The Professional - English Transcript

Let's talk business. This fat *** is moving in on Morizio's business. You know Morizio is a reasonable guy. He just wants a little conversation. But this guy, he don't wanna hear about it. Maybe he'll listen to you. He comes to town every Tuesday. Are you free Tuesday? Yeah, I'm free Tuesday. Nice to see you again, Mr.Jones. Remember, neatness counts. You got one half hour. One hour. What? It's Tonto, downstairs. There's a guy wants to talk to you. What's he look like? Serious. - Tell him I'm coming up. - He's coming up. Somebody's coming up. Somebody serious. Mickey, open your eyes. We got company. We got company. Come on. Stop, man! Tell the driver to wait for us out back, and hurry up. - Sweetie, what's going on? - Don't worry, baby. It's cool. Take a nap. Oh, my God. Those *** blocked both the exits. Check the terrace! - 9 1 1 emergency. - I need help. - Somebody's trying to kill me. -Just stay on the line. I'll just be off a moment. I'm gonna connect you with an officer. DetectiveJefferson. May I help you? I'll call you back. Relax, man. I got half of Bolivia sitting in them suitcases. Hasn't even been cut yet. Go ahead, take it. It's yours. Dial this number. I'll talk to you later, sweetie, okay? Bye. - Hello? - It's Morizio. Remember me? - I see you're back in town. - Yeah. I mean, no. Just for today. So it's safe to say today's your last day in town... and we'll never see your fat *** face again. Yeah. Right. Let me speak to our mutual friend. He wants to talk to you. Make sure he understands, and let him go. Do you understand? - So say it. - I understand. Good. Jesus. Two milk as usual? Why did you hide the cigarette? This building's full of rats. I didn't want my old man to find out. Got enough problems. What happened? I fell off my bike. Don't tell my dad about the cigarette, okay? - Why are you doing this to us? - I don't know-- People got memory problems these days. It must be the sun. - Know when to come out of the sun. - I don't know how it happened. What's my job? I'm just a holder. I hold the stuff you give to me. I don't look at it or touch it. - I don't know how to cut it. - Try to follow me. In June, we gave you the dope. It tests 1 00 percent pure. Now it's July, we pick up the dope, and it tests 90 percent pure. Somewhere between June and July, ten percent turned to cut! I don't know. It's none of my business. You give me the stuff, I hold it. - That's all I know. - I'm trying to help you out here... but if you're gonna be a hard-*** about it... I gotta disturb him. When he's into his music, he hates being disturbed. I'm telling you the truth. I hope so, because he's got a talent for sniffin' out a lie. It's scary. It's almost like a sixth sense. Are you gonna change your tune or I gotta bust into his? I'm telling you the truth. All right. Stan. I'm sorry. He said he didn't cut the dope. Of course he didn't. Just do me a favor. Find out who did by tomorrow. Noon. Malky, wait. I didn't cut your ***. Find out yourself!. What are you doin' out here? Get inside and do your homework. - I did it already. - Get inside and help your sister... clean up the *** house! And stop smoking cigarettes! One! Two. Take a deep breath in. Take a deep breath out. - Take a deep breath. Inhale. - Time's up. My turn. Change the channel, and I'll smash your face. Ready for the legs. And down. Sorry, sweetheart. Squeeze. Release. Good morning. Hi, honey. Sweetheart, turn that down. Mama's got a headache. - She took my turn. - She wants to watch *** cartoons! It wouldn't hurt her to move her ***. I'm not the one with a fat *** around here. Two and up. Can someone who's doing nothing all day but watching cartoons... move a little *** and go get some food? - Legs. Beautiful. - I dare you to say that again. - Margie, I think I screwed up. - It wouldn't be the first time. You always come up with somethin', right? I think I went too far this time. You're goin' too far right now. I'm gonna be late for work. How about workin' at home today? Really feel it. That's it, stomach in. - One-- - Now it's my turn! ***! She's gonna hit me! - Daddy, she's-- - ***! Shut the *** door! Please don't shoot! ***' ***. - Megatron! - Firm up the whole body. When you use the Quadra-Step, your thigh muscles-- - Can somebody answer the phone? - I'm busy! - Hello? - This is Marguerite McCallister... headmistress at the Spencer School in Wildwood, NewJersey. Is Mr. or Mrs. Lando home? This is she. Mrs. Lando, when your husband enrolled Mathilda at Spencer... he told us she had 'problems. '' As you know, we pride ourselves on turning troubled girls... into healthy, productive young women. But if they are not here, there is very little we can do. Mathilda left school without permission nearly two weeks ago. I know your husband paid tuition in advance for a year... but if you will refer to the rules and regulations manual we sent you... you will see that unless there is a valid excuse for prolonged absence... your tuition will be forfeit. She's dead. Tell that ***' kid to do a little work around here! Clean up! I'm tired of this ***' mess. Hurry up! Why am I feeling When things could look black That nothing could possibly go wrong This has been a most unusual day Love has made me see things In a different way Is life always this hard, or is it just when you're a kid? Always like this. Keep it. I'm going grocery shopping. You want some milk? One quart or two? It's two, right? I like these calm little moments before the storm. It reminds me of Beethoven. Can you hear it? It's like when you put your head to the grass... you can hear it growin'. You can hear the insects. - Do you like Beethoven? - Couldn't really say. I'm gonna play you some. Daddy! You better stay here. We said noon. I've got one minute past. You don't like Beethoven. You don't know what you're missing. Overtures like that get my juices flowing. So powerful. But after his openings, to be honest... he does tend to get a little *** boring. That's why I stopped! Toss the apartment. You're a Mozart fan. I love him too. I love Mozart! He was Austrian, you know. But for this kind of work, he's a little bit light. So I tend to go for the heavier guys. - Cool. - Dude, what the *** are you doing? Man, keep your bombacut mouth shut. Check out Brahms. He's good too. - What the *** do you know about music? - Man, knock it off!. - You check the mattress? - Nope. Wow. Oh! ***! He's dead. Jesus. Look what you did. Stan, you all right? What are you doin'? - He's dead! - But he ruined my suit. Yeah, I know, but he's dead. He's a piece of meat. Forget about it. Calm down. I'm calm. Stay there, all right? Benny! Jesus ***' Christ, Benny! It's Malky and Stan! Take it easy, all right? Come on. Come on, let's get a cigarette. Benny, we're comin' out! Benny, don't fire! Get in there! Jesus ***' Christ, Benny! You wear somethin' new and-- Got a light? Take it easy. What's happening out there? It's all right, ma'am. D.E.A. Police. Leave that poor family alone. -Everything's all right.Just calm down. -I am calm. I'm calm. Why don't you leave them alone? He said go back inside. Stan, I think it's better if we go inside. Benny, turn that kitchen upside down! Find that ***! Willy Blood, look what you did! You killed a 4-year-old kid! Did you really have to do that? Please open the door. Benny, there are three kids here. I think Stan killed this girl. Willy, that ***, shot the little boy. The third one's missing. Find her. ***. We missed the little girl, man. I'm gonna find the ***' super in this *** building. - Don't you recognize me? - Me, Grimlock. Know you! ***. - Yo! I found it! - Bingo! - They found it. - I know. There it is. There's cops outside. We better go. It's the cops outside. We better go. You stay here. What do I say? Tell them... we were doing our job. - What's your name? - Mathilda. - Sorry about your father. - If somebody didn't do it... one day or another, I would have probably done it myself. Your mother, she-- She's not my mother. My sister wanted to lose some weight. Bet she never looked better. She's not even my real sister. Just a half sister. Not a good half at that. If you couldn't stand them, why are you crying? They killed my brother. What the hell did he do? He was four years old. He never used to cry. He just used to sit next to me and cuddle. I was more of a mother to him than that *** pig ever was. Don't talk like that about pigs. They're usually nicer than people. But they smell like ***. Not true. As a matter of fact, right now I have one in my kitchen... that's very clean... - and smells very nice. - You don't have a pig in your kitchen. Yes, I do. I was just in there, and I didn't see any *** pig. Don't move. I'll get him. Piggy, where are you? There you are. Hi, Mathilda. Hi, piggy. How are you today? I've seen better days. - What's your name? - Leon. Cute name. You have anyone to go to, any family anyplace else? I'm gonna get some more milk. Holy ***. Don't touch that, please. What do you do for a living? Cleaner. You're a hit man? Cool. - Do you clean anyone? - No women, no kids. That's the rules. How much would it cost to hire someone to get those dirtbags... who killed my brother? - Five grand a head. - Wow. How about I work for you... and in exchange, you teach me how to clean? What do you think? I'll clean your place. I'll do the shopping. I'll even wash your clothes. - Is it a deal? - No, it's not a deal. What do you want me to do? I've got no place to go. You've had a rough day today. Go to sleep, and we'll see tomorrow. You've been really great with me, Leon... and it's not always like that. You know? Good night. You sleep well? Good. - After breakfast you gotta take off. - Where to? Not my problem. Read it. You don't know how to read. I'm learning, but I've had a lot of work lately... so I'm a little behind. What's it say? I've decided what to do with my life. I wanna be a cleaner. You wanna be a cleaner. Here. Take it. It's a good-bye gift. Go clean, but not with me. - I work alone. Understand? - Bonnie and Clyde didn't work alone. Thelma and Louise didn't work alone. They were the best. Mathilda, why are you doing this to me? I've been nothing but nice to you. I saved your life yesterday, right outside the door. Right. Now you're responsible for it. If you saved my life, you must've saved it for a good reason. If you throw me out now, it's like you never opened your door... like you let me die right there in front of it. But you did open it. So-- If you don't help me, I'll die tonight. I can feel it. I don't wanna die tonight. You're just a little girl. Don't take it badly, but I don't think you could do it. I'm sorry. How's that? Don't you ever do that again or I'll break your head. You got that? I don't work like that. It's not professional. There is rules. And stop saying ''okay'' all the time! Good. You expect to use that in this hotel? Mister, I have to use it... because I have an audition atJuilliard next month... and I have to practice. Okay, but not after 1 0:00. - I promise. - All right. I'll put you at the end of the hall... so that you don't disturb anyone. Fill those out, please. Daddy, can I please fill them out? I like to check in to hotels. Thanks, Pop. I'll bring these back in a minute. Fourth floor! Thanks, mister! You're lucky to have a little girl that's interested in things. I have a kid, 1 7, does nothing all day long. Can I leave my plant here while I take my stuff upstairs? Of course. I'm putting in a name of a girl in my class who makes me sick. If things get hot, she'll take the heat. There. Finished. Leon, I want you to teach me how to be like you. I want to be strong and smart like you. I know I'm not strong enough yet... but I could learn the basics, the theory. What do you think? Just the theory. I need this, Leon. I need time to get my head together. Yeah, and I need... a drink. Don't move. I'll go get one. When you told me to get this baby out for you... I thought my hearin' was goin'. I says to myself, '' Leon's a pro. Nobody uses that except beginners.'' I like to stay in shape. Sure. Always stay on top of it. It's like me. I gotta know where everything is all the time. I never leave this place, except to go from here to there. Change ain't good, Leon. You know? Check it. - Make sure it's the right thing. - I trust you. One thing's got nothin' to do with the other. Remember that. I will. The rifle is the first weapon you learn how to use... because it lets you keep your distance from the client. The closer you get to being a pro... the closer you can get to the client. The knife, for example, is the last thing you learn. Position. Never take it off until the last minute. It reflects light. They can see you coming from a mile away. And always dress down. Never brighter than the floor, okay? Let's practice now. It's the best way to learn. Who should I hit? Whoever. I'll be with you in a second. Give me a few minutes. Thank you. You guys get lost. I don't want to see you. - Is everyone in position? - This has to look natural. - No women, no kids. Right? - Right. Jogger in the yellow and orange? Keep calm. Don't take your eyes off him. Breathe easy. Watch his movement. Pretend you're running with him. Try to feel his next movement. Take a deep breath. Hold it. Now. Oh, my God! - I'm all right. I'm fine. - Get down! Where'd that come from? One shot. Not bad, huh? - Who the hell fired? - I just can't breathe! Get off me. Can we try with real bullets now? Not today. Let's pack up. Like that. - No, thanks. - No discussion. ''It seemed... to Socrates--'' I'll do it. Leon, all we do is work. We need a break. Let's play a game. - What kind of game? - I have this great game. It makes you think and helps your memory. It's exactly what you need. Like a *** Touched for the very first time - Who is it? - I don't know. Happy birthday to you Happy birthday, Mr. President I don't know. Moustache. I'm singing in the rain Just singing in the rain - What a beaut-- - Gene Kelly? Good. Your turn now. Okay, pilgrim. Clint Eastwood? - I don't know. I give up. -John Wayne. I was just about to say that. I swear. It's amazing. Leon, really brilliant. Amazing. - You love your plant, don't you? - It's my best friend. Always happy. No questions. It's like me, you see. No roots. If you really love it, you should plant it in a park so it can have roots. You should be watering me if you want me to grow. You're right. Wait! They gotta be jumping out of the plate. They gotta be alive. It's been a long time, Leon. I missed you. - And you missed some nice jobs too. - Been training. Training's good, but don't overdo it. Training don't pay as good as working, Leon. Tony... all the money I make, that you keep for me-- You need some money? Just curious. I've been working a long time... and I haven't done anything with my money. I thought maybe someday I could use it. You met a woman. You gotta be careful with women. Remember when you arrived in this country? When I took you in, you were still wet behind the ***' ears... and, already, you were in deep *** because of a woman. - Don't forget that, Leon. - I wish I could sometimes. You know, about my money-- Maybe I could give... a little... to someone. You know, to help out. It's your money. I'm just holding it for you, like a bank. Except better than a bank because banks always get knocked off. No one knocks off old Tony. Besides, with a bank... there's always tons of forms and all that ***. But old Tony, nothin' to read, nothin' to write. It's all in his head. I know how to read now. That's good, Leon. Your money's here. Whenever you want it, you just ask me. - Here's a grand. Come on. - It's okay. I don't need it. - Take it. Have some fun. Go ahead. - Thank you. All right. Now let's talk business. Don't move. I'll go get the file. Manolo, a glass of milk for my friend Leon here. Listen, Mathilda, you better be careful. You can't just speak to any guy off the street. Leon, get a grip. What's the big *** deal? I was just smoking a butt while I was waiting. I want you to stop cursing. You can't talk to people like that all the time. I want you to make an effort to talk nice. And I want you to stop smoking. It will kill you. Stay away from him. He looks like a weirdo. I'll be out in five minutes. Stand where I can see you. Leon, I think I'm kinda falling in love with you. It's the first time for me, you know. How do you know it's love if you've never been in love before? 'Cause I feel it. Where? In my stomach. It's all warm. I always had a knot there, and now it's gone. Mathilda, I'm glad you don't have a stomachache anymore. I don't think it means anything. I'm late for work. I hate being late for work. How's the practicing going? - How are we today, miss? - A little sick of practicing. I understand. But you're doing all right. I haven't received any complaints. I put a cloth over the strings to lessen the noise. That's very smart. - Not everyone loves music. - I know. What does your father do? - He's a composer. - That's wonderful. Except he's not really my father. He's my lover. Think I'll go for a walk. - What are you doing Saturday night? - What about dinner? - Where you goin'? - Visiting friends at 6J. Go ahead. What about Saturday? - About 8:00? - I don't know. You got plans? Meet you here? We know you're a busy man. We'll make this short. If you'll just take us step-by-step through exactly what happened. The guy was here. He went for his gun. ***, we shot him. - Where exactly were the kids? - I don't know! They should have been at school, don't you think? Your statement said you were the first man in. - Didn't you see any kids? - The door was broken. What happened? Did you follow the procedure? I lost a good man here. What the *** do you want with me? Cooperation. I haven't got time for this Mickey Mouse ***! You want cooperation? Come up in my office, room 4602. Kids should be at school. Come on, that's my ball! Give that back. Where you goin'? Damn! Where you goin', man? That's my ball! Follow the blue car. You want me to blast the music and go through the lights? No, drive slowly. Take the hundred bucks, and shut the *** up. I do not want to fight you, but you leave me no choice. Boy,you just gave me a great idea! - I mean a big one! - Welcome back to E! News Daily... our 30-minute look at the latest in entertainment news. I'm Bianca Ferrar. It's for you. A present. Do you want me to open it? I'll open it. How do you like it? Nice, eh? Mr. McGuffin? Can I have a word with you? Mario, go back to the barbershop. We'll finish later. Leon, what's up? All done already? Nicer than people, eh? I told you that. You got a problem? Get the chair. Sit down. I was thinking. If something happens to me someday-- Hey, Leon, nothing's gonna happen to you. You're indestructible. Bullets slide off you. You play with 'em. Tony, I thought about my money. You remember the girl who came here the other day? Her name is Mathilda. If anything happens to me... I'd like you... to give her... my money. You can count on me, Leon. Thank you, Tony. Stand up. Don't you like your job? Food. - Where you going? - Special delivery, room 4602. Sign here. Come here. - Have a nice weekend, girls. - Thanks. I'm gonna go to the restroom. Special delivery? Let me guess. Chinese? Thai, maybe? I've got it. Italian food. What's your name, angel? I want you to put the sack on the floor. Good. Now I want you to tell me everything you know about Italian food. Don't forget the name of the chef who fixed it for me. Nobody sent me. I do business for myself. So this is something... personal, is it? What filthy piece of ***... did I do now? You killed my brother. I'm sorry. And you wanna join him? It's always the same thing. It's when you start to become really afraid of death... that you learn to appreciate life. Do you like life, sweetheart? That's good. Because I take no pleasure... in taking a life... if it's from a person who doesn't care about it. Stan, I've been looking all over for you. - I checked upstairs-- - What? I'm busy. It's Malky, man. He's dead. Malky was makin' a buy for us from the Chinaman. But they got nothin' to do with it. They told me this guy came from the outside. He was a pro. He was fast. He ***'came out of nowhere. Boom, shoots the Chinaman dead in two seconds. Easy, man. I'm a cop. Then turns around, says something to Malky like-- No women, no kids. I think it was somethin' personal. Death is whimsical today. Blood, do you hear me? Yeah, I hear you, Stan. Just chill out, man. Would you take her up to my office? All right. Jesus *** Christ. ''Leon, my love. I know where to find the guys who killed my brother. Their boss is Norman Stansfield. He's in the D.E.A. building, room 4602. I'm gonna do them myself. If something goes wrong, I left you 20 grand on the table. It's for a contract. Five grand a head, right? I know I'll feel better after I do this. I love you. '' Wait. I won't be long. I can't park in front like this. It's a federal building! He's gonna do the same exact thing that I said. A nine ''millie.'' Bullets. Another nine ''millie.'' What'd you plan to do with all these guns? Maybe she was planning on taking out the whole building. Holy ***! What's this? Lunch. Careful, Blood, might be poisoned. There's no anchovies on this. Is that what you call ''I won't be long''? I been here for ten minutes. I did my best. I want a piece of cake first! Manolo, take the kids in the kitchen. I have a lot of respect for your business, Tony. When you've killed for us in the past... we've always been satisfied. That's exactly why today is going to be very hard for me. I hope you'll excuse my mood. My man was killed right here on your turf. The Chinks tell me that the hit man... was kind of the Italian type. So we figured that Tony might know something. Wait. There's more. You're gonna love this. A few hours later, a little 1 2-year-old girl comes into my office... armed to the teeth, with the firm intention of sending me to the morgue. Do you know who came and got her right there in my building? The very same... Italian hit man. I'm dying to meet him. Relax. Everything's fine. Sleep well? I never really sleep. Got one eye open always. Yeah, I forgot. I never saw someone with one eye open snore so much. - I snore? - Like a baby. I'm gonna get some milk for breakfast. I won't be long. Don't forget the code when you come back. Two knocks, then one, and two knocks again. Right? Right. Ring these up. I'm gonna go get some milk. From here on out, you don't make a sound. You answer my questions by nodding yes or shaking your head no. Is he alone? Does he expect you? Do you have keys to the apartment? Is there a code, a way of knocking, so he knows it's you? Alpha team. - Final position. We're ready to go. - Be careful. What up? Move! ***. ***. Alpha team. Man down. I told you. - Bring me everyone. - What do you mean, ''everyone''? Everyone! Take this. Go take a look. - Don't move. - Do you see anything? It's the guy. He's here. He's got a gun to my head. Nobody moves. - Let the girl go. - Take it easy, man! Okay, the girl's comin' out. Let the girl go. Grab the axe off the wall. Over there. Go! You're coming with us. Christ, he shot him! ***! Move! - Shut the *** water off!. - Got it. Come! We're in a bad way here. Send the cats. I don't know what happened. I didn't see 'em coming, I swear! I just went shopping and I came back, and they were everywhere. Stay away from the window. Come here. Snipers. Okay, now, get this *** *** out of there. - How are we gonna get outta here now? - Leave it to me. We're checking out. But it's not big enough for you. It's barely big enough for me. - We said no discussion. - No, I'm not letting-- - I'm not going! I won't go! - Listen to me. We have no chance together. But if I'm alone, I can do it. Trust me. I'm in good shape. I know I've got a lot of money with Tony. We'll take it and leave together, just the two of us. Go. You're saying that so I won't worry. - I don't wanna lose you. - You're not gonna lose me. You've given me a taste for life. I wanna be happy, sleep in a bed, have roots. You'll never be alone again. please, go now, baby. Go. Calm down. Go now. Go. See you at Tony's. I'm gonna clean them all. Tony's in an hour. I love you, Mathilda. I love you, too, Leon. Hey, what is going on up there? Take the guy out, not the building. We've got one breathing here! Get a medic on the horn! Clear the hall! Let him through! - We've got a wounded man. Make way! - Down those stairs. Let's go! Move! Get that guy off the stairs! - Get your team back out there! - I got him! We've got two men comin' down the stairs. Let's hurry! You okay? Hey, I need a medic over here! Move your ***' ***. Squad Number One, what's the status on the apartment? Can't see ***. Too much smoke. Give us five minutes. You got it. What? Two hundred men can't find one man and a girl? Did you find the girl? How are you doing? Take your mask off, quick. Let me see you. That's deep. Right. And this one here-- You're from the 3rd precinct? Let's open up his sleeve a little bit. All right, fine. put it down. This one. You stay there for two minutes. I'll be right back. Let me put the mask back on. I breathe better with it. You're all right. Sit tight. Come on, everybody out! Let's go! Out! Clear the way, men. What are you doing here? Get out. Come on. At your service. This is from... Mathilda. ***. Get out of here! Leon asked me to help you out... if somethin' happened, and I think somethin' happened. He put aside a little cash for you. So what I'm suggesting is that... seein' as how you're still so young... I should hold the money for you until you're older. Like a bank, you know, except... it's better than a bank 'cause banks always get knocked off. No one knocks off old Tony. But it's your money. In the meantime... all you gotta do is come here every once in awhile... and I'll dish it out so you can have a little fun. Here. - Here's a hundred bucks to start. - Can't I get a job instead? Ajob? What the hell can you do? I can clean. I ain't got no work for a 1 2-year-old kid... so get it out of your *** head! It's over! The game's over! Leon's dead! You hear me? Come on. You think I ain't hurtin' too? But he's dead. You're gonna forget all this craziness and get your little *** back to school. Now take this money and get the hell outta here. Don't let me see your face till next month... 'cause something tells me I'm about to lose my famous kind streak. My parents... died... in a car accident four weeks ago. It was terrible. We didn't have the time to get to know one another when you first came here... but I want you to know I'm not the kind of woman who'd let down a child... whatever her situation, whatever her mistake. So I'm going to help you and do my best to welcome you here again. But on one condition: You have to stop lying to me, Mathilda. I want you to take a chance... and trust me. Tell me what happened to you. My family got shot down by D.E.A. officers... because of a drug problem. I left with the greatest guy on Earth. He was a hit man, the best in town, but he died this morning. If you don't help me, I'll be dead by tonight. - You know her? - I've never seen her. I think we'll be okay here. "He deals the cards as a meditation And those he plays never suspect" THE END Subtitles by: Reklame "He doesn't play for the money he wins He doesn't play for respect" "He deals the cards to find the answer The sacred geometry of chance" "The hidden law of a probable outcome The numbers lead a dance" "I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier" "I know that the clubs are weapons of war" "I know that diamonds mean money for this art" "But that's not the shape of my heart" "He may play the jack of diamonds He may lay the queen of spades" "He may conceal a king in his hand While the memory of it fades" "I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier" "I know that the clubs are weapons of war" "I know that diamonds mean money for this art" "That's not the shape of my heart" "That's not the shape of my heart". "And if I told you that I loved you" "You'd maybe think there's something wrong" "I'm not a man of too many faces The mask I wear is one" "Those who speak know nothing And find out to their cost" "Like those who curse their luck in too many places" "And those who fear are lost" "I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier" "I know that the clubs are weapons of war" "I know that diamonds mean money for this art" "But that's not the shape of my heart" "But that's not the shape of my heart" "That's not the shape of my heart"