for that video, not the least of which because I support lots of other small youtubers in it. So, well done, Paul! I don't think I've recorded any self-affirmations for the past few days, so here is some--here are some. On Saturday, I drove to New York City and Pennsylvania in order to do some collaborating with youtubers, some friends of mine, because I wanted to include them in my 3 year project. So. I like the fact that I committed to that plan for those reasons and I went through with them. And just now I was watching, the You Are Enough video from Ally Taylor. It's a great video, you should watch it. Somebody in Ally's video, I can't remember exactly who, said that they also have a difficult time looking at themselves for hours and hours on end, to edit themselves for these videos. And it is hard! It definitely is hard. But, I know that sometimes... when I look at myself, and I see myself smile... and I remember the smiling? I remember, for whatever reason, I was happy when I did that video? When I recorded that footage? That makes me feel good. I think I have, I think I have a good smile. Whether it is a small, reserved one, or a big open-mouthed grinning one, I like, I like my smile. I don't know why exactly, but I've been having some mental health struggles this past couple of days... Um, not horrible, but just enough that I can't -- I feel, I have a hard time making myself do things. Do adult things that I need to do as an adult, like think about money and think about my future, ah, and make myself make youtube videos, which I want to do! Why am I struggling with it? I don't know. Mental health! Uh, but a thing that I like about myself, is that I'm no longer afraid to admit that I have mental health issues. I'm no longer afraid to admit that I'm having bad days and struggling and just don't feel good about things. I think that admitting this is not only good for me, it allows me to do things like take on this project of self-affirmations. I think that it also helps me to, uh, be a person that people can see themselves in, on youtube. Be-- like a, I'm a normal person! I, I, it's even weird to think of myself as neuroatypical because I feel like everyone I know has some form of mental health illness. Aren't we the normals now? I don't know. But I like the fact that I talk about it. I like the fact that I try to combat mental health stigma. It's a good thing about you, Paul. Since yesterday, I've done some of those adult things that are hard to do. Uh, not finished them all, but I've at least started them. I am proud of you for doing the adult things, Paul. Yeah, it should be easy by now at the age of 40, but apparently, it's not! So, well done. I might have to start over from scratch in California. I asked my boss if I could keep my job and just telework from the other coast? Uh, no, I cannot. So, can a 40, soon to be 41 year old man start all over in California? My self-affirmation for today is, good on you for thinking about this! Good on you for trying to move forward with this. It's an adventure. Let's take it before it's too late. On this freezing cold first day of Spring, Tash, on twitter, told me that she appreciated this project that I'm doing, these self-affirmations and I suggested that she try it herself, because it does make me feel better. And then she told me that i was kind. So, thanks Tash because that's my self-affirmation: I am kind to people. I try to be. I can't be, all the time! I lose my temper just like everybody else. But if I've got the spoons for it, I try to be kind to everyone, because I know that we are all struggling. I'm hard at work on my three year anniversary video. I posted up a frame from it, wherein I've got 20 of my contributors, 20 of my people who've submitted video clips all in one frame... I am very proud of myself for figuring out how to do that. I used maths and a little bit of trial and error, but mostly math. Um. I like that I can figure stuff out like that, pretty much on my own. I don't usually have to ask for a lot of help. There's nothing wrong with asking for help, but I'm proud of the fact that I could figure it out. I heard about the Brussels attack today and, uh, it's devastating to hear! What hurts any of us, hurts all of us. My self-affirming thought is that I like that I care about people around the world, not just beside me. I posted my three year anniversary video and it's nice to see that work of art that I came up with being appreciated by so many others. I, I come up with good ideas! I come up with good, creative ideas and I make them happen. Well done, Paul. Look at the blossoms behind me. Um. Self-affirmation for today? You're a good person, Paul, and you keep on trying to do good things. That's good. You also try to help people, you try to be empathic about their points of view, also a good thing. Those are my self-affirmations for today. Look at this card I got from Milo! Thanks, Milo! My self-affirmation for today is: If I'm making friends like this, I must be doing something right. My self-affirmation for today is that people want to connect with me on LinkedIn. If that doesn't say good things about a person, I don't know what does! And so that is March 2016 of Paul Talks to Himself. I didn't do a self-affirmation every day, but it was a very busy month. And April isn't going to be any less busy! So let's see how this goes. Thanks for watching. Tomorrow will be even better! Subtitles by the Amara.org community